damnnnnn

today is bad.
i hope next month is not..
wad a fucking day!
dampened all my mood for something that ive been looking forward to.
damn it! fuck!!
its just fate that turns out this way..
fuck itt!!!

phantasies

probably it wasnt meant to be.
or was it because im masked by the delusion that ive engendered.
positive thinking isnt really positive after all.
it could smash yr dreams horribly; and i dont think i can take that.
this is so confounding and im not sure if i should just stop woolgathering.
probably everything are just a pipe dream; temporary healing and eventually leading me into a deeper wound; some day..

the dominant trait

im always enthralled by plants. a species that are living in a common ecosystem as us.
even though their lives could be too ephemeral, every sec, they never fail to look for resources to live. Clearly, im not trying to lampoon humans (or plants), the plants have a will power that is laudable.

http://plantsinmotion.bio.indiana.edu/plantmotion/flowers/daylily/daylily.html

http://plantsinmotion.bio.indiana.edu/plantmotion/movements/nastic/nutations/sunflowernutation.html

http://plantsinmotion.bio.indiana.edu/plantmotion/earlygrowth/germination/sunflower/sun.html

2 cents worth

yea! half way through!! completed quite a few of the major papers. but gosh! the thought that its just prelims make me complacent! ah.. it doesnt really matter right.. probably the results could b a good wake up call.. oh no..

my life is so monotonous! its a routine that ill have to keep to until As is over. that means im about a mth+ awy frm it! oh no..
Despite the sudden influx of such thoughts, im anxiously waiting for the arrival of my prom! oh yea! haha.. wad shuld i wear, buy, bring, do..
yea. but first of all, ill need to look for a job! err, two jobs also can! im yearning to start workkking.. so people, look for me if uve recommendations!
then i might probably will be preoccupied with st john work.. first aid comp training not planned? or virtually no signs of it processing. i wonder hows the training of std3 cadets, are they ready for snco? is the discipline level still there? i mean there there up there!! afterwhich will be snco preparation! tt would b fun..
and so i guess hweechins birthday celeb will hav to postpone for a mth! hahaa! shes gona kill me~ well, see! after camp, gotta get ready for xmas celeb! hahaa.. prepare presents and cookies! oh not forgetting snco evaluations, finale etc.. hweechin, do understd! haha. i might make 13th dec for u. hahaa.. but yr present on jan can? =)

have u been through times when uve to abide to couples' effusive conversations? its nothing about eavesdropping. wads so nice to listen anyway. the situation is worsen if they did it purposely! fu! i jus cant understd why are some people so apathetic.

humans are a bunch of sophisticated creatures.
i was studyin bio on chap: reproduction in mammals. hmm.. gd topic! hahaa.. and i asked my mum, hey! why do u want to have me when u duno how exactly am i make. (well, i mean genes cells oxygen nutrients cell division etc) and oh! guess wad she answered. i know.. a little.. i asked the doctor how babies get food.. and he said babies suck blood! "ahhh!!!" and i burst into laughter! hahaa!! well, perhaps in someway, its right. but theoretically its wrong! hahaa.. it must
b a joke larh.. but seriously, in the 50s 60s 70s even some in 80s, the mums get admonishment whenever they gave birth to a girl! wads wrong with girls anyway. haa. well, mother-in-laws dont even know wad make up a boy! how can they demand their grandchildren to be a boy! so unjust for mummys in those days..
im lucky enough to know more than jus babies sucking blood. hee.
u can try asking ur parents! u may get some inspirative answers frm them.. =)

my teachers..

Ms Leo makes Bio interesting..












Ms Lee makes Chem easy..












Mrs Neo makes maths fun!

never had i have such a wonderful teachers' day before. haha. i believe all the teachers had fun too!
running around college taking funky photos with teachers and even our principal! woo. never expect her to be so amiable and motherly! hahaa.
it was still interesting to watch teachers performing. there were dances and songs.. its like the other side of teachers.
never expect jc's teachers day to be so fun! im so lucky to have really good teachers! like Mrs Liew, Mdm Ho, Mdm Zarinah, Mr Toh, Mr Hafiz ... they are not only patient and easy going, they are teachers who can really teach. u know, some teachers just cant. hee.

the only disappointment i have is definitely not being able to be back at tpss for justin toh! gosh. i hope he did think of me somehow. hahaa. for the fact that ive nve miss to wish him on teachers day for the past 5yrs! only till now. ugh! gotta make up for it.. haha! fortunately snco camp is in tpss! yea. so most prob i get to meet him in school then! =)

ok. so theres absolutely no reason for me to quit snco! coz i just wish its tmr.. ive so much to do! hahaa.. stjohn ppl always complain they have so much to do, but we always find joy in doing them! =)
maybe one day i can become a good teacher too. hmm..

eyes ears mouth nose

i just cant believe this! i always (or most of the time) make wrong judgement based on first impression!
the studious, decent looking guy can turn out to be incompetent and ungrateful! wad a disappointment for me! ive placed so much hope on..
at the same time, a rude and arrogant guy is actually friendly, outgoing and helpful!!
oh my god. wad da hell am i thinking! how could i make such mistakes! im so apologetic to those who i hav had negative 1st impression on and had even been condemn.

i just cant accept the facts! there's surprises & letdowns!
im easily deceived. wtf! all the positive traits you've previously displayed just seems to be packs of lies!
maybe i should just learn to listen from my heart instead.

today's sakai buffet was superd! ahh.. i just cant stop myself from posting it down.
thanks mrs neo and my gang!
i really appreciate what u guys did for me! i was so damn touched! =) yr acts just made me speechless. and guess wad! i took such a longtime to realise know the truth. haha. wad a slow poke i am. bleah. i came to acknowledge that.
oh man. and the bad thing is, this is the last wk of 3rd semester! meaning we're left with 3 more mths togther! im sure going to miss all of you..

when we met each other, we dont hav a common hobby, traits..
some love shopping, others not.
some love badminton, others not.
some love karaoke-ing, others not.
and guess wad! we all luv to indulged ourselves in gd food! muhahaa..
tt is sure a gd reason for us to meet and dine togther again! =)
not forgting our mrs neoo.. haha!

believe or not

my just-made mantra,
STRESS IT OR LOSE IT!

i'll see if its useful.. haa..
do u have one?