i know that u kept challenging me

so much things is going on at the same time.
cant sleep. cant even wink.
work. home. love. are all so screwed up.
wheres the balance sheet.

i just want to SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
whats the unfair treatment for!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuckup work

oh my god.
job is a bitch. cant stand it!
is someone who quits, a loser!?
its fucking hell daily!
HOW! hate it!
its up to oneself to decide to leave isnt it!
can just simply throw the letter! anytime! anywhere! anyhow!
fucking asshole. what to do!
even vulgarities coming out so frequently!
if chosen to stay, a great plan is needed!
SOS!

make money falls for me

thirty five thousands.
well done.
im always sure ure capable of doing it.
so your loan eventually becomes ours.
dont try to act shit. the more i want to kick your ass.
implicating others is the last thing i wana do.
and im really envy of those with cliqueing siblings.
those who share bedtime stories.
those who share clothes.
those who share thoughts.
what i have from you, are all your dirty laundries.
i really wish.
i was a single child.

i HATE u!

oh god kill me.
i dontknow if i will kill her or not.
haa. ridiculously putting this on blog.
but i just want to rant it out.
theres nobody there to listen.
they all cares for you bitch.
and u ruin every little good thing that i nurture earnestly.
i hate their grumpy faces. and the smirky look of urs!
i hate their lifeless attitude.
i hate to be where i am right now.
give me hall back. i want to leave here.
this ghostly feeling makes me not want to come back.
i so dont want to turn to god.
anyone of them die makes the situations bad.
only when i die. im free.

insidious me

alright. im back.
dear bloggy.
dont think this is jealousy. neither is it sensitivity.
but it does create uneasiness and upsetting feel.
truly sincere friendship going to a waste. gone i mean.
how much more can one define. how benevolent can one be.
reciprocation does not always reciprocate.
if you get what it means. move on.

why do one escape.
escape to where shall be asked. but not told.
nowhere can take you to a perfect world.
perfection is up to you to adapt.
despice is all that you gain.
i wish i have super powers overnight.

22 april !

darling!! its 19th tomorrow!! woo! anyway. my phone died on me. super disappointing and upsetting! especially when its close to you coming back. ugh. so hard to manage. well. work is tough today. tiring too. but im looking forward to the weekends. i hope u have them all planned. =)

week 1 done.

hmm. the first weekend without. quite a tiring week. with the heavy downpour and strong scent of durians. good to have parents to lunch with. and work of cos. thats my sat. without. lots of misses and dizzes. coupled with tom365. goodnight baby.

silent night

the place. that is filled with memories. memories of those that would be better off not remembering. as it is. living silently in the hearts of those who care. that is then, the hereafter. -------------------------- missed. cbr.

just for dad

if i could
i really will.
now that you made me no choice
ive to dish out every single cent for you.
yes in the name of yours
to clear dark clouds among you two.
ive my limits too babe
but u seem to see only yours.
i really loathe you.
someone. tell me what else to do.
someone. give me the strength to do.
someone.