Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Day 3

Lovely people, I shall carry on with my SNCO Camp experience. HaHa.
Day 3) Woke up at 5.15am once again. Hmm, this time slept for 3hours. Cool!~ Longer, however, still not enough. I was scare on that day. Because, there will be a DownTown Hunt!! Well, elaborate more later. First of all, went for morning P.T. I didnt really join in the exercise. I was shacked, lazy and mad! As I have mentioned earlier on. I waited and looked for Ben the night before!!! But he went to sleep!!! So I stood at one side with Angela and watched people doing it.
After that is Breakfast! I could feel as if blood rushing through my veins. Well, partly is because of the lack of sleep and the other, Ben. I didnt have the mood to join my team n him for breakfast. So i went over to the trainers' table and shared an egg with Vanessa. I cracked the egg and left the shells on the table. Later on, Zhiwei called me over. Shit! He scolded me sacastically about the egg shells. So Van and me went to throw it away. Haha, damn sacastic too. And Zhiwei said I'm bad!!! Because I left my team people. And I should learn from Angela. HaHa. Hey, we've got different team and different group advisor loh, so different case.
After breakfast, its time for the DownTown Hunt!! My team was supposed to go to 4 different stations at different places. 1) Bedok Ntuc 2)Loyang Giant 3)Simei 4)Sun Plaza Park then back to EVSS. Wah, we set off after the 'lose & found' of the 408 key. HaHa! Alright, I was scare man! Well, I have the endurance in myself to complete the whole event. However, I'm lacking some confidence. I'm scared that I will faint!!! HaHa! That's my phobia!! or maybe, damn exhausted!! Shit! Along the way, I was so happily making Ben jealous of my 3 cans of RED BULL in my bag. HaHa. Anyway, I still shared with him. See! I've an angel heart. So nice of me. In the end, I was not really tired due to the drink. My team managed to complete station 1 & 2 only. However, it was still an achievement! I had fun discussing pads and RED BULL with Ben. HaHa. We laughed like hell and the trainees were all puzzled. HaHa. Without the jokes, I'll most probably be bored to death. HaHa. Thanks! O, anyway, I had only a piece of bread with beans an a half egg for that afternoon. So, i was rather satisfied with myself. HaHaHaha!!
Back to school at around 2.45pm! On time! HaHa. Oh, my blisters were.. like shit! It was god damn painful. After plaster-ing it, I felt much better. HaHa. Anyway, Angela's team4 came back last from Kembangan. HaHa, poorthing.
Alright, they were supposed to have activation. And me being another casualty. However, it was cancelled and replaced by bunk inspection.
Wee Wee!! Preparation and then time for buffet dinner!!! I was not feeling good. Probably, because I was having the 'lost' feeling within myself. I felt alone. Angela has her team and Van has her job to do. I tried to finish all the carbohydrate food to giv my body energy. I didnt know why, but I felt weird at that time. Later, it was time for the CAMP FIRE! I observed how Yuan Zhen made the fire. The pouring of kerosene etc. I'm glab to be able to learn that!
The Camp Fire went well, with our team3 doing a 'Snow White & the 6 dogs' skit. HaHa. Quite funny having Xiao Wen as the pretty young lady. Heez. I tried to enjoy myself with Chui Yee and Zhiwei beside me. HaHa.
After that, trainers had a briefing on the Route March. Oh my god!!! U can see fear in my eyes. Ben told Ban Leong my injury. Well, I had mixed feelings at that time. I want to go!! I yearned to go!! But once again, I'm afraid of my own physical abilities. The officers were constantly reminding us that they dont want any trainers to fall-out. That means, all trainers are to complete it successfully. I want it badly. "Should I go, or should I not?" Having encouragement from Ben, Kee Leong and having continuous criticism by Kessler flashing in my mind. I went with a determination to complete, to win.


what's right or wrong

it felt so real. for the first time after so long. the signs were real, the feelings were real. the kisses were real. was it the right thing...