true

forever and ever and ever and ever
going to be forever and ever and ever and ever
more

good girl

thanks for the show
im watching it just like before
and im still feeling the same
all over again

i really wish i can do more
u know, i'll bless you

tagged - extra doormat

jus say and i'll take my leave
dont ignore me

tats too much to take


smiling with pain

i dont want

where have my confidence went ?
i was full of them when i was still in sj
but when uni starts
it became alien to me.

it wasnt a one day thing
it was a process of self examining and coming to realisation
and proof.. to the bottom i went.

thats when i first hurt so much
thats when i first cry so much
thats when i fall and allow people to help me up
first time having so much emotional display.

i need to get my confidence back
cos you dont need to be at the clouds
but at least be at the top of the trees.

thanks tzl. u encouraged me on this before.
and i want it so badly now.


tat someone else. i know i'll never be.

ord and wad's next

i can still rmb vividly almost a year ago..
right after 27th agm, sweared in as a 28th jcrc, my hall sis pasted heart-shaped love messages on my door. they were so sweet..
and subsequently, receiving lots of notes and encouragement from my hall bro, seniors and freshies.
ive kept many of the msges and of cos, my rally speech, pros & cons of becoming doha, and my vision mission and goals.
12sept08 was 28th jcrc first meeting, which was also the day i began to regret.
ive to admit. i became ultra vulnerable after stepping up. even to the extent that i nve expect myself to behave.
ive cried so many times before going for meetings. cried when someone encouraged and praised me. cried when someone calls me doha. cried when im alone. cried when im afraid. so much so much more..

20aug09 28th agm marks the official end of my term as sheares hall 28th doha.
i'll be named, the ex-doha.
on a happy note, im free of obligations. no more long meetings. and ive made really great friendships with fellow directors, who used to be strangers to me. i really appreciate this time that i had, to know them more and complete our portfolio together.
sadly, most of whom ive thanked during agm wasnt present. very disappointing. well, perhaps they were busy, or forgotten about it, or not thinking tat its important or simply phantoming. but still, i thank them from the bottom of my heart. for the times where im down, u guys raised me up.

so i rejected block com in year 1. rejected blockhead in year 2. and ended up as a director in jcrc.
like ive said, when it comes the 3rd time, its fate. wads yours is yours. theres always a reason to accept.
i just found out mine. =)


u might've forgotten, but i'll never.
your words were my strength.

bluff me

woah it still hurts
and i rather u lie

runaway tears

wad used to motivate has gone
the receiving hands have no shadow
wad sent shivers at the starting line
send shivers at the end too
the front gate is closed
the back one has locked
theres no way left but

too far too long

fairy godmother
wad have i done
wad have i not done
wad was i thinking
?

just bite and smile..

go

just do it
you only live once
and you never know what will happen
until you do it

i wish someone else can drive me
crazy

year3 sem1 action

the enthusiasm coupled with the fear for uni
just the exact feeling ive had 2years ago
yet this time its in a slightly different context - the uni life without hall
even before tomorrow, i start to have a little big bit of regrets
i realised i cant run away from the things i refuse to see at home
maybe i can hide in my room still
but i can hear them
absence makes the heart grows founder is true
with hall i had better times catching up when we meet sometimes
now that i had to face what im going to see everyday
i really wish for your marriage to come now

whatever the case
im an nus year 3 undergrad
and im hoping for a honeymoon last year in sch
academically wise im grateful with the grades im having
yet i know thats not enough
and clearly its my last chance to reach
for the highest
bless me support me love me

whatever that starts has to end
yet an ending to one is the start of another

i like to move it move it

there's so much happenings in life which no one can ever give you an answer
because not everything needs reason to happen
neither do they happen for a reason
so stop questioning why and how
as who what where and when are more important

dont hate my dear
its not your fault either
theres no right nor wrong in it
if he's not moved by your effort
then u should move on
and keep the best of him in your heart

sometimes we should
just chase backwards

powerpuff

give me the power please
to bless people around me
for their happiness bring smiles for me


u start wishing for others
when u find yourself hopeless

let it be as long as you're happy

i talked when you speak to someone else
i looked at you when you look at someone else
i smiled when you smile at someone else