UNI

went back
to recollect
to feel what has lost
to understand what was done
to face what ought to
to move on
to lift the lie
to bid farewell

will you?

if i could turn back time,
will i do the same thing again?

OFF!

a sweet wedding. a heartwarming gathering.

summed up my off days.

it has been great meeting up with friends and sharing laughters.

parts of life that is unerasable.

steady

moving on to a new phase
filled with gitters and anxiety
gritting teeths and clenching fists to face potential threats
gona be even stronger than what you expect
proves you that my degree is worth and so am i
this is not going to kill
as the fighting will be strong

beaming 9 months

its magical knowing how fast time passes and how wonderful things are being brought to a higher level
sometimes it gets hard and harder
while all that needed was a little time to reponder
to reflect to rekindle and accept
this is happiness

HANG on

i dontknow if i should appreciate what im doing
cos i dont seem to be as happy as in the past
nor am i enjoying what im doing

should i give up my work?
or is it just a freshman feel right now?

I just feel lk knocking some senses into your head!

oh shit.
why are those bastards still around!
just because they are blessed with better looks &/or more wealth and they think they can dominate others?
wtf!
these people do not even know how to love! needless to say, be true!
devils stop going around hurting innocent hearts!
just feel like going over and smack you assholes!
love isnt about you, yourself and still you! if so, marry yourself la!

whatever belongs to u will come to u
whatever does not, will never be yours, and will always live with regrets of not having u.

uncut scene

sorry. neglected u due to iphone.
somehow iphone has no access to u.
and true enough, i lost the only method to allow explosion to take place, in words.
somehow things are getting complicated.
the feelings thinking beliefs still the same, but not the person.
dont demand for explanations, cos nothing comes out is pleasing to ears.
dont question, cos theres no right or wrong.
things change people change
synchronising the hearts is difficult
u need lies to cover lies
but sometimes its good to use it to mask the ugly truth

graduate lo!

the moment of confirmation
brings life to lives
brings smiles to laughters
brings friends to family

it was great
but definitely could be better
if you are around

MY life!

its all fucking irritating! troubling! pressurising!
i know what i want but i dont know if i can do it!
freaking monster haunting the place!
messed up the area and fussed up every corner!
im feeling dirty! real dirty!!
every single item just make me feel dirty!
i wana get rid of it!!!
even so commencement on mon, i cant feel any happier!
fuck! theres so many questions in mind!
who can answer them for me! i want the answer sheet!
hate waiting for things to happen or expecting predicted situations to happen.
it just FML!

heavy heart

indescribable

let work be my second love

really wish u are here
or at least a phone call away
but freedom is so strict for now
and that definitely makes heart grows founder.

life is going to be different
but love isnt.

bank

finally, in exactly one month's time, i signed my first letter of appointment.
excited yet feeling the jitters.
hope every weekdays end fast.
so are the months.
because im counting down..

i miss you

meow

my sweetest and dearestest,
never fail to make me so loved;
even when you're miles away.

mind over body but mind is all about u

at least there's one thing to let me smile about
employed =)
getting present for my darling in one mths time!
and by then, 3mths left to go.
hopefully with the work, i will have lesser time to feel depress.
i guess this is the hardest moments i ever have.
maybe thats why people say its magical.

crawling like a toddler

okies sad. if u can see through me.
im trying really hard to fight back the emotions and thoughts.
trying to keep myself occupied as well.
but everytime im left myself to either go for interviews, or simply lying silently on bed at night, i cant help but to recollect.
well, honestly didnt expect to be affected this bad, but i guess it just re-affirmed my feelings and love.
i hope time flies. only after these, i can sense that they really fly.

i need luck. please.

im freaking nervous!!
cos i want this so badly!
and i think, just like examinations.
when u really want to score well, u feel exceptionally nervous right!
oh man.
the butterflies in the stomach is making me having diarrhoea.
alright, i know, its just me.
wish me luck please!

majority of crosses

always wonder
infact still wondering
was it all a chance of mistake
happiness is outweighed by the otherwise
running out of reasons to convince
living on a defensive mode
letting others know that
choices make decisions change
blame it on the wrong belief
the wrong time and the wrong place

a step towards the wrong direction

i choose not to care anymore
u just dont get it

never enough

is it enough? or is it not?
cant balance.
cant understand.
cant accept.
thats all.

the freedom i smell

the very last night
im sure it is
quiet room with my itunes on
dim lights and nice scene outside the windows
a small little corner where i used to hide
away from the troubles at home
and here i am for the last time
thanks sheares
it was a great hideout
love the comfort the familiarity the people the way of life here
wont regret being part of the block c history
and all the ups and downs ive teared here
love is so strong now

the tears that melts

woah its a lot
and im overwhelmed and surprised
im still unfounded
and glad that it did happen

for liking you

why cant i be more self centred!
why do i need to even care if u care!
why should i be thinking of initiating!
i hate myself

pl3ase stop stop stop

=)

i still dont like you
bitch

retard

i didnt feel so much when u first told me
but im feeling so much now

emo

im with nothing left
maybe only those who truly cares

its me or u

selfish people make me sad

do something or let them be

either or

money money money
is so funny
in TLL's world

this is good and the best that i can ever find
no surprise

self convinced

yar right
this is what i want to achieve
-

someone give me strength

hmm

something's wrong
havent figured out

deep deep

this is too much
=)

how much

i know u said and will say again that i'll never understand
yet you'll never understand either
do u see that im sandwiched between
neither do i want to hurt and i've a mind of my own too
but u just made my stance even harder to be
and seriously torn apart

always all the time

true colors

why do people became selfish all of a sudden?
or was it an innate behavior that was simply masked previously?
its freaking irritating especially when it happened to your close friend whom you thought would understand you and help you when in need.

i thought good deeds beget kindness.
whole lot of bullshit it is.
=_=

breakkk

am i wrong again?
i should hav heed yr advice
and its my fault
for everything that flows
i caused them to happen

so its just another mistake
just one more
it wouldnt hurt that much does it
yet again proven wrong
i hate my decisions
i hate my idealistic thinking
i hate myself

wrong

hate it hate it hate it
so much that i wana turn back time
please

sometimes im really grateful for your existence and your appearance
yet other times u make me feel that it would be better if i have never met you

its just as sucky as the weather

bad

if only i could
just off the switch
and numb those senses
i'll be happier..

but sometimes
life is meant to be sad
and thats why hearts broken
tears flow
memories kept..

yet my life still moves on
and i dontknow if im really happy..

diminshing

what happens if i cant work this out ?

i never change

ure misinterpreting me.
not the other way round.

stands

buy wad cannot be bought
dont buy wad can be bought

others

is it too much to ask for ?
or is it too early ?

sometimes i wish..
we've never met

L

that is something for you to keep
its forever
but once u let loose of it for too long
and take it for granted
then the renewal is subjected to changes
and everything will be different
in either the good or bad ways

TP

when the corners of the eye speak
the heart beats louder
and everything else seems invisible

its just me

sometimes
u dont seem to understand..

or is it most of the times?

love and be loved

there is nothing more i can ask more.

love strong muscles

i need strength
from you
constantly
desperately..

up level

mmmmmm.. nice talk!

how can i stop being scared?

Pass

is it wrong to think this way?
just as i thought this is so important, a life challenge came.
unexpectedly, (especially) due to recent change of thoughts, i contradict my belief twice.
my heart thinks this is not good but inevitably, we all know in reality without it u cant survive.
so how deep are u going to put me to the test?

not a saint. never a saint?

zero expectation

darling has a mate today called sweetheart!

but sweet thinks that today tomorrow or the day after is just another day.

cannot be saddded any much more

its not

still feels hurt -
a pinch of bitterness needs 10 000 of sweets to heal

my big family

woah.
uncle sam's tears touched me.
im sure he was touched too. =)
so glad everything went as expected.
and we all had good food, company and fun!
simply love the way we live.
isnt it great to put trival matters behind and move on like a big family.

LOVE

wrong facts

if u dont listen
then i will

N-S poles

sensitivity sees huge differences
differences entails arguments and discrepancies
arguments lead to unhappiness
unhappiness means cease


how to truly understands?

four

since we've all agreed
then let it be this for now
keep to it pls


didnt know it would be this hard to be a bastard

fresh

no.
wad a way to start.


slapped.