Monday, October 16, 2006

HWEECHIN POST

im not in da mood to post. but just because i want hweechin to post.. im here! haha!
nowadays i prefer to read others' blog den to post on my own's. so people, post more!!

oh god. will my baby be healthy?
will my baby be safe?
will my baby be smart?
will my baby be filial?
will my baby be born?!!

ugh. this is how i feel now, gitters for my papers!
amd im going hysteria!! frenzy!! madness!!

all i can do now is pray..

Friday, October 06, 2006

Ive mastered the enigmatical way of life!
Hahaha!!
*puffed up*
=)

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

damnnnnn

today is bad.
i hope next month is not..
wad a fucking day!
dampened all my mood for something that ive been looking forward to.
damn it! fuck!!
its just fate that turns out this way..
fuck itt!!!

Friday, September 22, 2006

phantasies

probably it wasnt meant to be.
or was it because im masked by the delusion that ive engendered.
positive thinking isnt really positive after all.
it could smash yr dreams horribly; and i dont think i can take that.
this is so confounding and im not sure if i should just stop woolgathering.
probably everything are just a pipe dream; temporary healing and eventually leading me into a deeper wound; some day..

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

the dominant trait

im always enthralled by plants. a species that are living in a common ecosystem as us.
even though their lives could be too ephemeral, every sec, they never fail to look for resources to live. Clearly, im not trying to lampoon humans (or plants), the plants have a will power that is laudable.

http://plantsinmotion.bio.indiana.edu/plantmotion/flowers/daylily/daylily.html

http://plantsinmotion.bio.indiana.edu/plantmotion/movements/nastic/nutations/sunflowernutation.html

http://plantsinmotion.bio.indiana.edu/plantmotion/earlygrowth/germination/sunflower/sun.html

Friday, September 15, 2006

2 cents worth

yea! half way through!! completed quite a few of the major papers. but gosh! the thought that its just prelims make me complacent! ah.. it doesnt really matter right.. probably the results could b a good wake up call.. oh no..

my life is so monotonous! its a routine that ill have to keep to until As is over. that means im about a mth+ awy frm it! oh no..
Despite the sudden influx of such thoughts, im anxiously waiting for the arrival of my prom! oh yea! haha.. wad shuld i wear, buy, bring, do..
yea. but first of all, ill need to look for a job! err, two jobs also can! im yearning to start workkking.. so people, look for me if uve recommendations!
then i might probably will be preoccupied with st john work.. first aid comp training not planned? or virtually no signs of it processing. i wonder hows the training of std3 cadets, are they ready for snco? is the discipline level still there? i mean there there up there!! afterwhich will be snco preparation! tt would b fun..
and so i guess hweechins birthday celeb will hav to postpone for a mth! hahaa! shes gona kill me~ well, see! after camp, gotta get ready for xmas celeb! hahaa.. prepare presents and cookies! oh not forgetting snco evaluations, finale etc.. hweechin, do understd! haha. i might make 13th dec for u. hahaa.. but yr present on jan can? =)

have u been through times when uve to abide to couples' effusive conversations? its nothing about eavesdropping. wads so nice to listen anyway. the situation is worsen if they did it purposely! fu! i jus cant understd why are some people so apathetic.

humans are a bunch of sophisticated creatures.
i was studyin bio on chap: reproduction in mammals. hmm.. gd topic! hahaa.. and i asked my mum, hey! why do u want to have me when u duno how exactly am i make. (well, i mean genes cells oxygen nutrients cell division etc) and oh! guess wad she answered. i know.. a little.. i asked the doctor how babies get food.. and he said babies suck blood! "ahhh!!!" and i burst into laughter! hahaa!! well, perhaps in someway, its right. but theoretically its wrong! hahaa.. it must
b a joke larh.. but seriously, in the 50s 60s 70s even some in 80s, the mums get admonishment whenever they gave birth to a girl! wads wrong with girls anyway. haa. well, mother-in-laws dont even know wad make up a boy! how can they demand their grandchildren to be a boy! so unjust for mummys in those days..
im lucky enough to know more than jus babies sucking blood. hee.
u can try asking ur parents! u may get some inspirative answers frm them.. =)

what's right or wrong

it felt so real. for the first time after so long. the signs were real, the feelings were real. the kisses were real. was it the right thing...