i loathe this so much!

so all i can do now is wait.
wait for peoples' reply.
wait for photographs.
wait for powerpoint slides.
damn it! i was multi tasking just and now all i can do is to wait.
and even a minute of resting makes me feel weird all over. and i decided to blog.
albeit wanting to finish my book, and finish the drama series, im still waiting for responses online!
dreaded.

fac training has been tedious for me. i realised how impatient i am still after a year of leave. its bad larh. i know im not supposed to flare, or even a little mad with the kids. but i just cant help it!

packed the training cupboard after fac training. had this 'finally the cupboard belongs to me' feeling. the swagger stick, the stjohn n state flag, the leisure camp, jnco camp files, the fa manual, the fa notes, nominal rolls blah blah blahh.. are mine!
its not the materials that fantasize me of course. but the responsibility of being a training officer. i guess everyone knows da importance of training. its as though the education of the cadets are partially in my hands! (it depends on themselves and their instructors too)
i know ive a lot to do.

and im still working on my logo. damn it. im left with one last chance for my sis to use photoshop for me. and im so sure the next time i need to pacify her more! omg. wad a choice ive made. im still not prepared for negative comments to fall on me. well, thats always tough to swallow. esp after the effort put in. im shot.

im left with 1day before 07 begins! and ive still lots of st john work undone! omg. dont mention work! i haven't even start working! only when can i start working? i still have std3 course to go for. workplan to assist in. logo to build on. fa powerpoint to check. instructors to groom. fac to train.. omg!
and i havent even have time to reflect on 2006 and ponder about my aims in coming 2007!

once again. my nov and dec have been dedicated to my dearestest stjohn.

i dont wish to pass newyr while doing some st john stuffs.

enough of my complains. people, just render ur service.