miox

just back from tpss's 20th anniversary carnival cum speechday!
well done st john, although i feel that we can be much better! =)
i thought terence did well as parade commander! did us proud.
the std4s are really happy that they're FINALLY stepping down. wahaahaa. every year's the same! 2 yrs ago i was like them! its like 'wo-hoo!, no more burden, responsibilities, trainings, scoldings!' yea right, but only after to feel so wrong every saturday w/o st john to attend, then i convinced myself i've sank into this deep shit.. well for now, was it because im so used to going for stjohn that i thought i cant live w/o it?! haha, maybe. but its just too early to ponder about this. =)

oh man. i've tried to be thrifty these days.. if not my dad's gona nag again. hai!~ w/o money IS a problem! not only to the person w/o money, but to the whole family as well! been trying to eat bread in school, not to buy drink, lunch at home. though might not be very useful, but i guess tts the most i can do. the best is to come home straight after sch, then i'll use the money for sch again tml. =)
i do hope we can strick some toto or 4D..

richness

im rich

with love;
with happiness;
with knowledge;
with power;
with zest;
with passion;
with joy!

how rich are you?

tests & exams everyweek!!
im rich with exams too! hee.
wohoo!

tomb sweeping

yesterday woke up at 3.30am to go chua chu kang!! yea. in the middle of god knows time.. its a tradition though. for my maternal family. we all meet at my ahgong's tomb which is the first stop. it was raining so heavily (for the first time) that my uncle brought out his ultra big umbrella! (the one that u'll see at the swimming pools, cafes even with the ice cream man) it was hilarious larh. dont know how he gets that. came in good use though. to shelter my ancestors. haha. we shouted few times of 'huat ah!' at all places and other people followed. copycats haha!
well. like my cousin said, its really touching to see families gathered around a tomb stone, praying, serving, chatting together. obviously, not assured tt everyone would turn up from each family. my ancestors are really fortunate! (or im really fortunate too!) about 90% of my maternal family went every year! even at this wee hours! best still, we always 'picnic' at my ahma's tomb. yea. i mean literally, we laughed, joked, eat mee hoon, durians, eggs, bread, dumplings there! haha.. like wad my mum said, my ahma likes parties and noises! hee. oh, and after visiting the last tomb stone at the coffee hill, we all went for breakfast together as well! its really a family gathering! we're so bonded! (except a few of course) haha.
but wad pondered me was, are all these offerings necessary? will the dead really gets it? its always at this time, tt my cousins and i will question..
"how big are their wallets?! the notes so big?!"
"got bank wad.."
"or they use visa!?"
"hmm.. then how they collect the money?"
"some one will do it for them.."
haha.. you sure? well, supposely.
hmm.. when my generation comes into place, will we still do the same for our ancestors? if all dead are cremated and ashes are kept, will one day the whole country be full of them? becoz the number seems to be increasing and nve ending.. will one day the law says keep all ashes at home? or even no one supposed to keep it?!
seriously, we'll nve know until the day comes. perhaps, people engaged themselves in todays world too much that the emphasis placed on respecting the dead, honouring our ancestors get less and less important?
well, for now, im just doing wad im told to do and wad i've been doing for years
=)

frends

see. true friends are those who not only verbally wish u all the best. but actually the ones making the extra effort to show his concern. not that the rest arn't friends. its in this way that friends are being catagorized. (just like how an Agrade script differ from a Bgrade script which ms leo kept saying)

lots

when im determined that i can score full marks or highest for this topical test.. "Lee Ling, 27"..
'oh no' i thought, accompanied with a few 'woahs'.. 'perhaps still the top?' smiling. "kenneth, thirty upon thirty"
'oh my god'.. indeed a little disappointed still. where have my 3marks gone to?!!? haha! slam myself on the door! still satisfied larh! its integration ok.. which is one of my worse chapters! (consoled) hahaa!! got to work harder still!! a definite f for my discrete random variable. haii.. (i thought its too easy to study..) haha! wrong prediction!
ok. had chem spa today. still manageable. after all, chemistry practical is always much much easier as compared to bio's!!! and our worse nightmare is coming!! bio spa next thurs! 1hour!! not so possible to complete man.. i started with really neat handwriting and indept thinking for bio trial, and near to the end, gosh! illiterate handwriting and i dont even know exactly what am i writing! dilution table supposed to be at the procedure, i drew it on the biological knowledge! terrible attempt.
oh. gotten new phone. cheapo, moto L6 at just $18. well i wanted a new student plan initially, but since the phone is so cheap, might as well jus buy it ah. upgraded from 100sms to 1000sms now! LOL! how to use man? i used to exceed by 30msges only.. haha! so guys, nth to do? sms me! haha! oh, call too. still incoming free. lalaLa!
wad i hate is the criticism i get from some people! oh my god! i tried choosing words tt r appealing to my ears, but apparently, i got so pissed that i kept myself shut and just let them play w my phone while complaining~ its irking me! thats the reason why i rather not change my phone. and seriously, im not like those 'xi xing yan jiu' (prefer new than old) ppl, i missed my samsung phone.. changing it back for use! perhaps in this case, people can stop giving me those unpleasant remarks! bleah. =P
ms ong (gp cum civic tutor) will be on leave for the whole mth of april! wohoo! haha. no comments. =x
challenges at home can be tougher than at school! my god. i've to always crack up with ideas and ways to tickle my parents! or at least communicate with them. yea. perhaps this can help them to reduce the rate of suffering from alzhemia or senile? =x (haha) this work is real brain draining.. and extremely challenging. sometimes i failed. and i've to try other methods.. and when i get the ball rolling, wo hoo! discussion nonstop. and that's wad i want! in this way, they can 'activate' their brain and express themselves more. and maybe give me more insight views. hahaa! im treating it as a game! level up! =)
wish me luck for bio spa!

too responsible.

hey chuiyee! if u're reading my blog. haha. thanks for the photo! i had it!
thanks a lot! its beautifully taken, thats for sure! hehe.
still look good though it appeared a little small in it! =) THANKEW!
oh, nice envelope! looks new! haha.

i tried to convince myself that studying can be fun. making friends is a challenge. learning and solving problems are just part and parcel of wad a student does. but somehow, its not so easy. especially when im in this state- 8mths away from a levels!! gosh. 3 huge subjects to clear with fantastic grades and 1 largely important language to pass. grumbling doesnt bring me any closer to my success. yes. i better get back to form.

well. have been away from st john routine quite some time. in fact, i feel pretty useless now. as in unable to accomplish things that satisfy me. since most of wad i want to achieve, can only be achieved in st john. standing infront to lead is never easy. but im so ready to do it. however, back to class. haii. seriously, i hav been telling my best pals that i feel so MAN. im like a man in the class. the one to lead. to head. to push. to speak. why couldnt some guys impressed me with their leadership skills? not that im condemning them. im just so disappointed in them. wishy washy. irresponsible. muddleheaded. can't-be-bothered attitude.. honestly, i cant trust u. as the class rep, i've failed.
im just too responsible.

when

oh man. when will another happy day comes? hmm. that's bothering me when im day dreaming.