running away

can u feel it?

it simply seems like my intuitions are 85% accurate most of the time.

of course, people change. so the other 15% is up to choice and chance.

but still, i cant figure out some things. in particular, yours truly.

i think im amazing! haha.
ran runus 5k two weeks ago. ran ahm 10k last week, which broke my record of 1hr03mins! wee! and did nike 10k yesterday! all 3 in consecutive sundays! =)
felt best running ahm. i guess its my thoughts that brought me forward each time. thats my best run. treasured the moments of ahm.




i felt it. do u?

never know

sometimes i really wonder what am i made of.
or rather, what am i made for.
losing the adrenaline to carry on with days of overwhelming unpredictions.
losing the battle with the devil inside me.
losing the strength i hold on to my belief.
losing the might to stay true.
losing the will to smile.
so sometimes i wonder. why am i me.

it can be hilarious. it may be tickling u.
it can also mean nothing to u.
and all i can do is to say its ok. and act like it really is.
wtf.

dependent on others' happiness to be happy.

shacking yes. nodding no.

i wish ive the intelligence.
i wish ive the ability.
i wish ive the courage.
i wish ive the charm.

empathize with you bro. but the impediments are still there.
nobody will understand. no idea how to elaborate explicitly.
but truly understand how it feels to be in your position.
but politics. passion. are simply not my priorities anymore.
i cannot let that happen. should not. and will not.

but if i ever give a nod. thats when my heart really starts bleeding.


half-time
so surprised to see u back! familiar door knocking but never expected. hahaa. just felt so happy to see u! on yr birthday somemore!
big bro! jiayou! one year older, with one yr more of knowledge, capabilities and skills!
may u clamp your people down like a pivot in the match!

who knows

3 cheers to the end of swoc! and viola! school has started! and my first lect is only at 6pm later!

lost the courage to lead. or rather, prefer to be led, than to lead.
thanks for identifiying me still. i just have to say no.
for theres so much more that i would do, without obligations.

SH orientation

the no day no night is starting in 8mins time.
and by the time i publish the post, thats it, im late.
blacked face. ugzh.
but still gotta go.
go on go on. on and on. until the 8 aug.
nve had looked forward to ndp so much before.
lastly before i go.
im doing this again for blkc. for joyce. for quin laimun emily jieshen.
orientation begins.

nags

everybody desire to be saint.
but they should know that, their inner self is seeking sins to commit all the time.

one more time

a dog came in. screams. freaking out.
shut the door immediately.
injured the dogs leg.
felt so sad. opened the door slightly more. another dog came running in.
shut the door in the nick of time.
to hurt just another dog.
limping back. then.
opened eyes to realize it was too late.
where hurts can never be undone.