acc for promo

after days of mental torture, finally gotten back all my promo examination scripts.
failed gp paper by 2marks. it takes up 60% for gp promo, so hopefully can pass after adding class assignments, participation and presentation.
merely passed chinese this time. just because of my essay! wrote wrong topic man. so pulled down my final mark.
ok. enough of my poor languages. talk on the better ones.
gotten an overall of ACC for promo. phew. common test in july was CEO.
hee. yea. great improvement.
A for mathematics, C for chemistry and biology.
felt best for maths and bio! didnt let mrs neo and ms leo down i guess. maths was kind of a surprise. i seriously thought the paper was tougher than ct.
i really tried hard for bio this time. managed to get a level pass. and its a c! happy for myself.
well, i thought chem was do-able because of the large percentage focusing on organic chem. hmm. but was really careless on the others.
brought scripts and passes back home. however, nobody cares.
for the fact that both my parents are not 'properly' educated, they dont understand how well i've actually done. frm the start of the year, i've been worrying for this. and in the end, i passed well. im so contented with my performance. and yet, they couldnt be bother. they just smile and nod when i announce my results proudly. i must've been silly tt time.
i know deeply inside how my aunts n uncles would congratulate me. but why arent my parents doing it. dont they know or try to know or realise or understand how important this promo is to me! can they imagine wad will happen next if i fluck all? i can just jolly well not study for them. why must i undergo such pain. and exhaust myself mentally.
the worse is when my dad said 'iya, daughters will get married off one day and leave their parents alone.' wad the .. ! i took the jc route because its the cheaper route to uni. i want to get into uni because i can earn more next time. and by doing so, i can lessen my parents burden financially.
parents are stressing their children? tt is so wrong for my case. they not only never stress me, they hardly care how well i do in school. well, sometimes they do ask, but do they know the importance of exams?! results?! that can lead to a totally different future that i'll be having!!
im constantly reminding myself to do well! im pushing myself! if i lose this force, im gone forever. i still need it. i need to feel appreciated. maybe i can try to get it from my tutors. at least i feel, they are more delighted, excited for me than them.
whatever, however much i grumble, life still moves on..

bad feeling.

oh no.
today went hougang in the afternoon. shopped ard w mum. bought new sandles. went 401. sitted at the park waiting for my great grand uncle to come home. waited for 1hr+. placed a note at his door. he called 20mins later. we were at the interchange. on da way back, bus sick.
met up w angela and hweechin. felt really glab tt we meet again. esp w angela. miss her so much. hahaa. but.. i just couldnt cheer myself up.
im paranoid. im so so anxious to get back promo results. but at the same time, im so so nervous. its all ziyang's fault!!! coz he msged me on friday! saying he met ms leo. and she said many ppl misread bio essay Q8. there's extremes in our class. oh no.
i dont know why. i just feel so uneasy after that. tt msg remain in my mind for days my goodness!! and i just dont know how to truly enjoy my break!!! ziyang!!!!!!
man man.. tml having bio tutorial in the morning. how to concentrate when we getting back maths and chem in the afternoon? haiii..
i feel so much worse than before exam.
wad if i.. oh no.. i'll stay cool.

ikea trip!

went IKEA again today with my mum!
muhaha.. took train and bus again.. long long journey..
then finally DAIM CAKE and WINGS! muahhahaa!!!! veerryy niiicccEE!
coz my mama doesnt eat beef.. so didnt buy the meat balls.. so sad!!! =\
haha then shop ard.. and my papa joined us too.. we shopped damn long larh! about 2hrs ok!
wah seh.. i was so damn tired after tt.. tabao the hotdog bread then left the place immediately.
hahaa.. fobia liao arh! shopped so long and bought $8+ things only!
then came bak to tm. was trying this top, then guess wad!! stomachache!!
muhahaa! i wear my top back, then rushed out of the fitting room to the toilet immediately!!!
haha.. so embarrassing larh!! then i phoned my mother when im in the toilet. muhahaa! i guess the sales assistants must be very puzzled! hee. i didnt dare to go bak there, so got my mother to buy the top i've tried and meet me at the toilet! hahaa..
ok.. back home.. diarrheoa again!! till now, 3 times already! oh man..

carls jr meal

whao. yesterday was fun!!!
played 3hrs of badminton w junlong, jasper, kenneth, ziyang, charis, zhengyi, ali, xtina!! i ran 30rounds ard the 2courts. haha! achievement after 2wks w/o exercise!
it was beneficial!
then, charis, zhengyi, ali, xtina and i took train to cityhall, wanted to giv cherr a surprise visit at her workplace. hahaa.. indeed it was surprise! she left the place earlier than we expect! and she actually came bak for us! haha. so nice!! then got 20++% discount! pretty exp larh. supposed to pay $12+ but paid $8+. oh yarh! if anyone going carls jr, if u are the type tt dun drink much water, dun order combo!! haha. the combo cheat our money man!! the combo does not include the price of drink!! and if u order combo, they'll jus add $2.60, thinkin tt u definitely need to drink. oh yarh, drink is freeflow larh. nt bad. hahaa! we all learnt a lesson though.
ok, then shop ard suntec looking for doraemon poker cards! anyone anyone knows anywhr tt sells tt?? well, didnt find one, but bought myself a necklace instead. haha prompted charis to buy one too.
left for tamp at ard 615. met up with chin for dinner. i mean her dinner man. carls jr was my only meal for the day! haha. damn filling larh! but the cris cut is fabulous! oh yarh, then shopped ard tm n century.. no money to buy clothes. so went out with mummy today n bought a addidas top! =) oh man, yesterday was really shop till i drop man!!
yea. imagine the whole day wearing class jersey w my natural smell ard marina sq, suntec and tamp. haha! walked home somemore! i was deadbeat by the time i pushed myself to knock on the door and call for hhhhheeelllppp..
hahaa.. great day indeed!

post promo

yeahh!!! to cherr, im back!! muhaaha!!
yea.. promo is finally over!! horray!!!
ok, seriously the teachers in tpjc inspire me a lot.
ms lee and mrs neo were soooo helpful!! ms leo too of coz.
on last friday, teresa charis zhengyi and me went to look for them. i really appreciate that they actually willing to stay back till late to clear all our doubts.
they were so busy tt day. before coming to us, they hav another batch of students to attend to. then after us, they have another group. haha. still remember mrs neo panting and ms lee yawning away. i dun think tt my sec teachers were this anxious and helpful during olevel time!
evaluation of paper, well, gp is shit. aq question on environment!! wad da heck do i hav to say?? i was like repeating pollution pollution all the time. haha! no other example to give man. was planning to do violence topic for essay, but the question is damn diff.. so attempted media question instead.
chem was okie i shuld say. hopefully this time can pass well. it focused mainly on organic chem! hhaa. i didnt study for redox. so anyhow write for the half eqns. =P
maths was expected to be difficult this time. the first few qns were easy.. but at the back.. oh man.. tough! was rushing for time.. able to finish all except, summation!!
bio today! weee. luckily i managed to memorise transport in plants. so jus vomited all the notes out for essay qns9. oh, memorised diff. in calvin n krebs cycle too. so qns8b was still quite ok. phew. managed to get the points but prob not good enough coz i didnt elaborate much.
alright. no high expectations. just wish tt i would be able to pass my A subjs man!
wad next!? haha.. badminton tml!! yeah! shiok man! 3hrs!! then prob going k on tues. gona give myself a good rest. =)
st john is so out of my life now. dont even miss it. hmm.. i intending not to go for yr end 1day trainin course in tpss too. any suggestion from u, fat? sj is so boring without you ard! hahaa!
oh yarh. 2 weeks ago, was my sis 21st bday chalet at downtown. invited angela nana and chin along. oh man. i was so damn busy tt day larh. washing the toilet (self volunteered), entertaining everyone, taking pics (of others and not myself) and not 4getting clearing the shit my sis made! wad a 21st celebration man! preparing for her bday somehow changed my idea of my own 21st bday in 4yrs time. anyway, gela chin nana all stayed overnight with me! so nice of them. without them i guess i wont b able to slp for the day.. so much has happened! tt practically pissed me off more than i enjoy myself.
is the post long enough? haha. guess so. will blog again soon! god bless. =)

snco~

hav been rather restless this few days. wonder why.
tired? must be!
i always complain tired.
ok.. got to rush mdm sim for std1s uniform.
coz ppl rushin me too.
looking forward to snco! 9th - 11th dec!
yea baby. its at east view again!
wad a wonderful thing!
its just beneath my blk! muhahaa!
can sneak home and bathe again!~ wee wee!
this time round is pialeong.. wooo.
haha. its great to go for camps! =)

why

i just realised, my posts on st john are disappearing.
i used to blog a lot on the fun and happiness i get from st john. that makes my readers jealous or bores most of them..
even the recent posts on st john are unhappy.

st john can really be a nuisance.
i love it so much. that im so hurt.
nobody will understand.