ohh.. so drained! have been studying/completing hmwk these days.. and my daily routine is just sleep, study, eat, watch television, study, sleep, eat, watch television.. oh my!! wad an unhealthy lifestyle!! its so tiring. brain exhausting. mind depleting. wadeva u name it..
tml is zone 8 first aid cum home nursing competition! going to cchsm. (finally out of house). will tpss win something this year? hmm.. well, hoping for one. but its all up to the competitors tml! goodluck to them. just do yr best and have lots of fun! oh.. i get to see pl too!! hee!!!
wad to blog about? hmm. my family is having some financial difficulties. shittiest thing that can happen to me. well, it does. i've one great grand uncle to take care of (erm, my dad taking care of him). and his expenses that cover 3meals, medical fees every mth, cigarettes, toto, 4Ds, horse betting add up to $800/mth! that is a lot! especially for the fact that my dad earns $1500/mth only? terrible right.. wad makes me mad is not the over all sum.. its the fact that he's spending excessively on meaningless yet harmful stuffs like gambling and smoking!! oh my.. i hate it seriously!! i cant stand heavy smokers and extreme gamblers! only such "intelligent" and "clever" people do that to shorten their life and extend their miseries! Is increasing of 4D prize a blessing or otherwise? oh my. i guess many out there has convinced themselves to think it is! so.. this problem led me to think.. is elderlys an asset or a liability? (its all depending on ur finance i guess) see.. so how to stop? persuade him is useless. persuade my dad might help. but he's complaining to me that if he doesnt gamble, then he'll lose that little chance of winning thousands over dollars. wad an excuse!! but that does shut me off. lost for words. my my.. if u win once, u'll hope to win twice.. then trice.. then every week.. everyday.. everytime.. but common sense is that that wont happen!! well.. common sense isnt that common after all.. so i was thinking how to solve the problem.. and my dad suggest that we'll sell my uncles' house.. so that we can at least sustain him for another (hopefully) 5yrs or more. and get him a rented room..
the best solution for now i guess..
unless.. we strike toto/4D today!
haha.. not again.. =P
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Thursday, March 16, 2006
ignite camp
attended a children social service camp for 2days kept me in bewilderment.
what are my objectives?!
that's a question i seriously regret not asking myself before going.
it was really a new experience for me after participating in so many st john related camps.
this is a camp without proper schedule, without rules and regulations, without authority, without hierarchy, without discipline! sounds terrible right. yes! that was it!
the first look at the 20 over primary 4-6 kids made me smiled benignly. they are just young, cute and mischivious larh! i thought.
but just after a few minutes, i doubted everything that i've said to reassure myself. making them assemble, asking them to keep silence, pushing them to work together, motivating them to participate actively, coaxing them to stop crying were not easy at all.
yes. did all that. successfully with the help of all fas members, especially my partners, kahhui and jingxuan. =)
our team, team1, pikachu was actually the winning team. but due to the lack of seriousness in rehearsing the last performance (gotten last for that event), over all the 3rd team out of 4. though kh and me were mad about it, thinking that the score system was a scam. we realised that its more important for the kids to accept failure than to celebrate success in life. hopefully they learnt.
our team leader, a p6 boy, soon kwang,is a borned leader! many people were inpressed with the way he gave instructions. so am i! but he still has a long way to go and lots more to learn as a leader.
another p4 boy, weichen, a sailormoon. sail off himself halfway through activities.
two lovable girls, charyn & xiao pei, very shy at first. but opened up after a few interactions.
a smart, obedient p6 boy, dornsen, with a identical twin, is very good at drawing! still remembers his drawing of pikachu on the team flag. beautiful!
lastly, a well known as chicken little, p5 boy, keng tai, is just so adorable! he looks really similar as that of chicken little cartoon! and even if i disturbed him by tieing up his hair with my hairband, he still happily posing for pictures! and he kept telling me "i can make people smile with my laugh. hehehee hahaa!" and i smiled. =)
honestly, i got pissed several times. and i thought why should i give myself so much pressure when i still hav st john to worry, school to stress. that's true. however, after all im still glad that i've found a new feeling there. and know a lot more about young children. luckily with zhengyi, jingxuan and hweechin (on phone) to accompany me. i managed to handle myself pretty well.
last night, took lots of photos. and sheryl, the 1st girl i know from the camp, a cubby girl from another team, came to me and said "leeling jiejie, can i take a picture with u? when are u all coming back? i'll miss you." oh my. melted. at that moment, i didnt know what to reply either. i thought i was just earning cip hours through this camp. haha! so sheepishly, i smiled and told her not to worry. she'll meet new jiejies and korkors in other activities that she go for. =)
well. obviously. i know my fas members better and met a few other volunteers like ken, jack too! not a wasted trip though my objectives were all in a mess!! haha..
(upload pics next time!)
what are my objectives?!
that's a question i seriously regret not asking myself before going.
it was really a new experience for me after participating in so many st john related camps.
this is a camp without proper schedule, without rules and regulations, without authority, without hierarchy, without discipline! sounds terrible right. yes! that was it!
the first look at the 20 over primary 4-6 kids made me smiled benignly. they are just young, cute and mischivious larh! i thought.
but just after a few minutes, i doubted everything that i've said to reassure myself. making them assemble, asking them to keep silence, pushing them to work together, motivating them to participate actively, coaxing them to stop crying were not easy at all.
yes. did all that. successfully with the help of all fas members, especially my partners, kahhui and jingxuan. =)
our team, team1, pikachu was actually the winning team. but due to the lack of seriousness in rehearsing the last performance (gotten last for that event), over all the 3rd team out of 4. though kh and me were mad about it, thinking that the score system was a scam. we realised that its more important for the kids to accept failure than to celebrate success in life. hopefully they learnt.
our team leader, a p6 boy, soon kwang,is a borned leader! many people were inpressed with the way he gave instructions. so am i! but he still has a long way to go and lots more to learn as a leader.
another p4 boy, weichen, a sailormoon. sail off himself halfway through activities.
two lovable girls, charyn & xiao pei, very shy at first. but opened up after a few interactions.
a smart, obedient p6 boy, dornsen, with a identical twin, is very good at drawing! still remembers his drawing of pikachu on the team flag. beautiful!
lastly, a well known as chicken little, p5 boy, keng tai, is just so adorable! he looks really similar as that of chicken little cartoon! and even if i disturbed him by tieing up his hair with my hairband, he still happily posing for pictures! and he kept telling me "i can make people smile with my laugh. hehehee hahaa!" and i smiled. =)
honestly, i got pissed several times. and i thought why should i give myself so much pressure when i still hav st john to worry, school to stress. that's true. however, after all im still glad that i've found a new feeling there. and know a lot more about young children. luckily with zhengyi, jingxuan and hweechin (on phone) to accompany me. i managed to handle myself pretty well.
last night, took lots of photos. and sheryl, the 1st girl i know from the camp, a cubby girl from another team, came to me and said "leeling jiejie, can i take a picture with u? when are u all coming back? i'll miss you." oh my. melted. at that moment, i didnt know what to reply either. i thought i was just earning cip hours through this camp. haha! so sheepishly, i smiled and told her not to worry. she'll meet new jiejies and korkors in other activities that she go for. =)
well. obviously. i know my fas members better and met a few other volunteers like ken, jack too! not a wasted trip though my objectives were all in a mess!! haha..
(upload pics next time!)
Sunday, March 12, 2006
happy day! snco finals
I' m so HAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, March 10, 2006
nice day!
oh man. wad a busy week for me. but NICE!
im always a mediator in sec sch and here im one again!! and muhahaa!! i accomplished my job in just 2 days!? soooooo satisfying!! heee!!
aint im great? hehee! no larh, i just feel good when others feel good too!! haha! and its really wonderful to see you guys become friends again! hee.
SL though its really draining killing a few of us.. i guess it'll be a fruitful and meaningful one! after all, its community involvement programme through service learning! haha!! sounds convincing?
ok. tomorrow will be busy too! going bak sj for standard admin! and guess wad i've for the std2s! muhaha.. some really good interesting intellectual sensible activity!! u guys better love it! and learn from it!
then after that, having last last final final snco meeting @ HQ @ 7pm! wohoo! marks the last meeting for it!! shiok! so i'll be busy looking n listening to... muhahahaa!!! no larh! kidding! =P
oh, yesterdays cca exhibits! 12 J1 signed up for FAS!! that's good already! jus hoping more will turn up on orientation day!! oh yarh! we all wore our newly made FAS shirt! bright orange!! so cooL!!! haha! united seh! =)
yea! and im going tree top hill trekking with young kids and a few of my friends!! its a cip again!! clocking another 6hrs!!! yupiee!! im looking forward to a real nice graduation certificate! muheheee!!
im always a mediator in sec sch and here im one again!! and muhahaa!! i accomplished my job in just 2 days!? soooooo satisfying!! heee!!
aint im great? hehee! no larh, i just feel good when others feel good too!! haha! and its really wonderful to see you guys become friends again! hee.
SL though its really draining killing a few of us.. i guess it'll be a fruitful and meaningful one! after all, its community involvement programme through service learning! haha!! sounds convincing?
ok. tomorrow will be busy too! going bak sj for standard admin! and guess wad i've for the std2s! muhaha.. some really good interesting intellectual sensible activity!! u guys better love it! and learn from it!
then after that, having last last final final snco meeting @ HQ @ 7pm! wohoo! marks the last meeting for it!! shiok! so i'll be busy looking n listening to... muhahahaa!!! no larh! kidding! =P
oh, yesterdays cca exhibits! 12 J1 signed up for FAS!! that's good already! jus hoping more will turn up on orientation day!! oh yarh! we all wore our newly made FAS shirt! bright orange!! so cooL!!! haha! united seh! =)
yea! and im going tree top hill trekking with young kids and a few of my friends!! its a cip again!! clocking another 6hrs!!! yupiee!! im looking forward to a real nice graduation certificate! muheheee!!
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
ulcer = broken friendship
Description:
A mouth ulcer is a painful open sore inside the mouth caused by a break in the mucous membrane.
Mouth ulcers often begin with a tingling or burning sensation at the site of the future sore. In a few days they often progress to form a red spot or bump, followed by an open ulcer.
Signs & Symptoms:
The mouth ulcer appears as a white or yellow oval with an inflamed red border. The grey, white, or yellow coloured area within the red boundary is due to the formation of layers of fibrin, a protein involved in the clotting of blood. The ulcer, which itself is often extremely painful when agitated, may be accompanied by a painful swelling of the lymph nodes.
Mouth ulcers are classified according to the diameter of the lesion. Minor ulcers, the most frequent type, are less than 10mm in diameter and typically heal in 1-2 weeks without scarring. Major ulcers are greater than 10mm in diameter and are incredibly painful. They usually take more than a month to heal and frequently leave a scar.
Causes:
The exact cause of mouth ulcers is unknown, but factors that appear to provoke them include stress, fatigue, illness, injury from accidental biting, hormonal changes, menstruation.
This is a the definition of an oral ulcer. I thought it matches the descriptions of a relationship as well.
Broken friendships started off with the MOUTH speaking the wrong words. Then this painful burning sensation in you grows and remains there.
The sore inside, worsen and swell up when you're frustrated.
small quarrels wont last, but serious ones will. and they do, leave a scar behind, forming a boundary between you and your friend.
We always think that our friend is in the wrong. but in actual, is that true? are you sure? well, probably school stress, other relationships and pms are affecting your mood and attitude.
Hmm. so whats the conclusion?
An excruciating pain.
To my taggers!
fat: muhaha! serious?? my present!!!! wohoo!! anxious! =) thanks man! i know i'll love it! presents frm u always have special memories.. hee!
ken: haha! thanks a lot! hopefully everythings going well with the CCSS organisation. and if i've probs i'll look for you k! =P
chin: hey hey.. u come and ask from me arh! if not, i wont remember one.. then dont blame me for not sending ok.. haha!
yang: well.. the prob lies with the internet connection that day. i clicked once. and twice.. and trice.. so.. haha!
xiuhui: wahh!! inspiring tag!! thanks man!! im strong!!! hehee! =)
biqi: yarh!! so stressful. but i feel better now.. after 2 streams of water falls down my cheeks!
sniff bamboo: hahaa!! u're back?! dont disappear again!! blog too k!!! yarh, thanks man!! im not wasting my time on them. haha! focusing.. but oh no! seeing them again on fri! ok, last time?! hee!! =P seeya too!!
A mouth ulcer is a painful open sore inside the mouth caused by a break in the mucous membrane.
Mouth ulcers often begin with a tingling or burning sensation at the site of the future sore. In a few days they often progress to form a red spot or bump, followed by an open ulcer.
Signs & Symptoms:
The mouth ulcer appears as a white or yellow oval with an inflamed red border. The grey, white, or yellow coloured area within the red boundary is due to the formation of layers of fibrin, a protein involved in the clotting of blood. The ulcer, which itself is often extremely painful when agitated, may be accompanied by a painful swelling of the lymph nodes.
Mouth ulcers are classified according to the diameter of the lesion. Minor ulcers, the most frequent type, are less than 10mm in diameter and typically heal in 1-2 weeks without scarring. Major ulcers are greater than 10mm in diameter and are incredibly painful. They usually take more than a month to heal and frequently leave a scar.
Causes:
The exact cause of mouth ulcers is unknown, but factors that appear to provoke them include stress, fatigue, illness, injury from accidental biting, hormonal changes, menstruation.
This is a the definition of an oral ulcer. I thought it matches the descriptions of a relationship as well.
Broken friendships started off with the MOUTH speaking the wrong words. Then this painful burning sensation in you grows and remains there.
The sore inside, worsen and swell up when you're frustrated.
small quarrels wont last, but serious ones will. and they do, leave a scar behind, forming a boundary between you and your friend.
We always think that our friend is in the wrong. but in actual, is that true? are you sure? well, probably school stress, other relationships and pms are affecting your mood and attitude.
Hmm. so whats the conclusion?
An excruciating pain.
To my taggers!
fat: muhaha! serious?? my present!!!! wohoo!! anxious! =) thanks man! i know i'll love it! presents frm u always have special memories.. hee!
ken: haha! thanks a lot! hopefully everythings going well with the CCSS organisation. and if i've probs i'll look for you k! =P
chin: hey hey.. u come and ask from me arh! if not, i wont remember one.. then dont blame me for not sending ok.. haha!
yang: well.. the prob lies with the internet connection that day. i clicked once. and twice.. and trice.. so.. haha!
xiuhui: wahh!! inspiring tag!! thanks man!! im strong!!! hehee! =)
biqi: yarh!! so stressful. but i feel better now.. after 2 streams of water falls down my cheeks!
sniff bamboo: hahaa!! u're back?! dont disappear again!! blog too k!!! yarh, thanks man!! im not wasting my time on them. haha! focusing.. but oh no! seeing them again on fri! ok, last time?! hee!! =P seeya too!!
Saturday, March 04, 2006
stresssssssssssss
oh my goshhh!!! my head is getting bigger!!! oh no, its my brain!! no no no!!! its my brain nerves!!! bursting soon!!! and my hair is reducing!!! dropping off!!! turning white!! ahhhHH!!!
so stress so stress so stress!!!!
CDD.DCC.BDE.CDE.BEE. are not what i want!!!! its just so scary to look at the scores of the previous batch of a level students!! oh my mmy myy... wad da!!! only 2 out of 20 guaranteed a seat in the uni!!! wad about the rest? wad can they do? they passed 2 ao, 2 a subj.. passed gp too.. they cant repeat!! so how?? private candidate this yr?? private uni?? pay more? overseas? bankrupt?! oh my god!!
this part of the year is always the worse! still remember ranjit showing us the previous batch's o level EL results. ahhh.. and now its the a levels! oh gosh. stressful. fearful!!
i still have 10mths! its not long. but i still have time. something needs to happen within this timeframe. i must strive!!!
seen mr reynolds for dont know how many times!!! free labour for my class man!! its seems like collecting money from u guys is easy. but not! furthermore, need to look for reynolds!!! went up to the office so many times but to no avail. its either he's too busy or he's not in. and guess wad, when i finally met him, he'll ask me "why do u giv me after dateline!?" but the prob doesnt lies with me! i printed lots of copies of the list too! and when i finally sees him, he wants a combined one. omg! it sounds like an easy job. but it has been dragging for 3weeks!! i just want to get it done!! i should and could've meet the dateline! simple things like these is stressing me up. i feel like an idiot looking for him upteen times. even the staffs in the office knows me!!
waaadeva. im tired.
so stress so stress so stress!!!!
CDD.DCC.BDE.CDE.BEE. are not what i want!!!! its just so scary to look at the scores of the previous batch of a level students!! oh my mmy myy... wad da!!! only 2 out of 20 guaranteed a seat in the uni!!! wad about the rest? wad can they do? they passed 2 ao, 2 a subj.. passed gp too.. they cant repeat!! so how?? private candidate this yr?? private uni?? pay more? overseas? bankrupt?! oh my god!!
this part of the year is always the worse! still remember ranjit showing us the previous batch's o level EL results. ahhh.. and now its the a levels! oh gosh. stressful. fearful!!
i still have 10mths! its not long. but i still have time. something needs to happen within this timeframe. i must strive!!!
seen mr reynolds for dont know how many times!!! free labour for my class man!! its seems like collecting money from u guys is easy. but not! furthermore, need to look for reynolds!!! went up to the office so many times but to no avail. its either he's too busy or he's not in. and guess wad, when i finally met him, he'll ask me "why do u giv me after dateline!?" but the prob doesnt lies with me! i printed lots of copies of the list too! and when i finally sees him, he wants a combined one. omg! it sounds like an easy job. but it has been dragging for 3weeks!! i just want to get it done!! i should and could've meet the dateline! simple things like these is stressing me up. i feel like an idiot looking for him upteen times. even the staffs in the office knows me!!
waaadeva. im tired.
stresssssss
oh my goshhh!!! my head is getting bigger!!! oh no, its my brain!! no no no!!! its my brain nerves!!! bursting soon!!! and my hair is reducing!!! dropping off!!! turning white!! ahhhHH!!!
so stress so stress so stress!!!!
CDD.DCC.BDE.CDE.BEE. are not what i want!!!! its just so scary to look at the scores of the previous batch of a level students!! oh my mmy myy... wad da!!! only 2 out of 20 guaranteed a seat in the uni!!! wad about the rest? wad can they do? they passed 2 ao, 2 a subj.. passed gp too.. they cant repeat!! so how?? private candidate this yr?? private uni?? pay more? overseas? bankrupt?! oh my god!!
this part of the year is always the worse! still remember ranjit showing us the previous batch's o level EL results. ahhh.. and now its the a levels! oh gosh. stressful. fearful!!
i still have 10mths! its not long. but i still have time. something needs to happen within this timeframe. i must strive!!!
seen mr reynolds for dont know how many times!!! free labour for my class man!! its seems like collecting money from u guys is easy. but not! furthermore, need to look for reynolds!!! went up to the office so many times but to no avail. its either he's too busy or he's not in. and guess wad, when i finally met him, he'll ask me "why do u giv me after dateline!?" but the prob doesnt lies with me! i printed lots of copies of the list too! and when i finally sees him, he wants a combined one. omg! it sounds like an easy job. but it has been dragging for 3weeks!! i just want to get it done!! i should and could've meet the dateline! simple things like these is stressing me up. i feel like an idiot looking for him upteen times. even the staffs in the office knows me!!
waaadeva. im tired.
so stress so stress so stress!!!!
CDD.DCC.BDE.CDE.BEE. are not what i want!!!! its just so scary to look at the scores of the previous batch of a level students!! oh my mmy myy... wad da!!! only 2 out of 20 guaranteed a seat in the uni!!! wad about the rest? wad can they do? they passed 2 ao, 2 a subj.. passed gp too.. they cant repeat!! so how?? private candidate this yr?? private uni?? pay more? overseas? bankrupt?! oh my god!!
this part of the year is always the worse! still remember ranjit showing us the previous batch's o level EL results. ahhh.. and now its the a levels! oh gosh. stressful. fearful!!
i still have 10mths! its not long. but i still have time. something needs to happen within this timeframe. i must strive!!!
seen mr reynolds for dont know how many times!!! free labour for my class man!! its seems like collecting money from u guys is easy. but not! furthermore, need to look for reynolds!!! went up to the office so many times but to no avail. its either he's too busy or he's not in. and guess wad, when i finally met him, he'll ask me "why do u giv me after dateline!?" but the prob doesnt lies with me! i printed lots of copies of the list too! and when i finally sees him, he wants a combined one. omg! it sounds like an easy job. but it has been dragging for 3weeks!! i just want to get it done!! i should and could've meet the dateline! simple things like these is stressing me up. i feel like an idiot looking for him upteen times. even the staffs in the office knows me!!
waaadeva. im tired.
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