the front

ive so much to say, but i dont know where to start.
ive so much to show, but i dont know whos watching.
why must it always be a joke or an act.
why do i always need to laugh it out, and feel low deeply.
why am i always the actress of my life and never will be the director.
i hope nobodys listening, so that i can sing out the sound of my heart.
i made them appear on sweat pores, and never on tear duct.

what would i do this time if i can revert time?

im flabbergasted, surprised, overwhelmed.

thanking u wholeheartedly.

marks

my weakness revealed

congratulations to my dear hweechin! leave stjohn after crafting a significant mark.
kudos to you for setting a record of achieving TWO awards for fac this year!! wonderfulous! ;)
see! im so ashame to take picture with u! ive done nothing to help! hahaa..















finally u guys are convinced that olio isnt really that nice! food sux. service sux more! a little up for embience, but that doesnt help to make the price worthy of the food.

theres so much to say. so much to do. but so little time.
and i kinda forgot what i need to do. =p

i speak english when im in new situation/circumstance.

msg to "whoever's up there"

they took it away. high up into the sky.

i hope they take your troubles away too.

can u hear me

its just a game. not as fierce as the handball. but just a plain mini competition.
not for fame. not for glory. and definitely not for the money.
just the positive shearite experience.
anyway, tonight was ihg (inter-hall) bash aka clubbing at the arena with ladies going in for free. and seriously, im just done with my js module's project discussion that spanned from 11 till 130am. gosh. im partially brain dead. and completely dead if u were to ask me to finish up my readings or work on the project now.
and so i was pondering, why am i here and not there with the rest. =)
im glad i made the right choice.
firstly, i really cant stand people getting drunk. and im supposed to be the sensible one to bring them back. that sucks. probably due to my first hand experience of taking care of my drunken sis on her 21st bday. literally wiping up her vomit with tissues and hands. yucks.
but well, when your friend got drunk, there u go. ur fun and enjoyment had ended. and basically, pls take care of him/her.
then of course, dancing. haa. im not cut for this. ive learnt salsa. and i love it. hopefully going for ballroom dancing soon. so yea. im not into clubbing dance. i would say, ungraceful.
the talk huh. good music. nice embience. but terribly bad for a good converse! basically its hard to hear one another with the blasting sound system in the background. and its definitely not romantic. haa. sorry im the kind that prefer romanticised embience. well, so it makes it even harder to have high quality conversations.
lastly, i cant stand seeing girls being loose! ok this is subjective. and i admit im the more conservative kind of person. its truly unacceptable for people to get close to me, both physically and psychologically. but i dont see why others can let it off so easily. its important to protect yourself.
ah all in all, im not into clubbing. i just enjoy drinking. oh digression, i want hoesgarden's glass!! and i honestly missed the drunken feel! but haa. unless i found people who i can trust upon to bring me back to my room safely, i wont get drunk.
well, if ure reading, pls take wad ive just said with a pinch of salt. its just purely yours truly's viewpoint. =)

i thought giving no expression is easier to cheat. but im wrong.
a simple smile is easier. what matters is the time u hold it there.

so how hard is hard?

why falls on the extremes of both ends?
there are always events that are easiler to accomplish, and those that are very difficult to achieve.
its always easier to study less, gain weight, ..., and dream.
while its always tough to score well, loss weight, ..., and face the reality.
and all advices come in goes "work hard(er)".

now and then i will recall "no pain no gain", and convince myself that "pain is temporary, pride is forever". but haa, motivation actually lose to interference.

by making it almost unattainable, and intangible does make you yearn (covertly) for it more. and this means the result becomes more desirable.
maybe this is what "play hard to get" means.

be resilient and enigmatic, just like nature.