cabbage and carrot

when people say that they can help/ they will help. i seriously wonder if they know what they're talking about and if they truly understand what help really means.
according to dictionary.com,
help- to make easier or less difficult; contribute to; facilitate
help out- to assist in an effort; be of aid to.
however, often it turns out to be otherwise. especially when they fail to even try to help, they simply worsen condition. simply because disappointment sets in.
i really need help!

its so nice giving roses to people. in fact, after doing that, i feel that i know women better! hahaa. well, it would be even better if the roses are made available to the men as well. after all, there were 5000 roses! not are we just advertising for the company, we're making people's day too!
i simply had a great time there!
come to think, its pretty easy to make a black faced person smile back at you. ha.

finally the course is over. glad that the debrief wasnt the same as last year! if not perhaps i dont know what im going to say this time. well, honestly, i had more feelings for this year's snco than last. guess its due to campday 3 that touched me so much. but
guess wad! i was greeted SGT this morning! omg. my heart sank and i just ignored. wad the fuck! i mean. but i didnt do anything about it. after all, they perhaps cant tell as im attired half u. and maybe i look young huh! what matters more to me is the feeling of ma'am isnt portrayed! you see, if you've the ma'am look, they'll just automatically greet u ma'am right! ha. forget it if possible.

job hunting is shit. am i too picky? or wad da hell is wrong man. had been a week and im still unemployed. well, excluding the 3day work larh. see, im so anxious and yet to no avail for my interviews. damn it!
maybe i should enjoy my current life.