self-inflict.

DON'T do things that are not required from you.

its enough.

its more of the relational antonym of strong than it is.

anomaly

just different.


2more days to fresher air.
6more to the sky.
the wait is pain.

running away.

went for 5k+gossip run with date at around 1230am. got pulled out of my room actually.

didnt run for a week by now. so it does feel good to be on my feets again.

or rather, have lacked the push-pull factor lately. a causal link to exams. must be.

and to reward me. he gave me a 100plus! finally. i emphasized.

cause' well. theres criteria to get it.

guess hes too stressed up with paper qualifications too. thats how life will be when u come to uni.

its just another round of paper chase.

plan your route early. conscientious effort is very important. the spirit and right learning attitude too. so, dont regret. learn to rationalize.

this is what im trying to do.

gravitational pull

just like the tides in the sea. it comes and go. now and then.
im afraid to put my feet in.
will i sink. or will i sail.
procrastinations silence me. doubts froze me. and fear riped me.
as i tried to look far. my presbyopic sight failed me.
but
there is this side of me that reminds me to go.
i need to embrace impediments. cross over. to reach the site of utopia.
just like,
when the waves of tide come. im carried up.
and when they recede, im calm again.
over time. muscles of my mind grow.
till then i'll realise.

if only opportunity cost doesnt exist. if only.

diminishing clarity

why change. in life. sometimes its just hard to adapt.
given my stubborn nature, it has never been easy for me. ever.
went back to tampines today. saw the drastic physical changes made to tampines mall. a mall which i frequent daily during my secondary school days.
felt insecure. felt unnatural. felt unfamiliar. weird.
maybe because i was alone. or the rain. or the sky.
















i spoke to You today. not through my mouth. but my heart.
i hope You heard me. pls help.

9 more days. breathe on.

maybe its the last too

just realised ive done a lot of first times in this week.

my first examination in mpsh.

the first time washing my clothes in the laundry room.

the first time staying over on saturday/friday night

the first time going for dinner at ginza.

econs was tough for me. and ive decided not to be too bothered about the result. i want to take modules that im interested in and im happy with. so i still love econs! marginal benefits.. real gdp.. potential output.. ceteris paribus.. equilibrium.. opportunity cost.. purchasing power..

its definitely not my first time to the laundry room. in fact, i kept accompanying my neighbours down. but whenever i reached there, the sight of it turned me down. hahaa. well. it was really messy somehow. u see unclaimed clothes being dumped on one side of the room. pails everywhere. and is the washing machines/dryers clean in the first place. ugh. but because im staying throughout this week. ive no choice but to push them in.

though ive to queue for washing machine.. queue for dryer.. take out others clothes for them.. its pretty fresh to me. maybe because its the first time.

sat night. well, no matter if its monday..or sunday night. the nights are always quiet to me.
but at least. tonight's moon was really big and bright. how i wish i can pluck it down and put it next to me. tonight's really warm. and i dont mean warmth. but warming hot.. probably there'll be rain tmr. where it always come after.

ginza was cool. its been quite sometime since the last time ive been to a coffeeshop! well, i mean, it has been uncle vincent (hall food) for days.. so. i kinda lost of what to eat when i reached there. too overwhelmed by the foods and shearites present. so thats where almost all shearites go for dinner on sat night. it would be better if the stall vendors look happier.

after dinner and a walk at ginza, what made my heart go lub-dub lub-dub so fast was..

donuts from the donut factory!!! well, theyre not for me but my neighbour's so nice to share with us.

to my surprise, they came up with a new flavour! the chocolate heart! but thats for my dear neighbour.

seriously, i havent figure out why am i so crazy over donuts. think its just the aesthetic donuts that im obsessed with. they look really beautiful dont u think so. and the best thing is..

they never last either.

Alright. its really late but im just done with my sis's gift. tmr's her baptism day. congratulations jie. though im not a exactly a total taoist/buddhist/catholic, ive decided to attend her day. i think i'll be really sad if none of my family members attend such important day of my life.

i hope she likes this card. with me running around the hall for photo paper and good printer during exam period. see, i stillve my lecture notes behind.

i'll pray. for everyone, to have a better tomorrow.

just realised. it'll be my first time waking up tmr without breakfast in the comhall. ugh.

best time never last

why is evening so short. i love evening. especially the view from my room. there must be somewhere better that i dont know of..

lying on my bed. finally tilted the blinds open, look out and breathe. so serene and smoothing.

if only its forever.

i can even see the sun setting! thats so cool. may be watching sunset and sunrise should be one of the things to do after exams..

sometimes i thought. why am i in hall. whenever i feel down. i wish im at home. cause im sure i can crack stuffs to share with my parents, and that distracts me from whatever thats going on in my mind. but in hall. somehow, certain things are better left unspoken.

just had dinner. and made this out of what i had.. haa. shall name it, "the last journey"

dedicated for potato. not that he reads my blog, well, its his last journey in nus. bestest luck ;)

ok. it really doesnt look appealing..

cream of crop though.

tag hweechin:

hey girl. whats friends for! no worries. im glad that u enjoyed ur bday and were touched! hee! its not just me. angela helped a lot too! we cranked up with ideas to surprise u despite working on our lecture notes. haha.

love ya too!