heartache no

and so everything was a lie.
why. why is it me?
it hurts inside out.

it takes all my might to conceal.
my strength to behave normally.
my everything, to continue smiling.

tears no longer mean anything.
hope all crash.
you bring me up and hit me hard.

maybe i need to learn the hard way.
maybe this is how i need to move on.

but.
i dontknow what to do next.

am always there for you
and who's there when i needed you the most

Guide me please

i'm the kind, who will just act like there's nothing wrong
act like everything is great
so that others will not be worried for me.

i'm the kind, who will just act like i don't care
act like you don't matter
so that i will suffer alone.

i'm the kind, who will always be there if you need me
and be away when I'm not needed
because i don't want to put you in a spot.

i'm really tired of doing these.
life is short.
and i need to live life to my fullest.

but how?