reality check

this isnt going anywhere
yet we lie to ourselves
it is

this is a quick fix medication
yet is also the one tat slaps u right in your face

done it

and its making my heart aches
to make wild guesses
to jump conclusions
to know nothing from you

sorry im scare

i dontknow how to think
i lost the game theory
the pair of eyes i look into
wasnt the same as the ones i used to see
your words your behavior your actions speared me
i thought i knew
actually i dont
tired but dare not show
tears welled up but dare not fall
im at wits end for your case
i know its never good to be in there
but u need to

tell me
and i'll exchange my life with yours

when everyday's a show
when u shiver the moment it crosses your mind
tats when u fear

for just that

i smiled.
but i dont know how to prolong it.

hoping to understand and not expect.

white

a calefare in a show
will remain as one
even if if if if theres a miracle
where one day promoted to main lead
its only temporary and untrue

it works both ways
some just cant be the main lead of your life as well

it takes so much pain and effort to be in your light
yet yearn to be
isnt it

just be it

becos whichever way
u realise u'll be feeling the same way
over the same thing
for the longest time

its not hard to imagine

i love my family.
they bring me back to reality.

ive big dreams. too many too big to realise.
and so, all i want is for them to be happy.
and i should be.

tell me this is real

its getting harder each day

nothing but

just to hear you chip again

the incomplete last album

its falling but it doesnt help

it just wet the place

and make me ugly

last flashbackss

black (naughty) boygrey (poor) boyfatty aka hamster mama (7mths old)black (fierce) girlblack (loud) girl aka my favourite!grey girl (zzz)

my seven wonders

cannot say cannot

only when you know you'll never see again

my pies

the-post-exam-weird-feeling

the males

x3

crush

when the ray of light diminishes
and there's no more lullaby
no more moonlight
to spend the night