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Just ended trip to London & Paris 10 March 12 - 20 March 12

its a journey never forgotten

learnt great lessons

experienced self navigation

seen spectacular monuments/cathedrals/places

enjoyed the walks and the shops

im loving it

living my western dream

another 365days wait

Missed me?
I kinda missed translating my emotions to texts.

oh wells, today's 19th February!
often the day to look forward in the 365days.
at least you think, its worth a celebration. afterall, a happy occasion, i guess.

but, usually when the day comes.
theres this sense of bewilderment.
a confusion. an irony. that you actually dont want it to come.
cause' you know, its another 364days later before it arrives once more.

kinda hoping to re-enact the 21st bday celeb. but of cause, will never happen.

this year's nothing special. its the first time i will spend it with my colleagues; thats because im working! really found no reason to take leave. a sad fact isnt it.
but im not dwelling it. im going to be happy in office! at least, definitely not bored. ;)

cakes. candles. wishes. wishes. wishes.
wasnt much prepared for any of these.
maybe no expectations' the best.

ok, ok. getting distracted.
so... happy birthday!

('kinda' often refers to the truth yet refusing to admit blatantly)

i know that u kept challenging me

so much things is going on at the same time.
cant sleep. cant even wink.
work. home. love. are all so screwed up.
wheres the balance sheet.

i just want to SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
whats the unfair treatment for!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuckup work

oh my god.
job is a bitch. cant stand it!
is someone who quits, a loser!?
its fucking hell daily!
HOW! hate it!
its up to oneself to decide to leave isnt it!
can just simply throw the letter! anytime! anywhere! anyhow!
fucking asshole. what to do!
even vulgarities coming out so frequently!
if chosen to stay, a great plan is needed!
SOS!

make money falls for me

thirty five thousands.
well done.
im always sure ure capable of doing it.
so your loan eventually becomes ours.
dont try to act shit. the more i want to kick your ass.
implicating others is the last thing i wana do.
and im really envy of those with cliqueing siblings.
those who share bedtime stories.
those who share clothes.
those who share thoughts.
what i have from you, are all your dirty laundries.
i really wish.
i was a single child.

i HATE u!

oh god kill me.
i dontknow if i will kill her or not.
haa. ridiculously putting this on blog.
but i just want to rant it out.
theres nobody there to listen.
they all cares for you bitch.
and u ruin every little good thing that i nurture earnestly.
i hate their grumpy faces. and the smirky look of urs!
i hate their lifeless attitude.
i hate to be where i am right now.
give me hall back. i want to leave here.
this ghostly feeling makes me not want to come back.
i so dont want to turn to god.
anyone of them die makes the situations bad.
only when i die. im free.

insidious me

alright. im back.
dear bloggy.
dont think this is jealousy. neither is it sensitivity.
but it does create uneasiness and upsetting feel.
truly sincere friendship going to a waste. gone i mean.
how much more can one define. how benevolent can one be.
reciprocation does not always reciprocate.
if you get what it means. move on.

why do one escape.
escape to where shall be asked. but not told.
nowhere can take you to a perfect world.
perfection is up to you to adapt.
despice is all that you gain.
i wish i have super powers overnight.