end 2018 quick

oh and 2018 has been well.
but, too many wrenching events happened that i try so hard avoiding the fact.
really hope this is the end.
the year ends mark a fresh beginning.


and then this feeling comes again.

keep it moving fast then since it can't go away..
and those glimpse of hope and future.

dilemma

should you give your parents money if they ask?

yes
1) they would have given to you too
2) they had been providing for so many years
3) age is catching up, just let they enjoy

No
1) they might gamble it
2) there is no valid reason
3) save for future rainy days

its a tie.
money is vice and is the root of all evil.
so is penny.

The End

will you stay?

once thought that was a guardian angel

once thought prayers were answered

once thought it was a fairytale

were once upon a time a thought

the end is approaching

and its not happily ever after

20 February

just before the clock strikes twelve
just before turning 30
just before the next day
just before you know it, it's here

though hasn't achieved much
life has been fair so far
though couldn't ask for more
could've done better

looking forward to the next 30
with greater meaning in life
and responsibilities entail

kumsahamnida; for the gift of life

i need to come to my senses
#cometome

perfect

"we are in this together"
then came the news of otherwise
and with no second breath
i cried a bucket

please don't go
come back

#please.

a part of me not giving up

as much as i try not to be too reliant,

don't leave me alone too often.

prayed and asked if thats you

it looks like

but had to reminding not to fall into it

sometimes its best not to start

you came back like an angel

so much that i couldn't believe how true

theres many options laid out

and i chose the one thats most challenging

because i know

you'll be with me

keep faith on self

it took only 4months
maybe some took only seconds
.....

relive the worst moments worst memories
remind the pain and sadness
recall the loneliness and helplessness
in order to stay awake

no fantasy no dreams

remember to smile and continue blessing
even if bleeding.

its better to suffer an injustice
than to commit one