speechless

then i'll be so lonely over at this corner.
as much as i wish to hop around, ive tutorials and midterms to study for.
theyre not killing me. because i know im strong.
committees were a struggle too. but thanks to my date, and many others. it was pretty much solved. im grateful. i really am.
so now the problem is for me to have low endurance and tolerance level, to be unable to withstand whatever that is falling down on me.
it could be anything. failure. disasters. and i know what i just dont fathom.
why such high sense of self consciousness.
i need to feel weaker.
theyre making me tired or stronger. challenging me day by day.
soon, i'll be like the earth. run low and out of fuel.
then, maybe. i'll comprehen and accept the reasons gracefully.
better be, substantial.