Tuesday, July 17, 2007

im screaming!! from inside.


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Simple Genius by David Baldacci





met up with angela after her pok outbreak! and again the next day with fat! once again, nostalgical feelings kicked in. missed the "golden years".
oh god. my stomach cramping and my limbs going numb! the cause: attend zone meeting
this isnt a real good feeling ok. i hate it especially when i don't see any advantages for myself. oh god. i think i totally screw up the whole event. how to present?! im in for it! probably getting shoot real badly later! ah. now i know, szeling, you're right man! as long as you're in sj, you remain slim! spoiling my apetitite and mood. ah! why am i so afraid of it? damn it!
i dont have armour. no armies for defence. its a one-man show. bless me.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

i wana go back!

i havent been blogging for quite some time.
and yea. im back! but im not going to elaborate a lot on the past weeksss. i generalised it with "i've enjoyed it!".
first: i went overseas for a week! yea baby. that's like my first time in 19years taking a plane! soo excited and nerve-cracking for me. hee.
the plane left the "clean"and green singapore and brought me to a paradise.

an eye-opening experience that i will never ever going to forget.

second: i came back from holiday and i bang straight into nus arts camp! yo yo wasup yo! that was the coolest camp i've ever been! the ogls, the house leaders, the freshies are all so high!! well, of cause, your truly, can live w/o food and water but not w/o sleep!! so i was freaking tired and irritated (i admit) when they delayed my bedtime. hee!

my og: Afro- Alvar! we're the best og of our house ok!!!
albeit the stinko self, we went dxo! hahaa. it was my 2nd clubbing experience. and i think i have enough of dxo! hahaa.
alright. then after holiday and camp, its back to reality. i was turned from a princess back into a frog! hahaa.
its work and stjohn once again. work has been fine. luck was with me and i managed to make quite some deals. thank god.
but stjohn was (and it still is) on the other extreme. i had many unresolved, open-ended cases to clear. ugh. ah. that's sick.
and recently ive just found out that leslie has quit! its an unexpected tragedy. well, tpsjab has definitely loss someone who is willing to bulwark it whenever its in need. after all, i've worked with him and i think its quite a pity. anyway, goodluck to his future endeavours. we're still young and fresh, and are definitely capable of venturing into something new! (i really think so, and its making me follow suit! shit!)
so back to tpsjab. it has been really hard on grace to cover everything as a successor of leslie. i really hope she has gained enough experiences from him and is able to hold the corps together still. (in fact, it seems like i've drifted real far)
well. come to think, i am indeed immensely exceptionally extremely truly greatly lucky blessed fortunate to miss my grade6 officer rank twice!! don't smell any sarcasm because i really find it a blessing in disguise!! look at all the work that an officer has to take! omg. my responsibilities would definitely have been greater if i was promoted! im becoming really reluctant to even touch sj stuffs! furthermore, look at all the faces that officers have to bear. omg. im an unassuming person. (haha i think so) hence, sometimes, acting can be really tiring. and its absolutely a downright hypocrite to act in sj! (i can see many ppl are/at least were still like that though) oh yarh! and after two years of my failed attempts to become an officer, many seniors have come to realise how "capable" the others whom they chose to pass are. like what i've always say, it is not possible to accurately determine someone without truly comprehending him. yea. thats roughly wad sj was all about for me.
hahaa. good times never last. bad times won't either! ;) its another month to university life!! im staying in hostel! so anyone gotten their hostel too?
nus, here i come! =D

what's right or wrong

it felt so real. for the first time after so long. the signs were real, the feelings were real. the kisses were real. was it the right thing...