rush

i can forsee a busy 2007 for me. right after snco pop cum workplan, im assigned with zone games day! and ive just committed myself to jnco, and even otc!
wad about snco! not forgetting my corps training dept! courses etc! wah..
mummy asked me to stop. and i told her, daddy ask me to go otc one wad!
and daddy says "yah, after that then u quit!".
oh my god!
finally my parents show discontentment about my commitment towards stjohn. at one point, i didnt know how to explain to dad. quit after that? then wads the point of going?
he thinks at least u dont leave with regrets for not becoming a commissioned officer.
that sounds right. but its kind of conflicting with my objectives of going for otc! damn. its getting tougher n tougher. and i just wonder if i can pass my interview next week! ha!
did i mention im still unemployed!
being jobless just adds on to my current stress level! its just wrong to not work!
how possible it is to pass interview? damn it. i guess first impression counts so much in this industry! if only st johns willing to pay me, i would be so much happier! dream on..