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though im supposed to be really relax at the back, i held on to the grip with my life.

SHEARES NIGHT CYCLING 26 Oct 07

cool. my first time tandem-ing. and honestly, thanks to my partner, we managed to complete the whole course.

set off at 12am from nus, and reached east coast park at 7am. cool. a long long night..

i was afraid petrified shocked nervous anxious thru the whole journey. to loss control of the steer in my life. to follow others. require some time.

but lucky me, my partner can ride. so it was still a smooth and safe ride for me.

i'll need some courage to do it again. i'll.

shit me. its just my fault. its me. i know.

To Discern

Learn to say NO.
and i dont mean when people instigate u to do any horrible stuffs.. but when they ask for ur assistance.
somehow being nice to others means being nasty to urself.
in some time, my opportunity costs are going to explode. i just havent realize the extensiveness.

so kenz, hall activities are fun. dont worry. its worth staying in hall.
ive lots of frens in hall for 4th yr, doing their honours now, having cap 4and above.
so its workable. manage it well.
;)

innnerr

i realised that i kept asking them to move on.
but i wonder if im doing so.
i was proud. was confident. was stubborn.
am i still?
pls come back to me.
make me proud confident and stubborn again.

softer pls.

so, it was really a no.
i knew the 5k would run me out.
and im going for more.
maybe more nos are coming.
to spur me.
thats good.
cause' soon i no longer feel the sore.

met up with gela and chin after a long break. ha.
though i meet gela often. still yearn for a group gathering.
nice dinner. my fav actually. though i chewed and chewed and chewed.. (or did i swallow straight?) for some reason.

so, in a corner of c318, lie me.
blk supper, jts (juniors treat seniors), nightcycling, gdluck concert, halloween, ... are coming up!
gym squash badminton roadrelay floorball too!

im going mute. or rather, mutE-R.
yes. everything should go shhhh....

wad if its a no..

i dont know how it goes. whether tmr will be a better day for me.
but i just have this feeling, im damn suay.
well..
there's this committee in hall called, hall publications. short form, hall pub.
and no doubt, i think hall is literally like a pub.
even more entertaining i find.
love ponding. haa. wet wet wet..
=p

random

sometimes i just feel like drinking and drinking and sink myself into the deepest darkest world of what i call, ephemeral joy.
try it? u should. but well, obviously the company matters a lot. the venue too. so if u need, i recommand u, hall.
=)
ugh. wad am i doing at 215am. duhh. i think i need a washing.
slap me.
please.

Question Mark

i simply dont understand.

speechless

then i'll be so lonely over at this corner.
as much as i wish to hop around, ive tutorials and midterms to study for.
theyre not killing me. because i know im strong.
committees were a struggle too. but thanks to my date, and many others. it was pretty much solved. im grateful. i really am.
so now the problem is for me to have low endurance and tolerance level, to be unable to withstand whatever that is falling down on me.
it could be anything. failure. disasters. and i know what i just dont fathom.
why such high sense of self consciousness.
i need to feel weaker.
theyre making me tired or stronger. challenging me day by day.
soon, i'll be like the earth. run low and out of fuel.
then, maybe. i'll comprehen and accept the reasons gracefully.
better be, substantial.