innnerr

i realised that i kept asking them to move on.
but i wonder if im doing so.
i was proud. was confident. was stubborn.
am i still?
pls come back to me.
make me proud confident and stubborn again.

softer pls.

so, it was really a no.
i knew the 5k would run me out.
and im going for more.
maybe more nos are coming.
to spur me.
thats good.
cause' soon i no longer feel the sore.

met up with gela and chin after a long break. ha.
though i meet gela often. still yearn for a group gathering.
nice dinner. my fav actually. though i chewed and chewed and chewed.. (or did i swallow straight?) for some reason.

so, in a corner of c318, lie me.
blk supper, jts (juniors treat seniors), nightcycling, gdluck concert, halloween, ... are coming up!
gym squash badminton roadrelay floorball too!

im going mute. or rather, mutE-R.
yes. everything should go shhhh....

wad if its a no..

i dont know how it goes. whether tmr will be a better day for me.
but i just have this feeling, im damn suay.
well..
there's this committee in hall called, hall publications. short form, hall pub.
and no doubt, i think hall is literally like a pub.
even more entertaining i find.
love ponding. haa. wet wet wet..
=p

random

sometimes i just feel like drinking and drinking and sink myself into the deepest darkest world of what i call, ephemeral joy.
try it? u should. but well, obviously the company matters a lot. the venue too. so if u need, i recommand u, hall.
=)
ugh. wad am i doing at 215am. duhh. i think i need a washing.
slap me.
please.

Question Mark

i simply dont understand.

speechless

then i'll be so lonely over at this corner.
as much as i wish to hop around, ive tutorials and midterms to study for.
theyre not killing me. because i know im strong.
committees were a struggle too. but thanks to my date, and many others. it was pretty much solved. im grateful. i really am.
so now the problem is for me to have low endurance and tolerance level, to be unable to withstand whatever that is falling down on me.
it could be anything. failure. disasters. and i know what i just dont fathom.
why such high sense of self consciousness.
i need to feel weaker.
theyre making me tired or stronger. challenging me day by day.
soon, i'll be like the earth. run low and out of fuel.
then, maybe. i'll comprehen and accept the reasons gracefully.
better be, substantial.

BlockC's Buaya

my buayee kenneth. he wrote and sang me a song. auh. damn touched.
my buaya, junsheng aka vodka/moon. someone who i didnt know so well before and still don't know him after. hahaa. he's a jiu gui too!
my song and a piece of black forest from kenneth.

these are from my buaya, named vodka and moon.

see! made this for kenneth! its writtened "trust me, he's good! but he's mine! ~kenneth's girl"

hahaa..
this looks simple but damn it. it took me most of the time and effort. and to my realization, im dumb.

thank junsheng! ive got the toilet basin personalized too.

(20/09 - 27/09) BUAYA WEEK!

Buaya (b-y-ya) NounDefinition: Malay for "Crocodile". Also a person who likes to hit on girls/guys by doing sweet stuff for her.

Buayee (b-y-ee) NounDefinition: Someone who is being "Buayaed" by his/her Buaya.

Buaya Week (b-y-ya.wee-k) NounDefintion: One of the Best week in Sheares Hall where everyone spreads their love!

definitions sourced from quin's blog. ;)

as the pictures show. u can see tt we're pretty good at buaya-ing huh! in fact, should have taken pictures of the lobby and the lift! they were even more extensive than wad ive done for my buayee.

so to thank both buaya/yee, i brought a vodka peach down to celebrate! hahaa. shall not elaborate how it went. but i had a great night that day, albeit the horrendous morning sickness i had the next day.

so its isnt so hard to say "i love you", what's hard is the deciding factor of whether is he/she the one.