enchanted once more

as this is being written, romance has ceased. the moment you said '...its not for the third year', knew this is not going anywhere. may be its stubborness and egoistic, and they have indeed overwhelmed the other parts of saintness.

although never had thought that it would end the way it did, you believe? truthfully did think it would all be good one day, but reality strikes earlier than it seems. just because it really did, all other beliefs went with it. romance, love, kindness, thoughtfullness, sweetness, effort have long lost their magical effect. just because it was more than the honeyed 12 months.

thanks to all these. fairy tales just made it even more special, as it stays only, in the books. people says 'marriage is the end of romance'. in fact, romance is exactly the 'thing' that made you gushing into marriage. would what you once loved, ended up killing you? could not possibly get an answer as marriage has never an 'i willingly do' for me yet. hence, for all those happily ever after friends and families, congratulations. yours truly is truly envious. do they really exist?

the best ones are taken, the good ones arent into it. then whats there left? selfish souls who wishes for someone just as pitiful as you? that would help.

first, it was so far, yet so close.
then, it was so close, yet so far.
both are equally miserable. only when, can it be balanced?

good bye my boy

b t p o a.

impression

Just ended trip to London & Paris 10 March 12 - 20 March 12

its a journey never forgotten

learnt great lessons

experienced self navigation

seen spectacular monuments/cathedrals/places

enjoyed the walks and the shops

im loving it

living my western dream

another 365days wait

Missed me?
I kinda missed translating my emotions to texts.

oh wells, today's 19th February!
often the day to look forward in the 365days.
at least you think, its worth a celebration. afterall, a happy occasion, i guess.

but, usually when the day comes.
theres this sense of bewilderment.
a confusion. an irony. that you actually dont want it to come.
cause' you know, its another 364days later before it arrives once more.

kinda hoping to re-enact the 21st bday celeb. but of cause, will never happen.

this year's nothing special. its the first time i will spend it with my colleagues; thats because im working! really found no reason to take leave. a sad fact isnt it.
but im not dwelling it. im going to be happy in office! at least, definitely not bored. ;)

cakes. candles. wishes. wishes. wishes.
wasnt much prepared for any of these.
maybe no expectations' the best.

ok, ok. getting distracted.
so... happy birthday!

('kinda' often refers to the truth yet refusing to admit blatantly)