in just 4hrs..

wooo.. went east view sec for a visit to the combined junior nco camp tpss is having with bdss, cchms and evss!
it definitely not a wasted trip! coz guess who i saww...!!!
muhahahaa!!
thought of going down to have meeting, chat with the trainers and of coz to have a look at their training. and indeed i did more than that!
got to see pl and hw is the part that makes my heart go 'lub-dub lub-dub lub-dub' so loudly!! hahaa! well, its been a long time since we last met! so it is just nice to see them again. dont worry anyway. they are just very nice male people whom i know from sj and really want to treasure. nth more =) hahaa..
well because of the trip down, i missed xr's bday celebration!! ughh!! its a dinner gathering with my 2e3 frens! gosh! know them for 5years already! and we're still constantly having gatherings! cool man! but really feel sorry for not turning up. i miss nie! xia! jes! min! and of coz the guys too! hahaa.. hope he had a wonderful bday.
so at ev was good too larh! get to chitchat with my cadets whom i feel that i know them better after this mini talk! haha. see how much u can achieve just by sharing some thoughts with others!! as i tried to explain thgs to them, they did enlighten me too. so its a two-way gain! beneficial talk!
ok, then helped out with the ration people with the supper preparation! and u know wad, its my first experience with ration! haha.. its not as easy as it seems. and ration holds high responsibility when it comes to preparing of food! just imagine someone gets food poisoning! oh gosh! food (or glucose to be specific) is the main respiratory substance for yr body to produce energy (in the form of ATP)!! and yr brain and nervous system needs glucose to function!!
see?! a camp can still be attempted without medic (just be more alert & careful), without logistic (just get wadever u can find at that particular place). but imagine one without ration! without edible food! hahaa.. both trainers & trainees will mati! that shall be mentally tortured man! and worst of all, a hungry man is an angry man!!
haha. so i got scalded by the cover of the pot used to boil hot water!! the ration still said tt its just common for first timers! hahaha. yes, thats true! biscuits number, arrangement of cups are little details that the ration nve fail to do! good job!
ah! not to mention, poor hweechin! got herself so badly injuried! and still say "i nve cry at all leh!" hahahaa!! as if i'll cry.. =P so her bandages (on both knees and albows) were like the gears she should've put on before riding the bicycle!! muhaaha!! strong girl!

a very nice day! and im hoping for a sweet dream tonight!
hee!!

2yrs old!

just went to edit a bit of my blog profile and realised i've blogged since june 2004!
woah!! thats been 2years!
happy birthday my 4ever never blog! =)
i still remember it was fatmah who triggered me to start blogging! haha. nonetheless she helps with me the start up and whenever i've queries such as how to change template, add pictures, musics etc, she's the one to help me!
thanks fat!
and of course, in 4e1, we will discuss and talk about blogging! hahaa! that's how she stimulates me to have one!
obviously, she has failed to make angela have one too! hahahaa..
so how much have i gained in blogging?
hmm. it has actually become a place for me to pen down my grieve, to vent my anger, to comment on certain people/things/situations, to share gossips, sentiments, to record certain events of my life, and allow me to connect with my frens whom i seldom meet!!
more or less, its been really good! at least, besides checking emails, friendster and college's intranet, i've blogs to visit!

in fact, blog is pretty risky. we type whatever that comes out of our mind at that moment. and (not always) will we read again, press 'backspace' and edit words that are too harsh or too personal.

whatever it is, i find pleasure in blogging! =)

mdm sim rulz! for standing by sj for sooo long!

firstly my application for otc wasnt received.
after which, my involvement in snco is apparently being rejected.
though both issues are neither comfirmed nor clarified, (my senses tell me) i feel that they have happened and are still happening.
how i wish i can leave sj just like some other squadmates. or perhaps indulge myself with another commitment. not that im free, or have nothing better to do, i simply couldnt detach myself totally.
i really miss the times that my batch has with sir zhiwei, zhihua and taytong. and im truly glad that we're still in contact. soon after they left, tpsjab is so unstable. we've internal disputes, organisation adjustments very frequently and unhappy sch graduates, poor fa comp performances! im partly to be blamed, after all im part of tpsjab. but seriously, till now, im unsure of the final board of management (BOM) - that is the organisation chart.
unjust. unreliable. partial. irresponsibility. untrustable. have become so prevalent!

well. i expect, the 2issues have most likely arised due to previous misunderstanding and miscommunication.

perhaps i should learn to give things up.

mix - n - match

studying is fun!
but when yr knowledge and understandings have to be writtened on pieces of paper, and graded with an alphabet, it becomes much more than challenging.

do you know exactly how much you must have in your brain/mind before you sit for the major exam?

unforgiven forgiveness

like what my friends said.
i dont forgive people easily. and even if time allows me to, i'll always remember his/her wrongdoings.

i told myself to forgive. gotten the $100. just go and buy an addidas jacket and get over it!
yea right. but i just cant do it! (not refering to the buying of jacket haha!)

whenever i sees you,
my eyebrows straightened.
my mind is blank.
my memorised notes lost.
my blood boils.
flashback of what you've done, angered me more.
i told myself "focus, focus."
again and again, i was unsuccessful.
im not blaming you for not giving me any additional help on my education.
and see what u've done to me!
all thanks to you if i fail.

wads sj for?

zc is just so superd!
he had rearranged and put tpss under the cluster incharged by pl!!!
wohoo! smart move sir!
hehee.
so looking forward to meeting him again!
in zone. in camp.. and on streets!
hahaa.
but how can i be in sj again?
it definitely takes me a lot of courage to step in.
i smiled at others. and said "nvemind."
is that true?
and graduates nve have easy lives in sj. just look around.
am i ready?
but still, for now, im convincing myself to continue.
for my passion. for my committment. for my love.

call 995

i love school!
yea!! going back for lessons is just so great!! i want more!! somewhat i feel weird with so few make-up lessons in june holidays!! hmm. i feel so happy to see my teachers mrs neo, ms lee, ms leo!! and my frens! let me name a few here, charis, alison, kit, teresa, zhengyi, kenneth, gina!!
staying home in just so crap!
im so lucky angela was free yesterday to share my woes!! pheww..
anyway, bought a shirt! 2 hairbands! ate haagendasz! shopped around! laughed! joked! just so fun larh!
though spent quite a lot, esp the ice cream!! one scoup for $5.20! haha.. we dine in anyway. haha but the money is worth spending!! i could have spent more, to make myself happier! =)
haha. at least i've found a way to release myself. that is to spenddddd!!! wohoo!~
the usual spendthrift me will not be normal on such occasions. hee.
so back at home? yea yea. i simply couldnt be bothered to speak! not even look at her in the eyes!
makes me sick and disgusted! arent u embarrass my dear?! if u're not, i am!
such a freak!! sometimes i just wonder whats going on in your mind! must be infested with worms man!! couldnt even think sensibly! and speak yr mind!! why? need me to look for some fortune teller ah? to guess wad u've to say!
its just such a disgrace!!
u know who u're! or maybe u dont, coz u cant even figure this out!

i dont wana stay at home!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
rescue me!!!!!!!!!