Wednesday, May 16, 2007

the day im greeted "Ms Tan"

ha! i didnt expect myself, so soon, to be greeted "Ms Tan" by classes of students! a fantastic experience that i will always keep.
got called up on monday morning to be down for relief teaching at tpss! splendid! just before my school collapse, i mean renovate, im able to be there, in the position of a teacher!
my first class. 1e4. i thought, "express class couldnt be too horrible la." but ha! apparently, i was wrong! at the end of the day, i reckoned that they were the worse class. the class that pissed me so much that i made everyone return to their seats!
ha! at that moment, i thought of my past, in 4e1. being tagged rebellious by a disgusting bloody shit relief teacher when i refused to sit down despite her staring at me and the whole class already seated! haa! i still think i did the right thing! thats for sure.
(when ever i thought of this, i will thank jianli in my heart. not that he'll read my blog, but i sincerely thank him for his righteous, courageous, braveous act that day. ive yet to find another one else like him.)
haa. ok. when the classes go "teacher this.. teacher that.. " haa! i was gleaming from within! its unfathomable! "are you married?" "whats yr pri/sec schs?" "were you from normal aca or normal tech?" "can we use our handphones?" "or mp3 please?" " can we be released earlier?" haa! are the most frequently questions coming from the students! hee! kids.
its fascinating to be colleague of my ex-teachers! be teacher of my neighbour, my cadets! ha!!
my last class was 1n1. that was their last lesson too. they were, without thinking, the noisiest class of all. but, surprisingly, was also the one that i connected with the most! their actions and behaviours are no doubt mischievious. but i just enjoyed the way they were. you know, how kids should play, laugh and enjoy, especially after their midyr exams!
haa. apparently, many funny incidents happened in the classes and i just walk pretentiously into the staff room to stop them from chasing me! ha!
its fun! funny too! =)
i missed the canteen food, my teachers, the environment, and even the toilets! ha! im gona continue to miss it, especially after the demolishment.
but life still moves on.

call me a cynic or wadever. im getting really sceptical about whatever that is going to happen.

i love fridays! and ive found passion in somethings other than stjohn.
im joyful! =D

what's right or wrong

it felt so real. for the first time after so long. the signs were real, the feelings were real. the kisses were real. was it the right thing...