yea right

i realised its never good to receive hweechin's phonecall!
yesterday she woke me up at 1230 to inform me to reach tpss at 130 for fac foot drill training! gosh. so i tried to pull myself out of bed and look at my foot drill sequence sheet. yea the one that i was given when i was sec3! crumpled and old..
and the best part is, i've already forgotten quite a few of the drills!! trying to recall the drills and commands, i called up ben and sze ling for help! i guess we've all forgotten the drills huh. hahaa.
gobbled up 5 tang yuan and got daddy to drive me to school! and its just so unlucky, on the way, we met the damn guy i hate! so i pointed out to daddy to run him down! muhahaa. no larh! its just suay to meet him! duhhh.
ok. i was dressed down by daddy when he knows dat i didnt want to go. was it my stupidity like wad daddy said? daddy pulled me out of my comfortable cacoon and ask wads the point of continuing if i dont want to improve! mummy asked me to quit then. this question or rather a problem has been bewildering me eversince i mentioned it to daddy. damn!
after much thought, i finally made up my mind to go. ive to work on it. i still wish to help out in snco. i want to get fdi gold! i want to be a cpr instructor! i still want to be a stjohnian!
like the motto of tpjc, aim and achieve! to bring success in all our learning.
so, daddy, im doing this for you too! =)

as for my dearest frens who are quiting, or considering to quit, perhaps just consider once more. there's so much to learn in stjohn that u probably wont be able to achieve anywhere else. and i sincerely wish to see u still in stjohn.
huiying and szeling right? angela and hweechin too!

im on the right of this pic!!! but the damn camera just hates me larh! took several times w/o me inside the pic!! even if i hold the camera!


ok. so after many many many attempts.. finally! i squeezed my face into this pic! damn it man!
but well, this pic turns out good larh! with the xmas tree behind. but guess where we were! hahaa..

right. im off to work on my training schedule already!

happy BElated bday hweechin!

who's bday!?
Ma'am huiying's idea of getting hweechin to get the candle holder out from the cake! hahaa.. its evil.. but i like it!
so ta-dah!! look how happy she is after getting that out! then we quickly cut the the piece of cake out! with her saliva man! hee!




we gave hweechin a birthday surprise!! during socialnite! its a celebration after one mth and 2days from her actual bday! ha! thanks ma'am huiying for luring her away while we prepare! im starting to think that im a really creative person! muhahaaa!!
Look! muhahaa! this is to prove that logistic is really working! i mean my ncos are larh! hahaa! i was laughing away when they tried to count the no. of raffia strings, poles, plastic cups, forks, spoons etc! muhahaa!!

this is logistic after 14km route march from tpss to east coast park!
Once a Log, forever Never gona be in Log!
;)

SNCO 06

finally. i've reached a point where my rank can no longer bring me further in snco. served snco for consecutive 3 yrs have allowed me to learn a lot from this whole experience. 1st yr in the advisory wing, 2nd in training and 3rd yr in support.
well. i wouldnt say i didnt get promoted for these 3yrs. rather, trying out in 3 very different departments have trained me to be more skillful in them. one disappointment would be that i havent try out my dreamed dept i.e. admin. to sit beside handsome officer and be his secretary! hahaa!! dream on!
when the whole world is emerging and movin forward, while u refuse to, no matter wad reason u have, one day, u'll realise its time-up for you. im pretty much at this situation already. i honestly dont mind my juniors to advance before me. im refering to those deserving ones. But of course, undeserving cadets get their rank as well. i hate it when the meaning behind the rank gets degraded; tarnished; ruined because of those black sheeps. that gives me no reason to follow suit.
however, honestly, daddy's words have shakened my stand. what he said is true. but i just cant make myself agree to another round of mental torture. whats all these for? i asked and nobody can answer.
for this yr's snco, as a greenhorn in support, i felt like an adjunct. For logistic, i admit i didnt do any thing more than rushing the kids for bunk arrangement. i even laughed when i saw the log list that says 'stapler - 1 marbles - 20 etc'! who the hell needs stapler and couldnt bring it himself? hahaa! until now i cant figure that out. we are required to count every items after they're returned. so for me ofcourse, i laughed while my nco count the 20 marbles! its ridiculous i thought!
so, apart from support, went to help out with training, as the station master for their mission, and as casualty 4times for triage! see! thats how i became useful i guess.
oh. not forgetting im called the toilet paper incharge, hor ma'am chuiyee? haha. well i admit that. its my responsibility to ensure all female toilets have sufficient toiletpaper to use. hahaa. pretty easy job larh. so thats wad i do for log, nothing great though.
only when i put myself in support, i realised the whole camp tends to neglect support and admin dept the most!! even though we're not the ops, the people u see often, we're the ones building the base for the camp! without our assistance, i believe the camp is not going to run smoothly. never forget the kindness of the support members!
lastly, i just cant seem to escape the fate of meeting people i really dislike in camp. as much as im concerned, seeing their faces in my premises (tpss) just disgust me. needless to say, the rank on their shoulders. so people, consider carefully who to send for promotions. dont be the one who mess up the whole ranking system. whatever it is, we're all volunteers for this camp! why say things to make others feel uncomfortable right. snco should be renamed as senior nco learning course.
the best part behind camps is to see my own cadets grow. well. they may not have performed to my expectations. but i strongly believe that they have grown and matured in many ways. the trainers who are trained by me as well. im really pleased with their involvement and commitment to their diff areas. the whole experience would have been a great one for them to forever remembering it.
of course, another best part is the people u meet and love in camps! im really pleased ( and i believe angela and van too) that we've known many trainers from diff corps. knowing them and having them as friends enhances the joy and happiness you'll have in camp! in stjohn! they have also become a reason why ive decided to assist in this yr's camp. in every ways, they made me enjoy the camp! im really proud to know u guys. so i shall announced it here, chuiyee! huiying! william! thanks for leading me through. =)

pics will come soon..

Training Dept

my training syllabus for 2007 is out!
wohoo!! thanks to the two persons who helped me!
wee! wanted to post reflections on snco but now no mood for that. perhaps that will come tomorrow. just glad that my foot drill and first aid syallbus are done! =)

thank u guys!

an end

oh my god.
i cant imagine going for camp with irregular secretion of progesterone and oestrogen within my body! stress, insufficient sleep and nutritional deficiency will definitely excerbate my condition! shit! this is terrible!!
im already feeling all the heat. but i have no control over these hormones.
i need oral contraceptive pill to supress my emotions!! ahhHh!
i need to cry! i have to cry!! i want to cry!!!
shit.
people, embrace my face in camp. as i'll try to embrace yours too.

yea im gona get a trophy for serving snco for consecutively 3yrs! this comes in time to mark da end of my snco journey..
snco 04 still rocks larh!
i cant wait for 18th dec to come!!!

听海

today's k session was funNY! because of hweechin's version of 听海! gosh! a sad song became a joke!







camp's coming.. .. ... ... ..... ....... ...........

sj

still shining when i took it out from da shoebox after 10mths!








it contains my heart sweat pain love passion..

on leave for 10months and today is da first time wearing my stjohn u again.
someone once told me dat im too rigid and refuse to accept changes. gets irritated also because of da new management. well. i guess i cant deny it. snco always proves me dat.
a bad day. mood spoiled. i nve knew dat i need to withstand the * of some people and nve realise my mental tolerance cannot take them. if i didnt walk off, i would probably explode or burst infront of them. its tough to accept da present scene. seriously there isnt anyone to blame. but i still cant accept da fact dat someone deal with dat in an extremely wrong way which is so unfair to me. somehow im glad dat he has improved and dealed with similar situation in a more suitable way this time. i know i really need to stand strong.









very strong. =)..










practically, nothing interest me more than my own corps training department now. but i need to brainstorm damn lot of things for it. and every generation is different. there's a need to adjust my training schedule or method to suit da new standard.
i had a double blow this morning when mdmsim told me dat justintoh is leaving tpss for sji next year..
STAND STRONG!
but
have i chosen da wrong dep for s?
or da wrong camp?
maybe im da wrong person.