all over again.

sleep. easily said than done.
i just cant do it.
my body clock is failing.
im physically exhausted. but my mind is still alert. and soon will be drained.
is this exam stress again.
i slept at 4plus am, and wake naturally at 730am!
isnt good.
i tried sleeping at 230am, but i laid there for an hour, twisting and tossing over tens of times.
ended up, studying again.
ive done this. and have to do it many times more.

read a senior blog that reads last day of school.
how will i feel if this is my last sem. my last day.
happy to graduate. but have left many things undone.
will i regret not studying hard enough, or regret not taking up enough challenges.
with loads of uncertainties and unpredictable fate, i might be sailing into the working world 3/4years later.

just realised lots of my poly friends are graduating this year too.
hope they already know what they want to achieve in life.
and dont be like yours truly, caught in the labyrinth.

u know i know who knows

5k. followed by badminton.
neeeed more. more. more. more..
but i think i need more time instead.
exam. period.

knowing wad u want yet unable to achieve, makes me golgi.

my birthday is coming. and this time its 8yrs old.
wad would it be like if i died 8years ago..
happy birthday to me.
scarred.

recurrence or ocurrence?

starry sky tonight
blurs my might and lose my tight
i look from my side
and i found no bright light

where have the lights gone
i laid and thought
i shut my eyes
and they came back to life

not again.
bless me.

thanks for that talk. i'll surely miss u guys.

5k wasnt enough once again to worn me out.
it wasnt about the run. it was about the mind.
somewad. i just felt like screaming out from within.
endorphin. endorphin. i ask for it during my run.
wadever that i want very badly. i do very badly for it.

wad the f.

i just need the ears.. (and i had.)

how long do they last. how long can i last.

i need..

o man. the craving sets in again. i dont know how long i can endure. i kept seeing it..

do do do do NUTS!

marks the end of sem1

jts -junior treats senior
i'll miss 8 short after they grad. (see left - wad theyve done for us on halloween. damn. my heart dropped out. its our lift by the way. it was really gd effort. i wish to see peter though. ha)
the juniors.
6 of us! (we actually hav a +1 who was not ard.. all the time)

then that night, we celebrated shimin's bday!
thx to shimin, laimun and me got our license for ponding! heheehee..

damn. i was reminded.

ive got a wet kiss from david. hee! i dont mind another one! =)

sheares link

though im supposed to be really relax at the back, i held on to the grip with my life.

SHEARES NIGHT CYCLING 26 Oct 07

cool. my first time tandem-ing. and honestly, thanks to my partner, we managed to complete the whole course.

set off at 12am from nus, and reached east coast park at 7am. cool. a long long night..

i was afraid petrified shocked nervous anxious thru the whole journey. to loss control of the steer in my life. to follow others. require some time.

but lucky me, my partner can ride. so it was still a smooth and safe ride for me.

i'll need some courage to do it again. i'll.

shit me. its just my fault. its me. i know.