blocking out

used to do it myself.
then use to have it with others.
and getting back to it myself.
a great run it was.
back to the same old place through the same old route.
how silly to keep going, not once but twice the way.
the shadow's moving, the person is moving, but the heart isnt.
i really miss running with lawlee!

irony.
half of me looking forward to post exam.
but not the other halve.
even at this period, emails are bombarding and i cant imagine how im going to cope with it next sem.
anticipated fears and tears.
im trying really hard to convince. to the extent of lieing to myself each day.
but i know the days will come.
no matter how ugly i am.
ive to do what im "unknowingly" supposed to.

insomnia is not bliss.
the taste of awaking is worse.
why a sudden change in effect.
drastic.