maths s pp

oh man oh man.
school's comp is grt! haha. i mean those in computing labs n not library!
my home comp is temporarily down. =)
monitor has stopped working all of a sudden. hope its gona be well after a few day rest.
haha. sick. im still in school. waiting to take my dear mathematics S-paper selection test at 430! so late! and guess wad! there'll b only 3 big Qns to attempt. haha! and we've got 2hrs to do tt! =\
to take or not to take doesnt really matter. coz afterall, i've only 3 Alevel subjs. so anyway, im not eligible for scholarship. mrs neo (maths) said:" its all for interest." ms lee (chem) said:" if you want to further study.." and ms leo (bio) said:" no S paper for bio." haha. so.. it jus helps to enhance the beauty of your A level certificate. yea. and tt means u dont just get a pass for it! attain a merit appear better right? haha!
whatever it is, its just the first round of selection for me. still a long way to go..
jus do well for the A level maths! tt matters most! =)

happy!

yohoo. of so many days. today was the happiest. maybe becoz im back st john! haha.
in da morning. horrible thing happened. someone actually gotten the wrong cover page for written report which hav to be submitted today by 10am. so 2 members of da grp was frantically looking for one. charis n me - kind souls. haha. we helped out by shouting out to all our frens who walked past if they hav extra cover page to spare. finally charis's fren got one! and the grp was saved. oh, i forged kenneth's signature. hahaa. i tot it wasnt really important. furthermore, he's sick. why get him down just to sign da freaking cover page? =)
ok. late to report for college open house duty. teresa, sabrina, kimpoh and me were sticking together. our job was to be tour guides! guide the sec4 students ard our college. kimpoh is damn funny larh! loads of crap he has to say. nve ends. but it made my day better. haha. first, we toured a grp of girls. then 2nd grp was a grp of guys. they actually asked me for a drink! at tt moment i was holding on to my cup of orange tt i jus bought, i gave it to them. see! so nice of me! haha. grt way to start the guided tour again.. both tours took us 2hrs each! until my stomach upset me so much. i brought them to the canteen again. and i eat. hahaa.
after sab went off after our shift. teresa n me stayed behind. i was waiting for my dear std4s! haha. finally jiazheng, xiuhui, jolie, rynette, huitong, siauling came at 1+pm! so excited to see them! they made my day grt too! miss them so much. crapped ard and chatted loads while touring. hee. after that, we went off to tpss for st john!
oh i forgot to mention, that i spoke to teresa's CLA tutor, Ms Yue! oh man. she's so nice!! now then i know why quite a lot of ppl dislike mdm foo (our civics tutor), its becoz other chi tutors are so much better! hee. she even called n disturbed the "chao qi tai" lao shi (tutor)! hahaa. then finally, i told him "you really look like chao qi tai!" hahahaa.
ok. back to sj, was so happy to see grace!! haha.. miss her loads too! didnt get to see justin though. too bad. just gotten sj photo. oh yarh, heard tt JACQUALINE EE got SACKED! mhaha! she's the teacher tt quarreled with me last yr and issued me defiant letter! hahahaa. i feel as if i've won the battle! =) knew it tt she'll hav this day! serve her right! she has no right to be a teacher! my ass is much better! =P she slapped one student this time! haha. she's in for da big time! *informations are all gotten from std3s. might not be accurate. =)
besides this good news, haha. im free from the bloody dec camp! phew. schedule is so damn pack now. cant expect me to plan or carry out a camp for u right? somemore, no handsome guy ard. unlike snco. haha! snco's gona be fun with pl~
had dinner w chin, leslie and angela. haha. love strawberry sundae man. its da best! the auntie gav me loads of strawberries!! hee. chatted till 10+ when the foodcourt is closing. oh! met xia, chen, newfren, KJ and.. err. dont know yr name, sorry. haha. had grt laughter with them! miss xia so much!!
oh. then just before leaving tm, saw kaizhong. haha. the funny man. made me laugh so much too. his hp damn cool larh! can watch movie!! woo. mine cant even take pictures. =\
ok. this is a happy post. so happy. can sleep damn well tonight.
haha! last but not least, 'just for laugh' :
NPCC - National Police Catch Cockroach!! hahaha..
SP - Sure Pass
NYP - Not Yet Pass
NP - Never Pass
TP - Temporary Pass!!! hahaaa..

crap

i thought everything's over and im only left with oral presentation.
my my, what a last minute call by my dearest supervising tutor, lim yih.
lim yih said tt we hav to correct all intext citation in the written report and change the bibliography. tt means, print all again!
eh. then wad m i doing now? wasting time. haha. waiting to print..
the worse is, my grp has submitted our wr long before promo. tomorrow is the dateline and we are told to change, only today! champion! poor bang, has the most to do. thanks man. we shall get a A for this!
suddenly, i find no pleasure in my life. scoring As doesnt seem so attractive anymore. life can really be bored if u do the same thing and face the same people everyday. sometimes, i just wish to be carefree. moving around the world. looking at new different interesting scenes. but back to reality, everything lies under the university certificate. its only when u obtained one, u'll then get to be free. however, by then, ur life may not be just yours. partner, parents, friends, family will tie you down. this is fact. are you sure you wana take this risk? life can be evil. just by spelling live in the opp. direction.
everything seems so easy. for that its all in your mind. mind power is the strongest. it determines your strength and weaknesses. dont misuse it, neither abuse it. just breathe..
haha. ok. im back to normal after those sentimental thoughts.
st john is back! im rushing mdmsim for boots & berret for my standard 1s! haha. and to my surprise, mdm sim replied 'ok'! haha. hope she doent lie to me this time. im equally eager as my std1s to get them their uniform! dont rush people, u'll have loads to do after getting it. just imagine the sewing, ironing, polishing is enough to drain you. haha. nevertheless, u'll find the pleasure in doing it. its for yr own pride and glory. =)
just like my college song, "proud are we to be, a part of tampines junior college.." and a st john member and an ex-tampinesian and in 05s07 and in first aid society.. hahaa.
i dont need confidence to be confident. right? haha.

bio spa

thanks for all who encouraged me. =)
all becoz of my bio spa assessment on monday, that's why i didnt hav time to post.
yarh. its spa!! science practical assessment! it was crap man. albeit the fact tt skillbC were the easiest! you've teachers staring at u!! time rushing u to cheat the results!
haha. prepared hard for that man. but wad comes next, chinese A level exam!! oh no.. there's no intensive programme for us!! so its totally on our own!! i dun hope high this time round. really appreciate those chinese teachers in tpss. so hardworking tt time. marked our essays so quickly.
yestday was terrible. besides spa, stayed back till 410 for college open house briefing tt ends 530! drained. was hungry and giddy. slept at 830pm man! haha. yarh, and woke up only this morning! its shoik. but i guess i really running slight fever alrd. head aching arh!
i looked forward for openhse. but not anymore after tt briefing. it sounds so stupid. only showcasing of arts ccas. eg. drama, dance, guitar, choir but not the rest like soccer, badminton, gaval and interact! and the worse is, it doesnt involve the whole school. just student leaders in specific. how can u call it college open house when the whole school is not getting involve. i think its silly. there will only be talks by principal on new curriculum and also tours ard college. that's all man! those who jus want to hav a feel of my sch, then come forward! haha. Friday, 21th Oct, 9am - 4pm!
havent been speaking to my dad for days. just feel so weird. doesnt know how to express? exactly! he even said "im nt the one taking the exam. why must i know when is yr exam! haha" followed by his laughter. wad da crap! just bcoz yours sincerely here taking mt a level in 2weeks time, u dont have to care? he simply cant be bothered! how grt! im nt gona study for u. im doing it for my sake! my life! my future! mine!!
oh man. misses cheewee so much! his lame/irritating/horrible jokes always make me laugh like hell. though i get mad at him sometimes. haha. miss weibin too! just gotten his ic size pic from xuanrong. wah seh! looks damn cute larh. haha! no change, as usual.
teachers said tt we are more livelier after promo. but i dont feel this way. i become more stress and troubled now.
sickkkk. so uncomfortable.

acc for promo

after days of mental torture, finally gotten back all my promo examination scripts.
failed gp paper by 2marks. it takes up 60% for gp promo, so hopefully can pass after adding class assignments, participation and presentation.
merely passed chinese this time. just because of my essay! wrote wrong topic man. so pulled down my final mark.
ok. enough of my poor languages. talk on the better ones.
gotten an overall of ACC for promo. phew. common test in july was CEO.
hee. yea. great improvement.
A for mathematics, C for chemistry and biology.
felt best for maths and bio! didnt let mrs neo and ms leo down i guess. maths was kind of a surprise. i seriously thought the paper was tougher than ct.
i really tried hard for bio this time. managed to get a level pass. and its a c! happy for myself.
well, i thought chem was do-able because of the large percentage focusing on organic chem. hmm. but was really careless on the others.
brought scripts and passes back home. however, nobody cares.
for the fact that both my parents are not 'properly' educated, they dont understand how well i've actually done. frm the start of the year, i've been worrying for this. and in the end, i passed well. im so contented with my performance. and yet, they couldnt be bother. they just smile and nod when i announce my results proudly. i must've been silly tt time.
i know deeply inside how my aunts n uncles would congratulate me. but why arent my parents doing it. dont they know or try to know or realise or understand how important this promo is to me! can they imagine wad will happen next if i fluck all? i can just jolly well not study for them. why must i undergo such pain. and exhaust myself mentally.
the worse is when my dad said 'iya, daughters will get married off one day and leave their parents alone.' wad the .. ! i took the jc route because its the cheaper route to uni. i want to get into uni because i can earn more next time. and by doing so, i can lessen my parents burden financially.
parents are stressing their children? tt is so wrong for my case. they not only never stress me, they hardly care how well i do in school. well, sometimes they do ask, but do they know the importance of exams?! results?! that can lead to a totally different future that i'll be having!!
im constantly reminding myself to do well! im pushing myself! if i lose this force, im gone forever. i still need it. i need to feel appreciated. maybe i can try to get it from my tutors. at least i feel, they are more delighted, excited for me than them.
whatever, however much i grumble, life still moves on..

bad feeling.

oh no.
today went hougang in the afternoon. shopped ard w mum. bought new sandles. went 401. sitted at the park waiting for my great grand uncle to come home. waited for 1hr+. placed a note at his door. he called 20mins later. we were at the interchange. on da way back, bus sick.
met up w angela and hweechin. felt really glab tt we meet again. esp w angela. miss her so much. hahaa. but.. i just couldnt cheer myself up.
im paranoid. im so so anxious to get back promo results. but at the same time, im so so nervous. its all ziyang's fault!!! coz he msged me on friday! saying he met ms leo. and she said many ppl misread bio essay Q8. there's extremes in our class. oh no.
i dont know why. i just feel so uneasy after that. tt msg remain in my mind for days my goodness!! and i just dont know how to truly enjoy my break!!! ziyang!!!!!!
man man.. tml having bio tutorial in the morning. how to concentrate when we getting back maths and chem in the afternoon? haiii..
i feel so much worse than before exam.
wad if i.. oh no.. i'll stay cool.

ikea trip!

went IKEA again today with my mum!
muhaha.. took train and bus again.. long long journey..
then finally DAIM CAKE and WINGS! muahhahaa!!!! veerryy niiicccEE!
coz my mama doesnt eat beef.. so didnt buy the meat balls.. so sad!!! =\
haha then shop ard.. and my papa joined us too.. we shopped damn long larh! about 2hrs ok!
wah seh.. i was so damn tired after tt.. tabao the hotdog bread then left the place immediately.
hahaa.. fobia liao arh! shopped so long and bought $8+ things only!
then came bak to tm. was trying this top, then guess wad!! stomachache!!
muhahaa! i wear my top back, then rushed out of the fitting room to the toilet immediately!!!
haha.. so embarrassing larh!! then i phoned my mother when im in the toilet. muhahaa! i guess the sales assistants must be very puzzled! hee. i didnt dare to go bak there, so got my mother to buy the top i've tried and meet me at the toilet! hahaa..
ok.. back home.. diarrheoa again!! till now, 3 times already! oh man..

carls jr meal

whao. yesterday was fun!!!
played 3hrs of badminton w junlong, jasper, kenneth, ziyang, charis, zhengyi, ali, xtina!! i ran 30rounds ard the 2courts. haha! achievement after 2wks w/o exercise!
it was beneficial!
then, charis, zhengyi, ali, xtina and i took train to cityhall, wanted to giv cherr a surprise visit at her workplace. hahaa.. indeed it was surprise! she left the place earlier than we expect! and she actually came bak for us! haha. so nice!! then got 20++% discount! pretty exp larh. supposed to pay $12+ but paid $8+. oh yarh! if anyone going carls jr, if u are the type tt dun drink much water, dun order combo!! haha. the combo cheat our money man!! the combo does not include the price of drink!! and if u order combo, they'll jus add $2.60, thinkin tt u definitely need to drink. oh yarh, drink is freeflow larh. nt bad. hahaa! we all learnt a lesson though.
ok, then shop ard suntec looking for doraemon poker cards! anyone anyone knows anywhr tt sells tt?? well, didnt find one, but bought myself a necklace instead. haha prompted charis to buy one too.
left for tamp at ard 615. met up with chin for dinner. i mean her dinner man. carls jr was my only meal for the day! haha. damn filling larh! but the cris cut is fabulous! oh yarh, then shopped ard tm n century.. no money to buy clothes. so went out with mummy today n bought a addidas top! =) oh man, yesterday was really shop till i drop man!!
yea. imagine the whole day wearing class jersey w my natural smell ard marina sq, suntec and tamp. haha! walked home somemore! i was deadbeat by the time i pushed myself to knock on the door and call for hhhhheeelllppp..
hahaa.. great day indeed!

post promo

yeahh!!! to cherr, im back!! muhaaha!!
yea.. promo is finally over!! horray!!!
ok, seriously the teachers in tpjc inspire me a lot.
ms lee and mrs neo were soooo helpful!! ms leo too of coz.
on last friday, teresa charis zhengyi and me went to look for them. i really appreciate that they actually willing to stay back till late to clear all our doubts.
they were so busy tt day. before coming to us, they hav another batch of students to attend to. then after us, they have another group. haha. still remember mrs neo panting and ms lee yawning away. i dun think tt my sec teachers were this anxious and helpful during olevel time!
evaluation of paper, well, gp is shit. aq question on environment!! wad da heck do i hav to say?? i was like repeating pollution pollution all the time. haha! no other example to give man. was planning to do violence topic for essay, but the question is damn diff.. so attempted media question instead.
chem was okie i shuld say. hopefully this time can pass well. it focused mainly on organic chem! hhaa. i didnt study for redox. so anyhow write for the half eqns. =P
maths was expected to be difficult this time. the first few qns were easy.. but at the back.. oh man.. tough! was rushing for time.. able to finish all except, summation!!
bio today! weee. luckily i managed to memorise transport in plants. so jus vomited all the notes out for essay qns9. oh, memorised diff. in calvin n krebs cycle too. so qns8b was still quite ok. phew. managed to get the points but prob not good enough coz i didnt elaborate much.
alright. no high expectations. just wish tt i would be able to pass my A subjs man!
wad next!? haha.. badminton tml!! yeah! shiok man! 3hrs!! then prob going k on tues. gona give myself a good rest. =)
st john is so out of my life now. dont even miss it. hmm.. i intending not to go for yr end 1day trainin course in tpss too. any suggestion from u, fat? sj is so boring without you ard! hahaa!
oh yarh. 2 weeks ago, was my sis 21st bday chalet at downtown. invited angela nana and chin along. oh man. i was so damn busy tt day larh. washing the toilet (self volunteered), entertaining everyone, taking pics (of others and not myself) and not 4getting clearing the shit my sis made! wad a 21st celebration man! preparing for her bday somehow changed my idea of my own 21st bday in 4yrs time. anyway, gela chin nana all stayed overnight with me! so nice of them. without them i guess i wont b able to slp for the day.. so much has happened! tt practically pissed me off more than i enjoy myself.
is the post long enough? haha. guess so. will blog again soon! god bless. =)