Monday, November 23, 2015

i leave

one year ago
everything is so different

right now, things changing again

i have chosen to leave because
i was afraid you will leave me first

its painful but i think its only right
and the only way to prevent

when it comes to the matter of heart
its uncontrollable

i secretly wish my heart die
i should not deserve to go through this over and over again

and to have myself doubting on myself
is it worth being so nice

Saturday, September 26, 2015

when there is no meaning to life

give up.
totally. entirely.

this family no longer holds any value.
i've seen and been through enough.

this may not be the best solution, i've decided.

i'm giving up on all of you.
i no longer have a family and i don't need you.

let me go.
i pray to God.
take me away.

because i want to die.

Wednesday, September 02, 2015

thank you

thank God for secretly saving me
forgiveness was to free myself

today's his last day
the episode has ended hopefully

as i seek the same forgiveness
i didn't feel happy which i thought i would.

Thank you.


this is my last tear for you

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Thursday, August 20, 2015

pray

i just feel the need to stop this
i don't want anyone to be hurt
no victims please
no one should go through this ever
please do something


what's right or wrong

it felt so real. for the first time after so long. the signs were real, the feelings were real. the kisses were real. was it the right thing...