i leave

one year ago

everything is so different

right now, things changing again

i have chosen to leave because

i was afraid you will leave me first

its painful but i think its only right

and the only way to prevent

when it comes to the matter of heart

its uncontrollable

i secretly wish my heart die

i should not deserve to go through this over and over again

and to have myself doubting on myself

is it worth being so nice

heart

i miss you

when there is no meaning to life

give up.
totally. entirely.

this family no longer holds any value.
i've seen and been through enough.

this may not be the best solution, i've decided.

i'm giving up on all of you.
i no longer have a family and i don't need you.

let me go.
i pray to God.
take me away.

because i want to die.

thank you

thank God for secretly saving me
forgiveness was to free myself

today's his last day
the episode has ended hopefully

as i seek the same forgiveness
i didn't feel happy which i thought i would.

Thank you.


this is my last tear for you

let go

Let me let go

forgive and forget

i can do it

pray

i just feel the need to stop this
i don't want anyone to be hurt
no victims please
no one should go through this ever
please do something

not hurting anyone

"follow your heart. 

As long as you are not hurting anyone,

do whatever it is you need to do

to be happy."

not hurting anyone is key.

i don't want my happiness to be at the expense of others.

I'm sorry.

i really am.

please release me from this guilt.

knowing that i could dream about it only makes me realise how remorseful i still am.

till today.

its been a year.

everything just seem to be going downhill.

the more i blog.

the more negativity i have.

please.

let me go.

i miss having you.