imbalance

sometimes yes
sometimes no
hopefully one will outweigh the other soon

a terrible eve

the kids are innocent
so are their parents
nobody can choose where and when to be borned
i only wish i can help all instead of just one
why deny their chance of having a better life?

they just dont understand
so now i know where
my traditional thinking mentality comes from
that sucks

heart

sweets!

hexagonal thinking

still using
heart to reason
brain to feel

first

theres no right or wrong they say
yet wads right when it felt a little wrong
a great deal indeed

fight

feelings vs logic
heart vs brain

=)

hmm

light soft n wet
continue saying
since
tangled yet loving it



happy birthday to dearest girls and my boy hamhams
miss!

remind me

the wind blow the conversation away
reconsidering..

middleman

so it has both and everything but still
it seems like there is something more and better out there
even the family and the bone make up a huge part
then sometimes its so surreal
that i force it to feel falsified

now showing

and they only happen in the movies..

feel

why am i always the one feeling this way
and never you

love and hate

amazingly still surviving
seeing the light in the chosen path
have always knew everything is meant to be
for you have to realise your way of life
even when it crosses others
or left them
its all so disimilar now yet
loving economics like never before
breathe the air of disappointment
rather than meet the face in disguise
still
its time to drink to fly


i hate u!
freaking piece of shit.
your name sucks as much as your personality!
are u sure youre a man?
i see u worse than an ant!
with that comment of yours
i want you out! low EQ!
someone can actually piss me off
fucking irritated.

爱你是我人生最幸福的事

thats the dumbest thing i heard

我喜欢

我喜欢这样跟着你
随便你带她到哪里
你的脸慢慢贴近她
明天也慢慢地慢慢亲近
我喜欢你爱她的心
我知道她也爱你的心
不要忘记你对她说的承诺言语
但也不要就因为这样儿离开

too late to discover

im loving it and really dont want it to end
many people would wana slap me if i tell them that
but this is my second last time
and i truly appreciates the beauty of acquiring knowledge
and putting education as a top priority in life now
in a blink of a sem
my priority has to change
and im not ready for that


my abilities aint high enough to stop the clock
all i can do is to remember everybit of these feelings
and keep them as what people calls,
sweet memories

known unknowingly

it doesnt matter what the dictionary says
or the wikipedia displays
what really matters is how your heart defines it

drop

they flow in every room


lost 2 and still counting

bad start

gone
i pray that i wont feel a tiny bit
i wish i can think logically

there's no rain today

in the wrong state of mind
potentially ruining one's life
dont even know whats true and real now


i will give up everything and step myself away from you

221199

everyday of this date
i remember the needles the lights the pain
then the coma and the scar
well, it has been 10years
and i still wonder
how am i going to tell people about it

if you dont matter

把爱放心里面

其实我害怕会失去你的感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
有懂我的你给我安慰
后悔这已不在的暧昧

你说的我都会相信
因为我完全信任你
我想说的是
大家都说你很好
我都知道
其实你只是对我没那么好

stupid

i wana marry money

sometimes i cant help but thinks that im a liability
operation
braces
spectacles / contact lens
failed driving
and im sure theres many more illnesses to come
these haunt me since young and they really total up to freaking lots of money!
shouldnt someone like that just die?
much resources can be saved
furthermore,
im of no asset value.

in my eyes..

dont disappoint me

i hope you have the strength and will
as no matter how tired we are
we never give up hope on you
i know thats fear
but it only gets worse if you back off
persevere and stand strong


the same problem
but without you to listen

completely opposite

mummy says that was all out of anger


you're not helping at all

skipped

the whole world can say it can it will it does
but only one heart doesnt lie
thats yours

all normal predetermined expected outcome can occur
to anybody anyone
but just not to this particular one

the eyes lied
the eyes were faked
the eyes the tears flow for

-numb

?

i scare i get it wrong..

chemistry question

looking at the general equilibrium
i really cant figure out the partial factors effect
could it be true?
could it be influenced?

which door?

this is not gona go anywhere
slow please

and this can be too mean
to take

IT

do u believe in what you see at first sight?
the second glance
then the third
the smile
then the laughter
then you dontknow how many times u wish to see it again

this is what i call the right time the right place the right person

a rainy dream

actually i wondered why i did it
but i just did
hmm i hope this will just remain in my heart for awhile
like adding ketchup to my fries
a flavour when its blend
and cos its too good to be too true

i dont have many umbrellas

smile

i take every strength
and every nerves
and every bit of mind
to put myself in place
again
im okies
=)

where my sympathy?

how do u feel having the best of the both worlds?
as much as one can fill the bottles up to the brim
another can empty it with an unclear mind

i still dont understand why people club
or maybe i was not where i was supposed to be to feel the reason
fast and loud musics
colorful free drinks
make me wana be dumb once more


the mistake was made by me
never made it as a wise man

open secret

why do people have secrets?
what is the message?
who is it hiding from?
why cant it be told to people?
what are the consequences of it leaking?

a secret remains a secret
only if u keep to yourself

woah

an acknowledgement
an answer
a miracle

im sorry

2years were the hours
confused with
the theory of friends
the theory of truth
the theory of you

maybe because it was close
it made it harder to leave
maybe because it was so much
it made it harder to empty

your disappointment
in all expressions one felt
threw one into the deepest sea
to sail to the isolation island
and repent

yours the one i hate to break

the F

its so tough and unbearable
finding it hard to accept

its my turn

felt exactly like the 2.4
in a way that seems so strong and determined
so rich and unkind
so hard and fearful
yet another wakeup call
not late enough


how would you feel
while speaking to your ex- parents?

read before proceeding

now and then u asked
wad to do! and how!
you didnt realise you actually know them all
yet you need reminders to inform you that
you just need to do it


follow instructions
and you will never be wrong

wrong!!

quin is sleeping with me!
HA HA HA!!

where

斗志

its phobia

can i be selfish for once?
that can be a good test of reliability

but i just cant trust anyone yet

dont even blink

fuck.
how can you lie.
everyone can lie to me except u.
maybe u dont want it
but i just feel like knocking you out.

AH BITE!

fucked up. why run away.
is it so hard to face it.
damn.

sleepless nights

seeing the highspirit minwoo and zhangren on their way to softball and soccer practices
seeing the sleepy wilkson and rachal dozing off on the bus on their way to dance practices
made me wonder why am i not doing so

must i have a hobby?
wad can it be?

water vapour

the moon is covered by the clouds
even when its his best time to shine
and so unseen is the moon
can only imagine how bright he is to be


the perk of speaking to a psychiastrist is
to ask if he would ever go crazy

save the loan sharks

though we always say money cant buy everything
especially not love not friends not health not happiness
but the harsh facts of society show that
money do get you a lot of things
and in actual it can solve a lot of problems
i wish i can help
as much as i want


we all have big dreams
which only cash can materialise

for you, hamster mama

so sad. in just about a year. mama hamster moved on to heaven.
maybe all four of them can meet now.
so i know why daddy didnt want me to keep pets in the first place.
animals leave pretty easily. and mostlikely before me.
and being too emotionally attached can be bad.
so perhaps. we should keep to fish.
cos i can never imagine myself liking fish.
=p

puts your seatbelt on

isnt it about the moment when everybody reverse
and right there
nobody looks forward
then the chain effect goes on again

u-turn fast
or else
goes straight
beat the lights if u need

at this time

this is weird
maybe i shouldnt hav went to send off
its just another thought
or just another moment
that cannot be salvage

mistakes

just as i posted the pics not long ago.
u left.
i should have...
and shouldnt have...
theres so much of things i dare not do
i cant make anymore decisions
im afraid
im wrong again

naughty boys!

just like what they're thinking if they do
its a pretty different feeling coming back hall in week6
familiar yet not quite
many new faces and smiles
i just hope for smooth sailing
as this time
my priorities changed
my views changed
my love changed
=)

the day i found myself

wise man said
true happiness comes only when the person cherish and love you.
u never know how pretty you are until you look yourself into your reflections.
dont lose yourself. dont lose your strength to fight. be strong.
its his loss of losing you. you have plenty to choose from.
take your time.
=)

why contemplate

the tears that flow every week
it was excruciating then
yet memorable now and
glad it is over
and what we left behind
will remain in history
-the 28th

true

forever and ever and ever and ever
going to be forever and ever and ever and ever
more

good girl

thanks for the show
im watching it just like before
and im still feeling the same
all over again

i really wish i can do more
u know, i'll bless you

tagged - extra doormat

jus say and i'll take my leave
dont ignore me

tats too much to take


smiling with pain

i dont want

where have my confidence went ?
i was full of them when i was still in sj
but when uni starts
it became alien to me.

it wasnt a one day thing
it was a process of self examining and coming to realisation
and proof.. to the bottom i went.

thats when i first hurt so much
thats when i first cry so much
thats when i fall and allow people to help me up
first time having so much emotional display.

i need to get my confidence back
cos you dont need to be at the clouds
but at least be at the top of the trees.

thanks tzl. u encouraged me on this before.
and i want it so badly now.


tat someone else. i know i'll never be.

ord and wad's next

i can still rmb vividly almost a year ago..
right after 27th agm, sweared in as a 28th jcrc, my hall sis pasted heart-shaped love messages on my door. they were so sweet..
and subsequently, receiving lots of notes and encouragement from my hall bro, seniors and freshies.
ive kept many of the msges and of cos, my rally speech, pros & cons of becoming doha, and my vision mission and goals.
12sept08 was 28th jcrc first meeting, which was also the day i began to regret.
ive to admit. i became ultra vulnerable after stepping up. even to the extent that i nve expect myself to behave.
ive cried so many times before going for meetings. cried when someone encouraged and praised me. cried when someone calls me doha. cried when im alone. cried when im afraid. so much so much more..

20aug09 28th agm marks the official end of my term as sheares hall 28th doha.
i'll be named, the ex-doha.
on a happy note, im free of obligations. no more long meetings. and ive made really great friendships with fellow directors, who used to be strangers to me. i really appreciate this time that i had, to know them more and complete our portfolio together.
sadly, most of whom ive thanked during agm wasnt present. very disappointing. well, perhaps they were busy, or forgotten about it, or not thinking tat its important or simply phantoming. but still, i thank them from the bottom of my heart. for the times where im down, u guys raised me up.

so i rejected block com in year 1. rejected blockhead in year 2. and ended up as a director in jcrc.
like ive said, when it comes the 3rd time, its fate. wads yours is yours. theres always a reason to accept.
i just found out mine. =)


u might've forgotten, but i'll never.
your words were my strength.

bluff me

woah it still hurts
and i rather u lie

runaway tears

wad used to motivate has gone
the receiving hands have no shadow
wad sent shivers at the starting line
send shivers at the end too
the front gate is closed
the back one has locked
theres no way left but

too far too long

fairy godmother
wad have i done
wad have i not done
wad was i thinking
?

just bite and smile..

go

just do it
you only live once
and you never know what will happen
until you do it

i wish someone else can drive me
crazy

year3 sem1 action

the enthusiasm coupled with the fear for uni
just the exact feeling ive had 2years ago
yet this time its in a slightly different context - the uni life without hall
even before tomorrow, i start to have a little big bit of regrets
i realised i cant run away from the things i refuse to see at home
maybe i can hide in my room still
but i can hear them
absence makes the heart grows founder is true
with hall i had better times catching up when we meet sometimes
now that i had to face what im going to see everyday
i really wish for your marriage to come now

whatever the case
im an nus year 3 undergrad
and im hoping for a honeymoon last year in sch
academically wise im grateful with the grades im having
yet i know thats not enough
and clearly its my last chance to reach
for the highest
bless me support me love me

whatever that starts has to end
yet an ending to one is the start of another

i like to move it move it

there's so much happenings in life which no one can ever give you an answer
because not everything needs reason to happen
neither do they happen for a reason
so stop questioning why and how
as who what where and when are more important

dont hate my dear
its not your fault either
theres no right nor wrong in it
if he's not moved by your effort
then u should move on
and keep the best of him in your heart

sometimes we should
just chase backwards

powerpuff

give me the power please
to bless people around me
for their happiness bring smiles for me


u start wishing for others
when u find yourself hopeless

let it be as long as you're happy

i talked when you speak to someone else
i looked at you when you look at someone else
i smiled when you smile at someone else

i think

im growing

directory need

too many to disbelieve
too many to disuade
too many to talk to
too many to speak of
too many to unveil
too many to bless

i cant change anything
but im sure you guys are not in this shit alone
and i really understand how it feels

there's no u-turn for planes
so is life

terminal

blogging at the most absurd place in singapore
the changi airport terminal 3 transit area
yups theres this big sia aeroplane beside me right now
so cool
and as usual i so want to fly
just wana fly off to a place where
perhaps nobody knows me
and i can start everything
all over; but
not again. as this time
it would be different

dont drink

it doesnt help
even if the stars are alined
or the birth dates and time are the same
or any other million things that can possibly be similar
they are afterall
coincidental and pointless
and nothing beats more than the reason you gave

wishing on the moon

may not know what helps

but am sure what doesnt

i wish others the best

and still will

cos we've been wishing on someone else's star

far apart

face smiled
but not the heart and soul anyone can heal

its either never sleeps
or never wakes

nothing

after my pouring
came yours
whats mine compared to yours?

why is it so difficult even when the two pairs of eyes meet?
are they not meant to meet in the first place?

cannot drop

theres so much more to it than anyone can imagine

odd one out

your reason still takes my breath away

i dont care how much i might be missing out
i dont believe i can do it anymore
cos
im the one who's stubborn
and different; anomaly

selfish

pls share your problems with me
keep me occupied
cos there's so much
i cannot share

pls be kinder to me
i choose to believe you..

wait

im so glad today daddy says
L can be
lovely too

initial

daddy made it worse by agreeing with me that
L stands for
last
lose lost loss
lonely
late
lousy
low
lame
lust
.. and nothing good about it

haha and i just found a good one
lucky

help

cannot control
and it keeps flowing
no ways no ideas no methods
tried all possible but to no avail
so dead so dead so dead

wheres my guardian angel?

no reality

if i happen to sleep,
dont wake me up

true

love these people! keeping to our promise!
except this 21st special request unfulfilled.. uhh..

still dont have the strength

to turn it off

oneself

not the sound of silence,
but the feel of silence
that im afraid of.

every second matters

thought the eyes were going to pop
luckily the first sight was normal
like usual and
its enough
for me to smile

clutch in

filling the bucket
a bottomless bucket
no brim no end
never this much
stop please..

lost

not found..

i miss you

rainy daysss

cant breathe
hate myself

its not tat i dont believe u
i dont believe in myself

simply waiting for the day
to slap me once again
deep

your reason hits me everyday

be hopeless

used to hesitate on the response
but now
even the 'hey' gets stucked
should i?
im scare..

no hope = no expectations = no disappointment

she's not bad
but i wish she can treat u better

last question

why still breathing?

live & leave with memories

hall is so familiar yet distant

no reason beats yours
should have seen it coming

flashbacks

can no longer give advices like before

it flows yet i dontknow how
and
this is going to be
all over again
dead

im sorry

no measuring cylinder can measure the amount of water shed
no timer can time the period of sadness
no instrument can tell the immense pain
i scare to sleep and wake
this is how it is

cut-and-action

the everyday's tomorrow
the every moment's later
are killing

happily ever after all

love the feeling of accomplishing something u thought u would never have
=D

ideal thinking makes me happy

last day.
they said its the attitude they like.
i like it too.
and i need to maintain yea.

i looked at him. looked into his eyes.
and i saw a shadow.
someone i dont wish to become.
was i looking like tat when i feel tat way too?

tats probably the answer i was looking for.
not going to dig further.
as wads come along will come as a surprise.
=D

i give in

the one that you dislike leaves greater impression


take it if you think its yours.
i wont snatch whats not mine.
i wont clarify nor acknowledge,
even if its really mine..

cant breathe

just like the song says
be bad to yourself
and
let memories live with me

im holding on to air, actually

at first
they told me its just the arms that theyre replacing

then
i realized they replaced the eyes too

and soon after
the brain the body the name

and im no longer needed
cos im replaced

it never feels gd to be replaced
yet it feels worse to be the replacement

true

thanks quin.
tats so sweet.
i love u too! =D


im not asking for anything in return.
they just come genuinely from my heart.

be back

easily replaceable.
everybody think so.
should have expected that.
maybe its the responsibility again.
though inpassionate.
but have been trying to fulfil.
yet not even a thank u at the end.
should have knew that.

dontknow if its the fever
or the mind
havent been able to knock sense into it
maybe its the work
ya
it has been a crazy week

dont u wish?

a reminder from dream

i love daddy!

reality check

this isnt going anywhere
yet we lie to ourselves
it is

this is a quick fix medication
yet is also the one tat slaps u right in your face

done it

and its making my heart aches
to make wild guesses
to jump conclusions
to know nothing from you

sorry im scare

i dontknow how to think
i lost the game theory
the pair of eyes i look into
wasnt the same as the ones i used to see
your words your behavior your actions speared me
i thought i knew
actually i dont
tired but dare not show
tears welled up but dare not fall
im at wits end for your case
i know its never good to be in there
but u need to

tell me
and i'll exchange my life with yours

when everyday's a show
when u shiver the moment it crosses your mind
tats when u fear

for just that

i smiled.
but i dont know how to prolong it.

hoping to understand and not expect.

white

a calefare in a show
will remain as one
even if if if if theres a miracle
where one day promoted to main lead
its only temporary and untrue

it works both ways
some just cant be the main lead of your life as well

it takes so much pain and effort to be in your light
yet yearn to be
isnt it

just be it

becos whichever way
u realise u'll be feeling the same way
over the same thing
for the longest time

its not hard to imagine

i love my family.
they bring me back to reality.

ive big dreams. too many too big to realise.
and so, all i want is for them to be happy.
and i should be.

tell me this is real

its getting harder each day

nothing but

just to hear you chip again

the incomplete last album

its falling but it doesnt help

it just wet the place

and make me ugly

last flashbackss

black (naughty) boygrey (poor) boyfatty aka hamster mama (7mths old)black (fierce) girlblack (loud) girl aka my favourite!grey girl (zzz)

my seven wonders

cannot say cannot

only when you know you'll never see again

my pies

the-post-exam-weird-feeling

the males

x3

crush

when the ray of light diminishes
and there's no more lullaby
no more moonlight
to spend the night

intangible

it became less difficult
much lesser than expected
in fact everybody have moved on from where they had stopped

i need a slap

im doing it
despite knowing tat its wrong

untouchable

give me 8 more days.
please hang on.
dont let anything go wrong.
everybody's worried my dear.

studies and work never come first for me

when we always have to make a choice
when our logic confuse the fact
which would u choose

back to me

when it comes back to you,
its yours

i had the feeling tat it would be lost someday
but i didnt do anything about it until it really went missing
i tried finding but to no avail
yet in me, i had the feeling tat it will come back
and it really did

sometimes, its just too strong to disbelieve

please

i hope i wouldnt be too late for what i want to do

for this i wish

it kicks in time and again
deep and strong, but
each time, it makes it easier and faster to suceed
in no time, it wouldnt feel a pinch

tell yourself, this is, the last time

come back quickly

i love the way you're!
please be healthy and happy always! =D

that just vindicated my stay.

cross-over

the flip of the table
the drastic change to the direct opposite of the original
the need to fine tune to the new environment
how difficult

backdrop

even when
the moon aligns itself with the stars
the oceans beaming with the bright sun
the world spins in aspiration
one hearts decision can make everything different

just like that

have to

read the unread
force yourself to do
cos following your brain
is smarter than following your heart
it hurts the way it should

ring ring!!

bells are ringing!
for my friends!!
so happy!
but hall is one complicated thing!
i hope they're and will be happy for longlong!
=D

what other ways

im finding it harder each day to carry the umbrella
im trying to divert my attention away from the house
but its hitting me back times and again
im trying to run away from it
but the serotonin was just temporary
im trying to cover myself up
but i cant hid from nobody
im trying to find happiness
but im lost
and it boils down to the question of why me?
i can never answer my own question

ugly me

bye

hamster father benben left
not knowing if it was exactly 30th march 09
hais
can still remember vividly the times we went to pick her
she wipes her face
she runs real fast
almost off the bus
and then it turns out to be a him
like i said
its either u leave first
or others will leave before you
but now, i dontknow which is better

the overflowing sink

maybe u dont know
not even the slightest idea
so well that i can hide
from u the truth behind

the comfort that i had
i dontknow where is it
im controlling but im losing
the balance of all things

im sorry

make me laugh pls

ignore this pls

i dont know if i can do anything
i wish i cant
but i need to
and whatever that im doing pierce me through
as i smile and say everythings okie
i dont mean it
i hate whats happening
those nights that haunt me for 21years
earlier some people told me theres hope
i kept my fingers cross and told them not really
why does it all happen even though i anticipated it
i knew its gona blow
just dont know when
if i have magic power
i make u freeze
have u ever imagine the fear and tears im getting used to
knowing what will come yet unsure of what to do
i can only say 'dont shout' but when will u guys ever listen to me
im so apologetic to my relatives
i know how much u guys tried to help
but times n again we let u down
i really hate and especially sorry to make my problem your problem too
this has happened so many times but i can say im still not numb
i dont like u guys to see from one point only
but i find it hard to strike the balance myself
i cant help to feel and look old and i want my childishness too
i cant help but keep thinking of what has happened
i cant stop wondering how theyre doing
i cant rest cos i needa think of ways to resolve
or at least make the best out of it
i cant hesitate i cant be slow
but
i cant stand it anymore
yet i know more is about to come
just when can i leave this
maybe they will only realize when they found out one day
im gone
i lose the hope to move on
i lose the life to live on
i lose the power to lead on
one problem leads to another
sometimes i wish im the bad one

pretty ugly

leaving is indeed a quick fix and might just be the best solution

just've to

its unhealthy to heart
but i'll feel even worse to hurt others'
that's me and its just me i know
and going with the flow seems to be the only way
do what im supposed to
needed to and
maybe that'll lead to somewhere better
somewhere new
that i can only imagine for now


u can tell a fake laughter
but u cant tell a fake smile

theres no way to hide

sometimes u ask for more choices
becos u feel like ure left with none
while some other times when u have choices
u wish u dont have to choose

selfless but sad
selfish and bad

its arriving at another checkpoint
where red tapes are all around
which make decisions shake
and loss of directionality
then come to realisation
that im stuck

i told daddy im not a good person.
daddy smiled and said he will take note.


Hi jianli! havent seen u for real ages!
Hey von! haha so qiao! i want a treat from them! cos im their product! haha

nussu pru

it always feel good after doing what you want to do

just need a little more effort a little more sacrifice and a little less thinking

words may not be credible

but im feeling happy

for you my friend

i smiled =)

true

happy 25th anniversary.


waiting all my life
to cross this line
just to find that
its just aint enough

my cutie pies know

never knew it could still matter
until it happens

myself

in a moments time,
i will look back,
and agree that i was being stupid and childish.

can the moment come fast..
please..

lost

okies. im affected.

still seems

response came faster than expected
unanswerable questions and doubts
flying pass the minute brain
diluting all that was once held

white lies help..
pls lie to me


05s07

dont read up

theres always reasons to love
cos u never know wads gona come
wads coming after
and u may have yet to know how the pain aches in the heart

almost everyday everynight
even the tiniest minute sometimes
u look at the texts and all thats running in your mind were nonsense
every decision every steps dont seem to matter anymore
cos the rain is coming and the days are ending
for me too


try recalling the last time u felt the elation of actually receiving something that u thought you can only imagine

would u sell

i havent buy myself a birthday gift.

but how much can i afford.

fitted in my mummy's wedding qipao of 25 years.

then, i wondered through my wonderland..

just for u

i wish for u to be happy in whatever u do and all decisions u make!

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY QUIN!


i know u read my blog..

just when you thought

the biggest lie you can ever say
is not the one you made to people around you
but the one you say to yourself

just like you

sometimes
u just dont know how to say no
u just cant not smile
u just never know


wishes hopes expectations dreams will not be called so if they can become reality
if so, whats reality

if only tomorrow is always shorter than today
but thats if only..

living dead

before falling off the cliff,
i need to kill myself.
cos i dontknow what im falling into,
and im having as much fear as anxiety.

staying forever21

the last 5mins of 20 feb 09.
happy 21stbirthday.

not the last

the last day
the last hour

i hope u can lie to me

nobody can actually hear you screaming inside
the number of beats
the strength of each beat
refrain from allowing the impossibilities
and all thats left
turns to dusts and scars

in less than 24hours
deadline is up
im sure i'll fail
yet
im going to behave
just like nothing was necessary

im sorry

dont want

no gift is the best gift

cos u either dont know wad u want
or u dont get wad u want

thanks

and

in a blink of eyes
you realised its the 20th time

where only if

flowers dont wilt

chocolates dont melt

balloon dont deflate

message dont fade

some just dont get it

its not the dinner
its not the flowers
its not the diamond ring

wads needed are just your words

my turn

we recognise days where we were unlucky, unfortunate.
but never ever identify days where we were lucky.
thats why.

the moment of

stop it

tightening as much.
closing as much.
switching off as much.
standing on as much.

so much that oscars is outweighing morality
so much that grey is dominating
so much that everything is made up in air
so much that its turning cold
going deeper burying under
when nothing is real

keeping all breathless

bye girl

pls dont leave without saying.
im sure fatty stupid softy sticky smelly dirty and noisy will miss fasty.
so sad. its only 6weeks old..

310109 -11.37am

lovely boys

cny is such a hassle this year.
the usual red clothes. questions and fake smiles. not forgetting to mention a 8am lecture on chu-san, and no car to drive..
and well, not so much of happiness to share especially when there was a real-life drama on the first day.
but still, meeting up with some relatives still warms my heart.

maybe i should ask my daddy why he likes cny.
or maybe not anymore.

21 days to go
happy lunar bday to me! =p

rather be

its always never enough

the missing key

there's more to just that you're seeing and hearing
maybe

26 unbearable days

corrections

it sucks waking up feeling like a failure

*being a

i dontknow how to do my corrections
maybe i dontwana do..

un-undo-able

i love them! cutie pies!

wad a blunder i made in board.

hais. like i said earlier.

im the worse n useless one there.

im doing it all for the sake. just tat. nth else.

the sucky feeling is sucking me up again.

a no now is as bad as the yes then

lovely 28 days more to hurt

mixing

spectrum of colors
from a simple black or white
so beautiful
so surreal
but was all non-lasting

a last horrendous mth

cloudy

come back quickly.
safe and sound.


life wouldnt continue for me without u

voice

as long as the
sky remains clear
sea remains blue
field remains green
wood remains brown
there's always reasons to smile

right..

seen the clouds

similar script
perhaps
making sense
clearing clouds
drawing logic
bursting hopes
drilling mind
living dead

touched

the best time never last

but new ones will arrive, i believe.

dont be afraid. just move on.

action

so long as the nights still fall
the sun still rises
even if its not the beginning
nor the last few seconds of the year
we should try
to end and start every day
with a big heart


too cute to be true