absolute pessimist

seriously, i have never realised da depth of da damn hole ive dug.
now dat ive no way out but to take a step ahead everyday, walking closer and closer to it..
i finally see da darkness beyond it. shit. im bound to fall into this deep damn pit!
stjohn!! im stuck!

4E1 gathering!

Yesterday morning went airport to send off my extended fam to philippines! ugh!! missed my trip again!! wt.. how to promise my aunt to go nxt june when i mayb having snco/jnco again!


Well then had a fabulous time at 4E1 lunch gathering!! we dined in at Hans River! the gathering was awesome! Oh man! i simply miss cheewee aka literature soooooo much!!! hahaa! just look at the pics and i believe u can identify da joker alr right! haha! absolutely!! hes amazing k! he can make u laugh till u drop! oh god! i jus feel lk laughin alrd upon seein his pic here! hahahaaa..

all thanks to our organiser, fat!! and the coordinators, yvonne and urs truely me! to make the gathering possible! its really nice to meet up with the class and our retired formteacher aka geo teacher who managed to assist me into getting an unexpected A2 for combined humanities! hee! opps! im guilty for tearing my geo book once durin her lesson when i was so pissed with geo! hahaa.. ah, and the strength was 22+misslow out of 40! pretty good!! more den half da class came! ah! i love this feeling! so sweet and warm! once again, literature managed to cheer my day!

oh yarh! not forgetting another one of my favourites, jianli!!! hahaa, became shorter (180cm) suddenly. yea! perhaps he grew earlier den the rest and then slowly others outgrow him! hahaa! as usual, got smack hard on my back by jianli!! and i took my revenge! mhuahaa! jus watch out during ur bday! hahaa! ahhh its a pity i 4gt to take a pic with jianli!! and yr hug made me feel like going back to 2e3 time.. =)

and atnight went to jianhong's place for dinner! shooo shiok man!! he made creamy mushroom linguine!! and jiafen had her way on the diluted cambell soup! we then watched a blacknwhite movie, 'a walk to rmb'. i tot its not really dat touching wad.. i wonder why charis said she cried so much! hahaa! but at least after months of urge to watch dat movie, finally watched it!
really had a great time!!

fat! send me da class photo!

Ritz Carlton Prom

prom was jus lk the theme says 'glitz and glamour'. "blink blink!"
wads best was postprom activity! we didnt go dxo of coz, rather a couple of kbox-ers went cineleisure for our nightsinging! wohoo!! it happened to b da 20th/40th anniversary for kbox and there's 40%discount!!! so surprised! hee!
and confirmed, those ppl are amazed with my singing skills! muhahaa! and so was i! the only girl left standing 'high' at 6am, with the other 3 semiconscious guys! hahaa!! crowned k-queen! ;)
now i know how to keep myself awake thru da night during snco!!

random pics:
my beloved gang who i held onto thru my yrs in jc.









then da flash on my cam went off..
i'm so gona miss u guys! whrs zy?!
my buddy (KP) frm tpss (who was nve my classmate before)! oh, he has big breasts! muhahaa!

of coz w lots of other guys too! but iya, KP u're jus so lucky i choose to post urs here! haha!

anger is contagious. i cant help it!

black face. bao qing tian.
wtf!
how da hell can one hav a green face, blue face purple face or face of an angel when they're in fits of anger?!
its just freaking irritating to smile or even look good! when u're angry! wtf u expect!!
as much as i wana post how happy i was during prom and especially da post-prom kbox session, im jus too mad to do so!
why are people so freaking INSENSIBLE!, APATHETIC!, IMPENITENT!! fucking hell! reason is so obviously but is still grambling!! yar right! useless!!
people, its just so against my integrity, against my principle, downgrading my dignity!!
my m is so bloody thickskin! so many cousins of mine hav been putting her as their best gugu and see wad da hell she has done!?!
damn it! im so ashamed!
when my frens say hey ur m is so nice n friendly. kao!! i forced a smile on my face.
time and again i given her chance n chance. even if i forgive again this time, i'll NEVER forget!
it simply accummulate on my blacklist!
haha! perhaps one day, i'll just explode!
change her? yah! even my aunts know its impossible! i jus cant talk sense into her!
sometimes, i wonder, how da hell i got all my genes?! from who??
dont even try to understd this.

surrprriseee!!!

my blog has landed me a work in stjohn hq today!
went bak in da afternoon to decorate da dearest zone8 noticeboard with ma'am chuiyee!
seriously, if chuiyee isnt so kind, i wouldve flared immediately upon seeing those people who are supposedly da ones decorating it! so irresponsible! wth!
well, given those limited resources dat weve, were proud of da product! hahaa! especially da recycled "E"! The border colours are alr da best colours in my pack of constructionpapers. though it looks a little dark.
so happy to meet szeling weixiang and ben too! after about half a yr, since tpss 20th anni, we met again! and szeling.. !!!! u mus hav lots to tell me during snco! hahaa! i simply cant wait! =P
then walked ard concourse with ma'am chuiyee!! haha. she must be very honoured to shop ard da xmas deco at concourse basement thisyr! coz eversince 04, i went thr with angela, for some snco meeting, we were surprised with da xmas deco at da basement! and of coz, we had lots of fun thr! and so, i shopped with hweechin on yr05, as usual, we were at concourse for some snco meeting. and ta-dah! this yr is with ma'am chuiyee! hahaaa!
oh yah, saw da snco05 picture just now on da noticeboard. kind of miss vanessa and angela in their uniform! will they be wearing their uniform any sooner? if only we can return da time to 04, when we were snco trainers togther! weirdly, we were da only 3 from tpss then. hahaa! wad an experience. even till now, angela is surprised she was in da camp n paired with chongboon! hahaa!
OHMYGOD!!! jus received a letter!! MOE letter!!! Ive gotten Merit bursary again! omg omg omg!! cant believe it! didnt expect it! nve thought of it!!! ahhHhhHh!!! didnt even hav a A for prelims! omg.. surprised!! elated!! =))))))))
haha, ok todae really happy! haha! although my parents dumped me for their malaysia trip! hahaa! i had such nice time! met up with sj ppl and received dat letter! hope tp meet u guys again soon! ahHhHhhHHHHhhHhH!!!!!!
love u guys!

surrprriseee!!!

ah! i forgot to mention! i think i see sir philip!!
omg! its another surprise! hahaa. in da same cabin on the train! didnt manage to see his front though, but da feeling ive from his back is.. yes! yes! haha. and he alighted at simei!
wads saddening is tt i lost da excitment ive for him! hahaha!
used to be really anxious when i see him! until nw i couldnt forget da incident when i met him outside tm.. and da first time i salute him! awww''.. mesmerised. but well, its over! haha! and i think he's marrying ma'am leecheng soon!
happy marriage! =P hahaa!

da day ive longed for!

glad that only my dad rmb my anniversary!! ha! and he bought me a swissroll cake!
ohh.. gosh, best part is da swissroll taste hoorrriiibbbllleee.... hahahahaaa!
but u see, im so touched dat only he remmbers, i swallowed da whole cake!
hahaa.. and worse still, after dat, my dad said why i finished it myself, he wanted to try!
oh my my.. should hav said earlier!! hahaa! but im pleased that after all ive a cake! =P

ok! so after A levels. really bored.
BUT boredom is temporary!!
some of us know why.. hahaa..
so, well, feel nothing special seriously! its exactly da same like 2yrs ago for olevels.
ugh. da gd thg is this break last till nxt yr's aug!
ive been quarantined for da past 5mths! omg! i cant believe it!
dats vlong. ok. better get my butts off da chair and move around!
;)