probably it wasnt meant to be.
or was it because im masked by the delusion that ive engendered.
positive thinking isnt really positive after all.
it could smash yr dreams horribly; and i dont think i can take that.
this is so confounding and im not sure if i should just stop woolgathering.
probably everything are just a pipe dream; temporary healing and eventually leading me into a deeper wound; some day..