control theory

oh man. this is so upsetting. alright to me, particularly.

as i lament that tmr will be my 8th year of operation, i decided to go to the pantry and get myself a milo. hopefully to ease my tension and erase the flashbacks of the terrible op.

and this is what i saw!!

KRISPY KREME DONUT!!! as a donut fanatic, i cant help but to take out the box.. and looked at the label.. and its from AUSSIE!! (ugh. i ate kk from aussie before too =p)

having been donut crazing for these weeks, well, i couldnt help it. took a quick snap (and not bite!) with it. its glaze!!! one of my favourite flavours! and there's only one left in the box!! so i hurriedly returned it back into the fridge. (just like before!)

oh well. which lucky girl on level3 has that donuts man. awww.. i wana go hongkong!! hk sells!

so i came back into my room immediately. and finished up my milo in 32sec. still thinking abt the do-nut though. note: i never eat. i just looked. hee.

went pgp just now and saw these 2 intriguing trees along the road! of the same breed, but grew very differently. well, guess thats life for us too. different forms, shapes, sizes, styles.. but one human race.

with the scar on my back. i embraced pain, stares, and awful sights of it, to live on stronger.

every sec, im carrying it. natural the docs said. was it all meant to be. young and decisive. dollars and hours spents. to keep me upright, just like the trees on the left.

wombat and my donut story

this afternoon. wombat came to me and said "im hungry!!". dude, i am too. but u see, its my wombat, so in order to save him, i sacrificed my donut. =(

and when wombat saw it, he flipped and flopped over excitedly!
he smelt it, and piggybacked it somewhere.. he drooled along da way though!

wombat is damn sucky. mins later, he realized, its inedible.
wtf.









happybirthday my buayeeee kenneth!

wouldnt it be good if it would be wouldnt it?

hallllllll

last weekend back home was short.

and i was shocked too by my mum. guess wad she bought! sweet potato (tapioca) again!!
pls. she has been cooking that for me for the past 2 weeks! it could be sweetpotato desert, sweetpotato porridge.. karma.. hahaa.. a hall thing.
but well, i asked her why that again. and she said "the sweet potatoes she bought for the past weeks werent nice. so when she saw this nice ones, she couldnt bare but to buy them."
haa. there u go, so its my mummy and sweet potato. lol.
note. only my dad and i eat sweet potato.




next goodie at home!! see wad ive found! a nice donut!! my favourite.. colour (would b flavour too if im able to eat it!) haa! yup its a donut soft toy from my sis! woah. so sweet right!! both the donut and my sis! =p
thanks man. ive this donut craving these days. and she claimed that i wouldnt be able to finish this one. =)
for ur info, the donut really has a nice smell. smells lk me! =x

these weeks have been mugging weeks. i dont usually use the word 'mug' but i guess i cant escape from it here in uni. haa.

any idea wad we had in mind? haa! thanks to the level6 guys. i had a powdery powdery room. smells really good. and my fan does look much cleaner! haa. so we had expired mango juice, milk and detergent to clean their slippers for them! we love them as much! =D
hee. and i think these pranks should come more! im boreding to max in hall!! no activities during exam periods is sad. =(


and when im back hall today! ta-dah. i had 3 extra post-tiks that say "sleep! facial and movie!" hahaa..
it was explained by quin that i have to organize all of them. and in fact, there were a whole list of 10over activities! but gods wish, the rest flew away before i return! hahaa!!
so whos the organizers for the rest?! hee!!
i'll continue the list anyway!

1)sleep
2)facial
3)movieS
4)sentosa
5)clubbing
6)go botanical garden (during nitecycling i realised i didnt go in thr yet!)
7)bbq
8)cooking
9)ponding
10)and more ponding!!! lol..
tts all for now.. will be back to update!!


keep this short sweet and simple pls =)

all over again.

sleep. easily said than done.
i just cant do it.
my body clock is failing.
im physically exhausted. but my mind is still alert. and soon will be drained.
is this exam stress again.
i slept at 4plus am, and wake naturally at 730am!
isnt good.
i tried sleeping at 230am, but i laid there for an hour, twisting and tossing over tens of times.
ended up, studying again.
ive done this. and have to do it many times more.

read a senior blog that reads last day of school.
how will i feel if this is my last sem. my last day.
happy to graduate. but have left many things undone.
will i regret not studying hard enough, or regret not taking up enough challenges.
with loads of uncertainties and unpredictable fate, i might be sailing into the working world 3/4years later.

just realised lots of my poly friends are graduating this year too.
hope they already know what they want to achieve in life.
and dont be like yours truly, caught in the labyrinth.

u know i know who knows

5k. followed by badminton.
neeeed more. more. more. more..
but i think i need more time instead.
exam. period.

knowing wad u want yet unable to achieve, makes me golgi.

my birthday is coming. and this time its 8yrs old.
wad would it be like if i died 8years ago..
happy birthday to me.
scarred.

recurrence or ocurrence?

starry sky tonight
blurs my might and lose my tight
i look from my side
and i found no bright light

where have the lights gone
i laid and thought
i shut my eyes
and they came back to life

not again.
bless me.

thanks for that talk. i'll surely miss u guys.

5k wasnt enough once again to worn me out.
it wasnt about the run. it was about the mind.
somewad. i just felt like screaming out from within.
endorphin. endorphin. i ask for it during my run.
wadever that i want very badly. i do very badly for it.

wad the f.

i just need the ears.. (and i had.)

how long do they last. how long can i last.