Saturday, July 03, 2004

Im PiSsEd oFF.. Im ScArEd!

hEy, iM baCk to writE my pOst for tODay.. well, in my house now besides my family, there's xiao yi, jia fen, jian hong, jiajia, amy jiejie n xiao jiujiu.. thEy playin mahjong manx.. and of coz.. i lost ermm... abt $3+ liao? haha! cannot make it ah.. starting win man.. full colour wor.. den now.. duhz! so let them play n i do my bloggy.. haha!
basically, im pissed off now.. not by ani one of the guests but MY SIS! wad can i say? i know she wanted to watch the 9pm chnU (looking for stars) show.. so i went to record for her.. den she saw me touching the video n she started screaming @ me.. coz she was alreadi recording a show.. BUT HELLO!!! i actuali was wantin to help her record n yet got scolded for doing that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! isnt it stupid of me??!! my goodness... i simply dont understd... why!?!?! why muz i be so considerate man!!! haiz.. my goodness is my weakness.. its not that im boasting but ITS TRUE! X_x wad can i say??
I simply feel very uncomfortable with her around.. now.. all in my mind now.. is st john n my close frenz (angela, joanna, hweechin, etc) haiz.. onli @ that time, i can relax myself.. do somethg i reali lk.. be myself.. n its reali great! how i wish im with em' now~ doing thgs i like..
hmmm.. den now im entertaining jiajia.. haha! generation gap man.. but well, i dont reali noe how to handle her.. coz i dont hav ani xperience with younger siblings..
O yah! jUz now was MT OLEVEL LC.. its was somehow quite misleading.. but well, its over n tts it man.. juz hav to wait for my MT results heez.. after tt angela, joanna, hweechin, mark, zhenglin, aaron n me went for breakfast @ delifrance.. haha finished eating i accompanied chin to the library.. can u imagine?!!? haha! n o dear.. 'he' actuali said wana wait for me!!! arhhhHH!! den tt someone gav me a stupid xpression!!! arhhh.... ohh man.. @1st i was tryin to b normal with him.. den after tt.. i hav the fear of him again!!! wad should i do??? if onli he dont b so persever.. den mayb i wont hav that feeling.. but i dont noe.. well, dont know wad he's thinking.. soo.. we shall see to it..
Aniway, now im stuck @ hm.. mahjong occupied.. money-less.. n im MAD & CONFUSED! =~|

what's right or wrong

it felt so real. for the first time after so long. the signs were real, the feelings were real. the kisses were real. was it the right thing...