i think

im growing

directory need

too many to disbelieve
too many to disuade
too many to talk to
too many to speak of
too many to unveil
too many to bless

i cant change anything
but im sure you guys are not in this shit alone
and i really understand how it feels

there's no u-turn for planes
so is life

terminal

blogging at the most absurd place in singapore
the changi airport terminal 3 transit area
yups theres this big sia aeroplane beside me right now
so cool
and as usual i so want to fly
just wana fly off to a place where
perhaps nobody knows me
and i can start everything
all over; but
not again. as this time
it would be different

dont drink

it doesnt help
even if the stars are alined
or the birth dates and time are the same
or any other million things that can possibly be similar
they are afterall
coincidental and pointless
and nothing beats more than the reason you gave

wishing on the moon

may not know what helps

but am sure what doesnt

i wish others the best

and still will

cos we've been wishing on someone else's star

far apart

face smiled
but not the heart and soul anyone can heal

its either never sleeps
or never wakes

nothing

after my pouring
came yours
whats mine compared to yours?

why is it so difficult even when the two pairs of eyes meet?
are they not meant to meet in the first place?

cannot drop

theres so much more to it than anyone can imagine

odd one out

your reason still takes my breath away

i dont care how much i might be missing out
i dont believe i can do it anymore
cos
im the one who's stubborn
and different; anomaly

selfish

pls share your problems with me
keep me occupied
cos there's so much
i cannot share

pls be kinder to me
i choose to believe you..

wait

im so glad today daddy says
L can be
lovely too

initial

daddy made it worse by agreeing with me that
L stands for
last
lose lost loss
lonely
late
lousy
low
lame
lust
.. and nothing good about it

haha and i just found a good one
lucky

help

cannot control
and it keeps flowing
no ways no ideas no methods
tried all possible but to no avail
so dead so dead so dead

wheres my guardian angel?

no reality

if i happen to sleep,
dont wake me up

true

love these people! keeping to our promise!
except this 21st special request unfulfilled.. uhh..

still dont have the strength

to turn it off

oneself

not the sound of silence,
but the feel of silence
that im afraid of.

every second matters

thought the eyes were going to pop
luckily the first sight was normal
like usual and
its enough
for me to smile

clutch in

filling the bucket
a bottomless bucket
no brim no end
never this much
stop please..

lost

not found..

i miss you

rainy daysss

cant breathe
hate myself

its not tat i dont believe u
i dont believe in myself

simply waiting for the day
to slap me once again
deep

your reason hits me everyday

be hopeless

used to hesitate on the response
but now
even the 'hey' gets stucked
should i?
im scare..

no hope = no expectations = no disappointment

she's not bad
but i wish she can treat u better

last question

why still breathing?

live & leave with memories

hall is so familiar yet distant

no reason beats yours
should have seen it coming

flashbacks

can no longer give advices like before

it flows yet i dontknow how
and
this is going to be
all over again
dead

im sorry

no measuring cylinder can measure the amount of water shed
no timer can time the period of sadness
no instrument can tell the immense pain
i scare to sleep and wake
this is how it is