corps oic dream!

hey hey. im back! thanks you guys for encouraging and supporting me while i battled to stand firmly on my sj ground! haha. and if you havent been showing yr concern for me, the tagboard is on the left! haha! =P
yea. i've decided to stay on despite the unhappiness and bitterness that i've tasted this past yrs in sj. (of course, there were sweet and tender loving care as well) its because, i realised i havent achieve what i've been yearning for since sec3! that is to be the corps oic!! no doubt its not going to be easy nor smoothly to reach there and do yr corps proud, but im determined to have a feel of it!
haha hilarious it may seems. an officer had told me that "the moment u get that post, u would wish that u could pass it to someone else." well, its true. afterall, when i reach there, will i be 25yrs old? haha! having other commitments definitely.
its jus my dream. and in order to do well and much much better than past yrs, i need the assistance and guidance from other corps officers as well as support and help from my standardmates and juniors!
haha. maybe im making this sentence too early. since i still have 3 seniors above me right now. i hope i can boost my morale again and motivate myself! im not creating insubordination by thinking big. =)
at least this way, i can comfirmed that im going to sign on! yes!

ok. for now, im gona listen to szeling and concentrate on my As next yr!! that is my upmost priority now. of coz, as much as i need yr help hweechin, i'll assist u as much as i can to make the BIG event successful!! and sniff sniff, yea man! i need more love! hahaa! need to cultivate more!! hahaa!! dun disturb me when im cultivating with someone else on course day k? hahahaaa!! and for fatmah, i guess u know the answer now. cont' to love me k? and probably i may need ur help when i attained the post! haha. =)

complements of the season! xmas eve & xmas

first of all, COMPLEMENTS OF THE SEASON to all!! had a merry merry christmas? its ok. u still have 12 more days! haha.
ok. shall not dwell on the 24th corps evaluation. a short summary/commentary of it:
it didnt turn out well. worse than what i've thought. i've seen the ugliest side of human - selfishness. i know the true side of all present. i was honest to all.
"commitment and passion. how do u weigh? and which is more important?" is the question that nobody can answer me. a passionate one cannot commit needs to leave?
requirements for an nco is needed. how about a volunteer?
trust. love. relationship. communication. are what that is all needed for our corps now. humans just detest changes. adapting may be tough. but its neccessary.
i just hate to see people leave and go. making decisions without informing the rest or even dropping hints. i must've been silly to trust u guys. made a fool out of myself.
ok. enough of it. though angela hweechin came over to my hse for count down, i didnt have a enjoyable xmas eve.

xmas day.
collected log cake and went over to xiao yi's place. invited angela hweechin along. had a sumptuous brunch! xmas tree was sparkling. loaded with presents below. chocolates filled the tea table. ate to my fill. drank little gin without jianhong and shengjie.
later, rushed to get presents for yi pin with charis and jasper. tampines was very crowed. discounts at all shops. wrapping services everywhere. took a crazy taxi down to serangoon chomp chomp. car sick and felt terrible.
saw yi pin approaching and she looks the same! i didnt send her off the other time so was really happy to see her again!! reached her place and haha vomited twice there! what a waste for all the delicious food that i ate at xiao yi's hse. haii.
still feel bad so left with junlong and ziyang after probably an hr there. vomited again on cab. luckily i had 2 plastic bags with me then. the taxi driver was funny! he asked "oh no! u drank? or took drugs?!" hahahaa!! i managed to giggle somehow and answered "no larh!! giddy! car sick!" $10 back to my house!! phew. so relieve to see my mum. then vomited again! haha..
so that's all for my xmas. bad eve and vomit 4times on xmas!! highest record though. thanks for the invitation and family and friends for your concern! im well now! ready for another ride! haha!

on the tag board:
for sniff & CHEOW, no need to say thanks. its interesting reading yr blogs. and understand yr corps. i do wish to prove them wrong. but i have not decided whether or not will i stay. if i stay, i'll face the same problem again with the same person, or even another. tok more to u guys on course day! yea, rock on! haha!
for fatmah, yes i agree. i used to think i love sj so much that i wont leave. but nw, i found out that im wrong. its my sec1s and 4s thats pulling me back. perhaps like wad i've said. i may nt stay any longer. thanks pal!
for yi pin, yea yea!! i love chilly crab man!! dip it with bread!! oOoOoo.. haha!!
for cherr, thanks man! im much much better now. eh? jan 11? wad time? celeb new yr??

and to all, best wishes!! =)

im awaiting for 24th!
not for xmas.
but for my corps meeting.
that includes my standard only.
its not something intriguing, fun.
a serious matter.

goodluck to phs corps!

bad

i always thought that my mdms and sirs who are grade5 or 6 (considerably high) would sign on for very long. since they're already officers. why not? but, i was wrong. many of them quitted last year. and most of them are very young (20yrs). why would they quit? other commitments? tough teacher-in-charge? uncontrollable cadets? boredom? its not gona be easy for me to say bye without turning back. i lost my resoluteness. xmas coming!! im going for gift exchanging with my sj mates n juniors! fun fun!!
its not that im proud. its not that im nice. its not that im good. its not that im clever. its not that im smart. its not that im perfect. its just that when people compare me with u, u see the difference? i appear wonderful. because u appear terrible. not that they've mistaken, u've shown it to them.
i dun deserve all that im suffering. all that i've endured through. for which i believe, u're the cause of it. u hurt me with words whenever im not prepared for them. and if i go on further, i'll make them upset. if i dun, i'll feel terrible. sometimes, sometimes i just have to lie. to myself.

sj gathering!

"refer to my email"
"check yr mail for more infomation"
"roger"
does it sounds robotic to u? oh man. there's this person sending msges to me in this manner! not only in smses, on msn too! can u imagine?!
this person has no feelings i guess.
such "creative" replies this person can think of.
is it so difficult to reply something like "tomorrow's meeting is cancelled. postpone to next week." ?? or send "can u attend the whole course? check the dates on my email." ??
don't u think it sounds better this way??
much friendlier!
does having a higher post, being higher up, makes one deviates from norm?
mostlikely in this case.
anyway, today had a sj meet with my stdmates!! angela, hweechin, joanna, grace, aaron, mark turned up! so glab to see aaron especially. think i missed his laugher, lame jokes, criticisms too much man! hahaa. things like "did i upsize my fries to a smaller one?" and "just go straight to the point!" made me burst into uncontrollable laughters!! of course, its with animations. haha.
we sat at cafe cartel for 3 hrs! gathering informations to fire, recalling all that we did as a sj cadet, complaining services and servings, gossiping abt lecturers, discussing magicians of diff countries, .... hahahaa. a gathering worthwhile!
shall meet again on 24th. xmas eve. bring gift everyone. =)
till then.

queensway (alexandra)

chiong 3 places today and bought nothing! went my sch (shut shutter) in the morning, then tamp sportshall (badminton was great!!), queensway (not alexandra), chinatown (og with all old women clothings), and changi airport (shocking toilet!)! enjoyable, fasinating, amazing trip i must say. can ask joanna. hahahaa.
ok. i've this bad feeling abt the 24/12 meet with my corps. is it going to turn out awful? i guess its all up to me. *oh my oh my* why me! hahaa.
im not going to leave. whatever it is. not now. not yet.
life is just so meaningful. im full of zest!

nus trip

went nus yesterday to attend the mathematics enrichment camp. frankly, was really reluctant to go. knowing the fact that we've to meet up at 7 just to reach there by 815! woo.. that's very early.
luckily ali and xtin were rather supportive of this and hence, we met up together with charis. i was in good mood! haha. that's why ended up chatting all the way frm tanah merah to buona vista! and seriously, if xtin nve remind us, we didnt even realise we've reached the station! phew. 3yrs past since my last visit to buona vista to renew my ezlink.
rain didnt dampen our spirit! took bus95 with some cj people. alighted and started walking and acting like we're the students there. hahaa.
lectures were pretty interesting. the lecturers taught new mathematic skills example sudoku, wavelets, torus, klein bottle, 4-colourings. some lecturers are really humourous. they can make their lectures more 'alive'. however, i really have hard time understanding what one china lecturer was saying! the moment i lose my attention, i couldnt catch a single thing he's saying!! and the next moment i try to listen, im lost again! hahaa. sounds funny? i think he sounded funnier! no offence readers! -
nus got no handsome looking guys!! ok, maybe most of them are still on hols. there's none in those who went for the course. most looks nerdy. neither any after we sneak awy frm the course and toured ard nus! it gave me an impression that its an old empty school. hmm may be all the better looking guys went abroad. hahaa! whatever it is, its good not to have distractions to get yourself distracted! hahaa.
ok. these are just my views on my first trip to nus. this trip doesnt refrain me from enrolling into nus after my as. i've just got to work harder to squeeze in! =P
anyway, xmas is nearing!! have you gotten my gift? if not, go get one soon! there's still time! hee!

snco 2005

slept for 14hrs yesterday. not immediately after i reached hm at 330. but at about 630.
this camp is another new experience, memory and journey for me. not with the trainees but with the trainers. glab that some people actually helps me to straighten my thoughts. love the corridor programme that we went through. that seems to be the most worthwhile moment i had in the camp. achieving what i want to.
had little connections w the trainees this time. thats good. at least i wont get pissed off by them if i had. haha. infact, being with trainers of older ages than me has allowed me to observe them, listen to them.
made my own gunpowder can for campfire. really satisfied with the outcome. luckily it did work! hahaa. though i was grumbling and complaining throughout the making of it, i've learnt a new skill! hee. can make it for other upcoming campfire! its the peak of the whole event ok!
im still sick. been coughin n coughin and worse still! i develop rashes during the 3rd and 4th days!! it itchs like hell and made me look really ugly with it! it goes frm arms to thighs, to upper arms and face! and today to legs and stomach! went to doc this morning. its mostlikely the aftermaths of my fever. im not going to eat the drowy medicine!!
the camp itself ended abruptly. break camp is just so out. a lot of things are missing. i cant explain..
its a green green post..

bad start for camp..

havent been blogging for days.. im now down with fever, flu, sore throat and cough. doc even suspect lungcancer! shitty.. scare me only.. haiii.. really wonder how m i going to pass through the 3nights camp starting frm tml..
was reali sick on weekends. but bcoz of snco, i still went for the course days on sat n sun.. tt last frm morning till evening.. didnt get to see doc.. who can understd how i feel.. how much i've sacrifice.. haiiii
the nights were terrible.. all i felt was lk a walking zombie.. breathless, restless, moodless.. feeling cold outside, hot inside.. flip flop flap on the bed zillion times couldnt get myself into dreams.. failed my counting of sheeps as well.. waking up.. falling down.. until the sky is bright and i got myself up for tt day's st john activity. haiii.. a sj slave..
sat was the first day and had opening parade @ the end.. i was the parade orderly once again.. things were ok for me.. endured through jus to get the parade done.. running 38.3degrees..
sun was trainer enhancement day.. yes.. as it goes.. for trainers only.. haiii.. running 38.6degrees.. but still.. live through..
camp starting tml but im so reluctant to go.. this yr got no mdm wenmei, xiao ting, da ting, chuiyee, no sir ben, chong boon, philip, no chiying, no angela... haiiii.. missed my last yr's frens loads!
this yr is so by-the-book.. fussy.. picky.. even trainers are hostile to trainers.. hello.. we're volunteers ok!.. worse of all.. we hav trainers appraisal.. meaning our superior gets to grade us.. and tt shall determine if we can go for next yr's officer course.. wad crappy business is this.. volunteers get graded.. as if i care abt my rank.
the only gd thing is tt everything is brought up during meetings to discuss.. (sarcastically) even tiny things like hairnet (to wear or not to wear) they also hav a discussion abt it.. haha! i was havin a grt laugh though. the whole camp is lack of a very important element.. that is 'ren qing wei'.. in english means.. human to human kind of relationship.. they hav no love.. no care n concern.. no sharing.. that's wad i felt.
wadeva it is.. shall nt disclose much jus in case any trainees gt to read this.. opps.. haha.
im reminded of the goals tt i've set. must achieve!
breathee......
badminton on mondae? yea. hopefully by then i've recover! =)
till then. seeya!

airport trips

jus bak frm airport once again. to send shengjie n family off to korea. wohoo. its the moment they walked into the departure hall, that i realised how much i feel like flying off too! haiii..
received jianhong yesterdae. his hair grew much longer! guess sydney's haircut is expensive! haha. anyway, was happier waiting for his arrival then departure. everyone were anxiously waiting for his appearance. to add onto our anxiety, jianxiang(cousin) created lots of laughter with "there! that's him! the ang moh!" & another sec, "there!! his girlfren comes out first! the ang moh girl!" hahaa.. and he was saying "why does the board reports with the word 'landed' only? they should add in descriptive words for example, 'safely landed'!" ahhaa.. good question. but its redundant larh. then he said "for those that almost not landed will be 'luckily landed'!" hahaa!! and "the worse is the C word larh, crash!" hahaaa.. oh man. can u imagine how will the people at the airport react when they see the 'extra' descriptions? haha! joker.
then i rushed down to gvss for snco opening parade rehearsal. surprised at how cohesive dhs corps is. felt so green. and im the only tp representative. haii. so lucky to have at least sir andy (bsss) there whom i know better. training sucks of course. wad else can i expect? its nve good to be alone. or feel alone. training ended at 9pm. thoughts were drained.
todae met up with angela n joanna for k session! fabulous! fun singing but felt tt time goes very slowly todae. we've sang all our desired songs but there's still 30mins left! previously 5hrs were insufficient. oh! we got all sorts of ideas prepared for our wedding! is it too early to think abt it? hhaa! but we're practising them anyway.
after i got them to go airport with me..

mingdao

am i being too petty for getting angry with my best friend for a tiny thing?
well. im mad. im still furious. even the moment i think of her. yes, right now.
but i always believe that, if i get angry with you, that means i loved you before. obviously, love here is for a friend. yah. becoz if i had never loved you. i wouldnt be bothered even if you disappear frm this earth. therefore, my anger is painful.
the journey to tat kee tailor is awesome! haha. the whole place is full of factories! within minutes, we found the block. but up the stairs to 3rd floor was scary! haha. it just looks like some place where ppl got kidnap! or even rape! my kids faces turned the moment we reached the doorstep. luckily, i saw an auntie inside. "Auntie! zhe li you mai st john uniform mah?" (Auntie, do you sell st john uniform here?" I shouted to reassure myself before i walked in. haha. the auntie turned out to be very nice n friendly. got us into the office and get uniforms for us! phew. like the chinese words go 'you jing wu xian' (got shocked but were not harmed). hee. good experience though. get least i got my job done! =P
anyway, lately im so engrossed in this taiwanese celebrity ming dao!! the mao xian wang (adventurer)! not really engross, just find him so charming!! haha. incase u dont know who he is becoz u never watch the frog prince show on chnU..


Its him! ooo.. so MAN!


and him! so MUSCULAR!


hey! he looks so handsome in this pic right? its not mingdao! its the 'dawei' in the frog prince show! i found this pic and think he looks so different. haha.

haha. okok. just for entertainment. =)

bad/ life

today's badminton was fun!! though only 4 of us.. alison, jasper & brandon. we played seriously and i benefit a lot! perspired. (oh, hav u wonder why fish/gators dont sweat?) haha. just learnt the skill to smash! wohoo!! (must write it down.) played doubles with jasper. oh, he was my coach! hahaha. i got scolded!! till i 'on-form', i became his coach! hhahahaa. revenge!! good chemistry we've. brandon was good! he can smash very well. just need to pray for the net to be kinder to him. haha. then he'll b powerful! alison's still as good. always strong when hitting the shuttlecork to the rear corner. impressive. but i've tactic to go against that. hehee.
never know i can start badminton again since i put my racket down when i was P6. met really good players here in tpjc. great coaches! i've improved. =)
i was thinking, when i reached the day that i can stop schooling, (as in, no more exams, tests, homewk) i'll probably be lost. life will be meaningless. becoz i wouldnt need to strive for good results like i used to! then wad can i do? hmm..
a book smart does not definitely outwit a street smart.
tomorrow will be a hard day for me.. gona bring 2 of my kids to make their uniform. guess i'll lose my way for sure. haha. coz i've never been there and zewei said its rather difficult to find.. Undaunted by these, i'll prove that women do have a gd sense of direction. hahaha..
smart aleck!
my cousin jianhong's coming bak from sydney this sunday! wohoo! finally. missed him! my mum is so anxious abt it! hahhaa.. yea. in fact all of us are! Os and As are over.. that means.. mine coming!! oh no. i mean oh yes! haha. embrace the inevitables yeah?

dinner

just came back frm dinner n a ride to orchard!
woo. dinner was good. though the place looks a little deserted, the tranquillity calms me greatly. fried salad prawns were marvelous! it just melts in your mouth. ooo... then the salad inside seeps out.. slurp!* =) its been long since i last tasted scallop. love it! its so soft and it breaks up into parts the moment you give it a gentle bite. yummy!*
haha enough of food. then went botanical garden for a slow walk. its my first time there man!! can't imagine! didnt get much time to walk ard. its already 7pm+.. guess wont be going there again.. in fact there's nth much to see. =)
then ride on to orchard rd! oo.. lightings for xmas were up! not very impressive though. saw the bow tt was mentioned in the straits times forum looking like the god of fortune's hat! hahaha.. in fact, it does look like one to me. though the decorators explained that it came from the idea- gift wrapping with the bow on top, ... hahaahaahaa.
going badminton tml! wohoo. but guess not many ppl will turn up..
god knows. tata~

sj dinner

typed a long post yesterdae. shitty. my sis placed a new plus into the switch and 'kapoo', everythings gone! sick. took a some time to calm myself.
had sj 70th anniversary dinner on tuesday @ neptune restaurant. sr nathan was the vvip. food was satisfatory. its 8 course meal! including sharksfin! we paid only $10 for it. heavily subsidiced by zone. went down after a pathetic badminton session w angela, van & chin. we roamed abt the place and search our way to collyer quay. we were subborn. refused to follow other corps people.
obviously, loads of officers and cadets of lower rank were present. wasnt the smallest fry there. saw many unimpressive officers. esp mdms in uniform but didnt bun up their hair! such a disgrace i thought! unlike the 4 of us, bunned up, polished boots, pinned up fringes!! took some pics outside the restaurant. the scenery was spectacular! with esplanade and other high rised buildings sparkling under the dark sky. nathan cut birthday cake & we sang birthdae song. for both sj and hweechin! so coincidental that her bday was celebrated w sj! haha!
todae, went plazasing for harry potter w charis & caleb! ooo.. charis & me bought one nachos each! hahaa. really eat until shoik man! movie was average i thought. if young children were to watch, i guess most parts they wont b able to understand. coz neither do i! haha! but the animations, sound effects were brilliant i find. fun shopping ard ps with charis. but too bad. left @ 6 coz i need to rush hm for the frog prince show!!!
bon voyage for those who left for thailand!! =) enjoy & hav fun!


at ntuc building's toilet. changing parade. =p


act cute ah. backgrd was supposed to be the highrised buildings & esplanade. too dark.


see!! its w/o flash. oh my hand's shaking ah.


neptune staircase.

BBQ!

the day before (12/11) was s07's bbq @ pasir ris park pit31! was a really wonderful nite. many followed the dresscode & turned up in their secondary uniform. i missed my tpss u! i wore the blouse w tie & my own shorts!! haha. i must said, its was a successful bbq. well done organisers! give yrself a pat on the back!--> sounds lk wad ah neo always says. =)
however, theres always flaws. the charcoal bought was terrible! the fire couldnt grow at all. jasper, junlong, zy and i were "saving" the fire again & again. then we took loads of pictures with gina's & jasp's cam. this time, quantity of food is perfect but not tt of utencils like forks & spoons. haha. a few of us brought from home and ended up with lots of them! so poor zhengyi was told to bring home a lot. hee.
seriously, dont know why i was rather bored during the middle of bbq-ing. wasnt in the high mood. but slowly, as we take pictures together, i get more excited. ate little of bbq food but lots of meehoon cooked by charis mum. haha. becoz charis kept saying "eat lah, leeling. eat. just eat. nevermind." hahahaa. its was nice!
lata @ nite, jasp, ken, bang, cherr, charis & me went for midnite movie @ TM GV! woohoo! first time for charis & me. we were so excited! guess wad! $8 only leh! discount!! hahaha! we watched zorro. oh man. this is the movie where i see ppl (ken) listen to mp3 & yawning while watching!! hahaha!! i admit i yawned too! worse till, i was think "when will da movie end?!?!" hahaa! good experience though.
after movie, went mac to see ppl mugging. hahaa. we slacked thr awhile den left for 7-11. coz jasp lead da wrong way. in da end, brought them to somewhr near my hse. yea. so charis, cherr & jasp came up my hse. got locked outside. waited for sis to open the door. then we chatted!! sensitive topics. hahaa. slowly cherr fell asleep on my bed! hahaa! then left the 3 of us.
when the morning sun arises, jasp left first. then my dad sent cherr & charis hm.
slept @ 810am. cool~ latest timing man!! didnt even achieve tt during camps! hahaa.
ok, enjoy these pics..


s07!!


the helix!!


my gang!! (missed out teresa)


gina (SKSS) & me(TPSS)!! satay's da best! =P


jasper & me!! the TAMPINESIANS! =)

MJ+TPJ

oh today was fun!!! fun!! funn!!!! hahaa.
woke up with my left palm aching like hell! not sure what went wrong. i pressed onto it unknowingly?? morning was horrid though. got no electricity!!! becoz the govt is changing our powermeter!! so electricity cuts from 9am to 5pm!! so sucky.
went to sch for chem makeup at 12pm. was quite lost throughout the lesson. haha. slow? yeah! totally man!! need to clarify with charis and jasper to repeat. haha..
then after chem, charis, zhengyi, teresa, ali, xtina, jasp and me went S11 for lunch. oh man.. the other guys are just sooo... disappointing. shall not elaborate!
anyway, charis, zhengyi, jasp and me were so engrossed in our discussion!! hahaa.. for our class bbq!! yipee!! we got everythg prepared. i mean the planning part. sounds really great!!! haha. guys, lets jus wait for our invitation mail from jasp. =)
ok. then some of them left for home. jasp n me went to TM to look for our gang! hahaa. this is the fun part!!! jasp n me (TPJ cum TPSS) met up with angela, brandon, hongsheng, ivy (MJ cum TPSS), michelle, rina (MJ)!! hahaa.. quite a mix right.. its was quite embarrassing at first. then slowly mixed ard. and worse still, michelle's ex-classmate is jasp n my classmate now!! (tjong)!! hahahaa.. small small world.. so we decided to all take neoprints together!!! haha!! this is so exciting!! its my 2nd time taking! =x hee. angela's 1st ok! hahaha.. both of us like so blurr larh. and looked damn fasinated when her frens were decorating the pics! LOL!
the mixing was great! fun to meet new frens! hee. and of coz to meet up with the old ones. =) enjoy the pics.. MJ+TPJ












after spending quite some time at the photo shop, angela n me left for ntuc and shop&save! haha. guess wad man!.. opps shall not disclose much. we're shopping for hweechin's present! hee. jus in case anyone forgets her bday. its on the 15th! =P
and then angela brought the "things" tt we bought into the toilet to separate them. so that we can both get half of them back home and ...... (secret)! hahahaa..
a satisfying day!

com back

u left w/o saying bye. not even a hint.
if only i know tt'll be da last time, i promised i would look at u longer.
-my LCD monitor.
heeyyyy im back! haha. my monitor is fixed after 1week and a day! hee!! phew.
great service sharp has! nice and quick! and its all under warranty! yipee!
was totally devastated w/o a working comp man!! life was so meaningless! no leisure. left with tv and straits time.
went to bang's place, parkway, suntec, plaza sing, bedok sports hall, karaoke and school for these days. so much to recall. and so much to write. im lazy.
first aid society is killing me. no. is dory!! sick fish. wad a sarcastic msg u sent me! ass.
st john is worse. lost in da universe! no news no nth! dun even know if everyone got their uniform. crap. collaps man! burn down! jus remove it!!! it ended lk nobody's business.
weak knees. in agonyyy.
was searching for doraemon stickers yesterdae. u'll never find it easily when u need it most. on the other hand, u always see it, when u least need it.
happy birthday to my dearest cousin! long!
bestest luck to my dearest cousins and friends for their O and A level! shengjie & fen! nana & std4s!
i miss yr hugg nie. =\

oh man. just want to blog this down.
i miss the library cafe in TPSS!!!
hahaa.. do you??

maths s pp

oh man oh man.
school's comp is grt! haha. i mean those in computing labs n not library!
my home comp is temporarily down. =)
monitor has stopped working all of a sudden. hope its gona be well after a few day rest.
haha. sick. im still in school. waiting to take my dear mathematics S-paper selection test at 430! so late! and guess wad! there'll b only 3 big Qns to attempt. haha! and we've got 2hrs to do tt! =\
to take or not to take doesnt really matter. coz afterall, i've only 3 Alevel subjs. so anyway, im not eligible for scholarship. mrs neo (maths) said:" its all for interest." ms lee (chem) said:" if you want to further study.." and ms leo (bio) said:" no S paper for bio." haha. so.. it jus helps to enhance the beauty of your A level certificate. yea. and tt means u dont just get a pass for it! attain a merit appear better right? haha!
whatever it is, its just the first round of selection for me. still a long way to go..
jus do well for the A level maths! tt matters most! =)

happy!

yohoo. of so many days. today was the happiest. maybe becoz im back st john! haha.
in da morning. horrible thing happened. someone actually gotten the wrong cover page for written report which hav to be submitted today by 10am. so 2 members of da grp was frantically looking for one. charis n me - kind souls. haha. we helped out by shouting out to all our frens who walked past if they hav extra cover page to spare. finally charis's fren got one! and the grp was saved. oh, i forged kenneth's signature. hahaa. i tot it wasnt really important. furthermore, he's sick. why get him down just to sign da freaking cover page? =)
ok. late to report for college open house duty. teresa, sabrina, kimpoh and me were sticking together. our job was to be tour guides! guide the sec4 students ard our college. kimpoh is damn funny larh! loads of crap he has to say. nve ends. but it made my day better. haha. first, we toured a grp of girls. then 2nd grp was a grp of guys. they actually asked me for a drink! at tt moment i was holding on to my cup of orange tt i jus bought, i gave it to them. see! so nice of me! haha. grt way to start the guided tour again.. both tours took us 2hrs each! until my stomach upset me so much. i brought them to the canteen again. and i eat. hahaa.
after sab went off after our shift. teresa n me stayed behind. i was waiting for my dear std4s! haha. finally jiazheng, xiuhui, jolie, rynette, huitong, siauling came at 1+pm! so excited to see them! they made my day grt too! miss them so much. crapped ard and chatted loads while touring. hee. after that, we went off to tpss for st john!
oh i forgot to mention, that i spoke to teresa's CLA tutor, Ms Yue! oh man. she's so nice!! now then i know why quite a lot of ppl dislike mdm foo (our civics tutor), its becoz other chi tutors are so much better! hee. she even called n disturbed the "chao qi tai" lao shi (tutor)! hahaa. then finally, i told him "you really look like chao qi tai!" hahahaa.
ok. back to sj, was so happy to see grace!! haha.. miss her loads too! didnt get to see justin though. too bad. just gotten sj photo. oh yarh, heard tt JACQUALINE EE got SACKED! mhaha! she's the teacher tt quarreled with me last yr and issued me defiant letter! hahahaa. i feel as if i've won the battle! =) knew it tt she'll hav this day! serve her right! she has no right to be a teacher! my ass is much better! =P she slapped one student this time! haha. she's in for da big time! *informations are all gotten from std3s. might not be accurate. =)
besides this good news, haha. im free from the bloody dec camp! phew. schedule is so damn pack now. cant expect me to plan or carry out a camp for u right? somemore, no handsome guy ard. unlike snco. haha! snco's gona be fun with pl~
had dinner w chin, leslie and angela. haha. love strawberry sundae man. its da best! the auntie gav me loads of strawberries!! hee. chatted till 10+ when the foodcourt is closing. oh! met xia, chen, newfren, KJ and.. err. dont know yr name, sorry. haha. had grt laughter with them! miss xia so much!!
oh. then just before leaving tm, saw kaizhong. haha. the funny man. made me laugh so much too. his hp damn cool larh! can watch movie!! woo. mine cant even take pictures. =\
ok. this is a happy post. so happy. can sleep damn well tonight.
haha! last but not least, 'just for laugh' :
NPCC - National Police Catch Cockroach!! hahaha..
SP - Sure Pass
NYP - Not Yet Pass
NP - Never Pass
TP - Temporary Pass!!! hahaaa..

crap

i thought everything's over and im only left with oral presentation.
my my, what a last minute call by my dearest supervising tutor, lim yih.
lim yih said tt we hav to correct all intext citation in the written report and change the bibliography. tt means, print all again!
eh. then wad m i doing now? wasting time. haha. waiting to print..
the worse is, my grp has submitted our wr long before promo. tomorrow is the dateline and we are told to change, only today! champion! poor bang, has the most to do. thanks man. we shall get a A for this!
suddenly, i find no pleasure in my life. scoring As doesnt seem so attractive anymore. life can really be bored if u do the same thing and face the same people everyday. sometimes, i just wish to be carefree. moving around the world. looking at new different interesting scenes. but back to reality, everything lies under the university certificate. its only when u obtained one, u'll then get to be free. however, by then, ur life may not be just yours. partner, parents, friends, family will tie you down. this is fact. are you sure you wana take this risk? life can be evil. just by spelling live in the opp. direction.
everything seems so easy. for that its all in your mind. mind power is the strongest. it determines your strength and weaknesses. dont misuse it, neither abuse it. just breathe..
haha. ok. im back to normal after those sentimental thoughts.
st john is back! im rushing mdmsim for boots & berret for my standard 1s! haha. and to my surprise, mdm sim replied 'ok'! haha. hope she doent lie to me this time. im equally eager as my std1s to get them their uniform! dont rush people, u'll have loads to do after getting it. just imagine the sewing, ironing, polishing is enough to drain you. haha. nevertheless, u'll find the pleasure in doing it. its for yr own pride and glory. =)
just like my college song, "proud are we to be, a part of tampines junior college.." and a st john member and an ex-tampinesian and in 05s07 and in first aid society.. hahaa.
i dont need confidence to be confident. right? haha.

bio spa

thanks for all who encouraged me. =)
all becoz of my bio spa assessment on monday, that's why i didnt hav time to post.
yarh. its spa!! science practical assessment! it was crap man. albeit the fact tt skillbC were the easiest! you've teachers staring at u!! time rushing u to cheat the results!
haha. prepared hard for that man. but wad comes next, chinese A level exam!! oh no.. there's no intensive programme for us!! so its totally on our own!! i dun hope high this time round. really appreciate those chinese teachers in tpss. so hardworking tt time. marked our essays so quickly.
yestday was terrible. besides spa, stayed back till 410 for college open house briefing tt ends 530! drained. was hungry and giddy. slept at 830pm man! haha. yarh, and woke up only this morning! its shoik. but i guess i really running slight fever alrd. head aching arh!
i looked forward for openhse. but not anymore after tt briefing. it sounds so stupid. only showcasing of arts ccas. eg. drama, dance, guitar, choir but not the rest like soccer, badminton, gaval and interact! and the worse is, it doesnt involve the whole school. just student leaders in specific. how can u call it college open house when the whole school is not getting involve. i think its silly. there will only be talks by principal on new curriculum and also tours ard college. that's all man! those who jus want to hav a feel of my sch, then come forward! haha. Friday, 21th Oct, 9am - 4pm!
havent been speaking to my dad for days. just feel so weird. doesnt know how to express? exactly! he even said "im nt the one taking the exam. why must i know when is yr exam! haha" followed by his laughter. wad da crap! just bcoz yours sincerely here taking mt a level in 2weeks time, u dont have to care? he simply cant be bothered! how grt! im nt gona study for u. im doing it for my sake! my life! my future! mine!!
oh man. misses cheewee so much! his lame/irritating/horrible jokes always make me laugh like hell. though i get mad at him sometimes. haha. miss weibin too! just gotten his ic size pic from xuanrong. wah seh! looks damn cute larh. haha! no change, as usual.
teachers said tt we are more livelier after promo. but i dont feel this way. i become more stress and troubled now.
sickkkk. so uncomfortable.

acc for promo

after days of mental torture, finally gotten back all my promo examination scripts.
failed gp paper by 2marks. it takes up 60% for gp promo, so hopefully can pass after adding class assignments, participation and presentation.
merely passed chinese this time. just because of my essay! wrote wrong topic man. so pulled down my final mark.
ok. enough of my poor languages. talk on the better ones.
gotten an overall of ACC for promo. phew. common test in july was CEO.
hee. yea. great improvement.
A for mathematics, C for chemistry and biology.
felt best for maths and bio! didnt let mrs neo and ms leo down i guess. maths was kind of a surprise. i seriously thought the paper was tougher than ct.
i really tried hard for bio this time. managed to get a level pass. and its a c! happy for myself.
well, i thought chem was do-able because of the large percentage focusing on organic chem. hmm. but was really careless on the others.
brought scripts and passes back home. however, nobody cares.
for the fact that both my parents are not 'properly' educated, they dont understand how well i've actually done. frm the start of the year, i've been worrying for this. and in the end, i passed well. im so contented with my performance. and yet, they couldnt be bother. they just smile and nod when i announce my results proudly. i must've been silly tt time.
i know deeply inside how my aunts n uncles would congratulate me. but why arent my parents doing it. dont they know or try to know or realise or understand how important this promo is to me! can they imagine wad will happen next if i fluck all? i can just jolly well not study for them. why must i undergo such pain. and exhaust myself mentally.
the worse is when my dad said 'iya, daughters will get married off one day and leave their parents alone.' wad the .. ! i took the jc route because its the cheaper route to uni. i want to get into uni because i can earn more next time. and by doing so, i can lessen my parents burden financially.
parents are stressing their children? tt is so wrong for my case. they not only never stress me, they hardly care how well i do in school. well, sometimes they do ask, but do they know the importance of exams?! results?! that can lead to a totally different future that i'll be having!!
im constantly reminding myself to do well! im pushing myself! if i lose this force, im gone forever. i still need it. i need to feel appreciated. maybe i can try to get it from my tutors. at least i feel, they are more delighted, excited for me than them.
whatever, however much i grumble, life still moves on..

bad feeling.

oh no.
today went hougang in the afternoon. shopped ard w mum. bought new sandles. went 401. sitted at the park waiting for my great grand uncle to come home. waited for 1hr+. placed a note at his door. he called 20mins later. we were at the interchange. on da way back, bus sick.
met up w angela and hweechin. felt really glab tt we meet again. esp w angela. miss her so much. hahaa. but.. i just couldnt cheer myself up.
im paranoid. im so so anxious to get back promo results. but at the same time, im so so nervous. its all ziyang's fault!!! coz he msged me on friday! saying he met ms leo. and she said many ppl misread bio essay Q8. there's extremes in our class. oh no.
i dont know why. i just feel so uneasy after that. tt msg remain in my mind for days my goodness!! and i just dont know how to truly enjoy my break!!! ziyang!!!!!!
man man.. tml having bio tutorial in the morning. how to concentrate when we getting back maths and chem in the afternoon? haiii..
i feel so much worse than before exam.
wad if i.. oh no.. i'll stay cool.

ikea trip!

went IKEA again today with my mum!
muhaha.. took train and bus again.. long long journey..
then finally DAIM CAKE and WINGS! muahhahaa!!!! veerryy niiicccEE!
coz my mama doesnt eat beef.. so didnt buy the meat balls.. so sad!!! =\
haha then shop ard.. and my papa joined us too.. we shopped damn long larh! about 2hrs ok!
wah seh.. i was so damn tired after tt.. tabao the hotdog bread then left the place immediately.
hahaa.. fobia liao arh! shopped so long and bought $8+ things only!
then came bak to tm. was trying this top, then guess wad!! stomachache!!
muhahaa! i wear my top back, then rushed out of the fitting room to the toilet immediately!!!
haha.. so embarrassing larh!! then i phoned my mother when im in the toilet. muhahaa! i guess the sales assistants must be very puzzled! hee. i didnt dare to go bak there, so got my mother to buy the top i've tried and meet me at the toilet! hahaa..
ok.. back home.. diarrheoa again!! till now, 3 times already! oh man..

carls jr meal

whao. yesterday was fun!!!
played 3hrs of badminton w junlong, jasper, kenneth, ziyang, charis, zhengyi, ali, xtina!! i ran 30rounds ard the 2courts. haha! achievement after 2wks w/o exercise!
it was beneficial!
then, charis, zhengyi, ali, xtina and i took train to cityhall, wanted to giv cherr a surprise visit at her workplace. hahaa.. indeed it was surprise! she left the place earlier than we expect! and she actually came bak for us! haha. so nice!! then got 20++% discount! pretty exp larh. supposed to pay $12+ but paid $8+. oh yarh! if anyone going carls jr, if u are the type tt dun drink much water, dun order combo!! haha. the combo cheat our money man!! the combo does not include the price of drink!! and if u order combo, they'll jus add $2.60, thinkin tt u definitely need to drink. oh yarh, drink is freeflow larh. nt bad. hahaa! we all learnt a lesson though.
ok, then shop ard suntec looking for doraemon poker cards! anyone anyone knows anywhr tt sells tt?? well, didnt find one, but bought myself a necklace instead. haha prompted charis to buy one too.
left for tamp at ard 615. met up with chin for dinner. i mean her dinner man. carls jr was my only meal for the day! haha. damn filling larh! but the cris cut is fabulous! oh yarh, then shopped ard tm n century.. no money to buy clothes. so went out with mummy today n bought a addidas top! =) oh man, yesterday was really shop till i drop man!!
yea. imagine the whole day wearing class jersey w my natural smell ard marina sq, suntec and tamp. haha! walked home somemore! i was deadbeat by the time i pushed myself to knock on the door and call for hhhhheeelllppp..
hahaa.. great day indeed!

post promo

yeahh!!! to cherr, im back!! muhaaha!!
yea.. promo is finally over!! horray!!!
ok, seriously the teachers in tpjc inspire me a lot.
ms lee and mrs neo were soooo helpful!! ms leo too of coz.
on last friday, teresa charis zhengyi and me went to look for them. i really appreciate that they actually willing to stay back till late to clear all our doubts.
they were so busy tt day. before coming to us, they hav another batch of students to attend to. then after us, they have another group. haha. still remember mrs neo panting and ms lee yawning away. i dun think tt my sec teachers were this anxious and helpful during olevel time!
evaluation of paper, well, gp is shit. aq question on environment!! wad da heck do i hav to say?? i was like repeating pollution pollution all the time. haha! no other example to give man. was planning to do violence topic for essay, but the question is damn diff.. so attempted media question instead.
chem was okie i shuld say. hopefully this time can pass well. it focused mainly on organic chem! hhaa. i didnt study for redox. so anyhow write for the half eqns. =P
maths was expected to be difficult this time. the first few qns were easy.. but at the back.. oh man.. tough! was rushing for time.. able to finish all except, summation!!
bio today! weee. luckily i managed to memorise transport in plants. so jus vomited all the notes out for essay qns9. oh, memorised diff. in calvin n krebs cycle too. so qns8b was still quite ok. phew. managed to get the points but prob not good enough coz i didnt elaborate much.
alright. no high expectations. just wish tt i would be able to pass my A subjs man!
wad next!? haha.. badminton tml!! yeah! shiok man! 3hrs!! then prob going k on tues. gona give myself a good rest. =)
st john is so out of my life now. dont even miss it. hmm.. i intending not to go for yr end 1day trainin course in tpss too. any suggestion from u, fat? sj is so boring without you ard! hahaa!
oh yarh. 2 weeks ago, was my sis 21st bday chalet at downtown. invited angela nana and chin along. oh man. i was so damn busy tt day larh. washing the toilet (self volunteered), entertaining everyone, taking pics (of others and not myself) and not 4getting clearing the shit my sis made! wad a 21st celebration man! preparing for her bday somehow changed my idea of my own 21st bday in 4yrs time. anyway, gela chin nana all stayed overnight with me! so nice of them. without them i guess i wont b able to slp for the day.. so much has happened! tt practically pissed me off more than i enjoy myself.
is the post long enough? haha. guess so. will blog again soon! god bless. =)

snco~

hav been rather restless this few days. wonder why.
tired? must be!
i always complain tired.
ok.. got to rush mdm sim for std1s uniform.
coz ppl rushin me too.
looking forward to snco! 9th - 11th dec!
yea baby. its at east view again!
wad a wonderful thing!
its just beneath my blk! muhahaa!
can sneak home and bathe again!~ wee wee!
this time round is pialeong.. wooo.
haha. its great to go for camps! =)

why

i just realised, my posts on st john are disappearing.
i used to blog a lot on the fun and happiness i get from st john. that makes my readers jealous or bores most of them..
even the recent posts on st john are unhappy.

st john can really be a nuisance.
i love it so much. that im so hurt.
nobody will understand.

fun day!

woo. enjoyed myself a lot today as i met up with HWEECHIN at 715pm after changing the time for 2times!! haha.
oh. and she wanted me to type her name here in my post. to post about our outing. haha!!
we ate at tm mac then went ard shopping!!! we tried quite a lot of clothes, shoes and spent damn long time at montiq just to try out all the colours of this particular flower hairclips. even a woman whom i guess wanted to scold us but didnt dare to, came close to us and said but softly 'iyo. dun play.' she wasnt even looking at us. but it was obvious talking to us larh. we were just beside her and practically like laughing away, not deciding which hairband to buy.
haha. then came out of that shop and realised it was 10pm already! all shops were closing! suddenly remembered tt i've to buy pens! for my promos! haha. so rushed to popular. luckily the uncle held on to the shutter and let me in to buy. hee. so nice. and i was the last customer in popular for the day! haha. any lucky draw?
after tt, knowing tt i forgot to bring keys out. chin stayed at mac again with me. we ate and chatted for 30mins. missed this kind of gossiping session so much!!! haha. so was really an amazing day w/o st john! hahaha..
badminton wif my bad gang tml! yeah! anticipating!! all the best to my dear friend cherr!! will miss ya lots man!
miss you, fatmah, jeanie, qiuxia a lot too!! muacks! =)
okok.. what crap did i miss out hweechin? hahaha..

prison visit

went to the new changi prison today. to support the yellow ribbon campaign.
thought could visit the cells and perhaps the 'hanging' room. but nah.. only allowed to enter the administration centre.
saw several convicts. they look jus like any of us with tattoos.
oh. i embarrassed myself when i actually laughed at one of the exhibits. a certificate for completing the course, clean carpet. hee. seriously, i was laughin at it. certified carpet cleaner?!?! haha! then a police/volunteer came over. opps! it wasnt like normal carpet cleaning. there are processes that the cleaners must learn. ohhh. then i gave the astonishing look.
should we give them another chance?
from my mouth, yes. of course. everyone make mistakes and should be forgiven. but from my heart. i dont think i will.
i dont even forgive myself for making the slightest mistake in my life. how could i forgive others who made mistakes like molesting or raping girls?
what do you think?
there's another issue that has been probing me for weeks.
imagine urself breaking up with your boyfriend. then your boyfriend went after your best friend. in the meantime, yr best friend went out with him often as you couldnt due to your workload. eventually yr best friend get together with him.
after that, your best friend told you frankly.
will you forgive her? any conditions?
students worry abt studies. workers worry abt work. homemakers worry abt home.
when will we be out of these.

fried bannaaa

oh man. what a busy week. went bak sch for chem, maths, bio make up lessons since monday.
tried to study for today's chem mock test too.
coughing & sneezing like mad now. wonder whose the germ spreader. wadever!
went for badminton at kampong chaichee after sch.
cool man. really enjoyed the part when xtrina, ali, jasp and me tryin to find new ways of serving.
oh nt 4gettin zhengyi, ali and me ate our brunch at a void deck! like refugee larh. i felt so sad.
awww.. jus reminded myself abt the bedok fried bananas!!!! ugh! wanted to eat one so badly.. but coz im having flu n cough!..wad a waste. my fried bananas..

sj politics

i dont mind if you dont let me know. i wont force you. i'll respect your decision.
neutral i am since i dont know anything for now.
if things are really bad, what i saw were fake, i'll still choose to believe it.
as that is all that i've as facts.
i dont feel good hanging there. so are the rest.
politics in an organisation is inevitable.
however, i believe we can always solve the problem when it arises.
as if you'll read my blog. anyway, shall we all stand up and say no more!?
sometimes, this just makes me wonder if i should leave for good.
present or not doesnt make any difference.
no, i'll stay. for my std1s and 4s.

olevel prelim

best of luck to all the std4s and my dear cousins who are taking their prelims next week!
study hard and score well k!
its a requirement for the first 3mths in jc!
go for it! at least give it a try!
bestest luck to all taking their module test next week too!!
rest your mind, breathe in deeply then continue with your revision!
focus focus focus!
god bless all of you!
=)

another trip to ikea, queensway! =)

ladies and gentlemen. another enjoyable day i had. together with my frens, miss ali, miss cherr, miss oh, mr jasper and mr jlong.
we played badminton from 9 - 12pm. took a lot of funny pics together!! hahaa. example acting cute, dao, posting like indian dancers, all girls sat on ali's thigh.. hahaa! not forgttin the part when lichu, cherr n me broke into laughter while takin one of the grp pic! hahahaa.. seriously i was trying to endure... yeah. haha! oh, im impressed wif my photography skill man.. took an artistic pic of jlong. hee.
then with our empty stomach, took train to queensway again!! yeah. this time round, we went ikea first! haha. first thing we ate was the hot dog bread!! wooo.. $1.20 and its fabulous!! it just taste fantastic. then we went up to ikea 2nd level restaurant. waited bloody long for seats. finally we found 4 seats. 2 horribly insensitive man and women were beside us. the women left with 2 wings. so we intended to wait till they finished, get long n jasp to sit with us then we buy food togther. and guess wad!! the women ate the wings with knief larh! worse of all, she was so god-damn sloww!!! did i just say slow? haha! yeah man!! she cut the meat bit by bit, poke it gently with her foke then put it into her mouth and chew soooooo slowly!! omg. all of us were mad. they practically know we were waiting and still .... wadever. the man had finished his food long ago. everyone! yes, all! including the man were waiting for her to finish larh! sick. cant imagine how can someone wait so long for her fren or boyfren to finish his food! finally they stood up from their seats, the man and our cherr shared a couple of stares. hahaa. mad and hungry we were, ordered meatballs & wings!!
wooo, the swedish meatballs just made me go "wahhhhhh... ooooooo...... very nice!" haha. im enjoying myself so much! then after we washed our hands, we bought cakes! shared a daim cake with cherr. omg. tt was incredibly delicious!!!! ahaha. was really full alredi. a very satisfied trip to ikea. =)
ok, then went to queensway shopping centre to get the class jersey done. ooo, did a lot for it. im so happy! hahahaa. hope the class will appreciated all of us who went n made it possible! =P the printing uncle was very nice n he charged us so much cheaper! we paid full amt $550 for jerseys and $100 deposit for printing. wooo. can most prob get them on tues night! i just can't wait~
alright, then cherr, ali, xtina left. jasp, jlong n me supposed to take train back. but upon seeing bus197 approaching and jlong's 'dieing to take bus home' look, i decided to take the bus with them. hahaa. and guess wad! the 197bus took 1hr 30mins from queensway to reach bedok interchange!!! hahaa. my butt was ok. but my head wasnt. was feeling rather golgi alredi. hahaa. but the trip was nice. chit chattin all the way, enjoying the beautiful scenery! we went past clerk quey, chinatown, tiong baru and marine parade! weee. so long nve been to these places!!
guess this post is long enough. anyway, really enjoyed these trips to queensway. gona admit tt i tot it would b bored and a waste of time. but it turned out to be amazingly fruitful! guess im gona miss that place soon.. last but not least, i shall rank the food from the bestest to the best: hotdog bread, swedish meatballs, daim cake, chickenwings! dont forget to try! hee. wana go ikea with me again? =)

nice leslie

Hiyee. due to the fact tt many ppl prefer my old blogskin, i've changed it back!! =) haha.. i kind of miss this blog layout too. its simple can user friendly. right?
oh.. anyway, im also figuring out how to add comments to my post. so meanwhile, ppl who visit my blog, just tag will ya? =P
just read kenneth's blog. can truly feel wad he's undergoing. doing so much 'unnecssary work' yet the worse is that the whole world doesnt understd u and no1 appreciates your effort right? yah. that's how i always feel in st john. hahaa. yea. to add on to my work load now, i have first aid society in my hands. oh no.. tt dory fish! haha!
im giving myself so many responsibilities.. haha! i realised only after reading his blog. anyway, hope u feel better knowing wad i'm doing too. well, life is jus full so full of stress. its how we perceive it i guess. if i choose not to go 'hehehe, hahaha' everyday, im dead for sure. =)
just got so pissed off wif my st john teacher-in-charge. supposed to get a letter from her on fri so tt i could pass it to mr lee for him to 'type something nice' on my testi this yr. but my dearest mdm sim didnt do it!! and she dragged till.. yah. today! wednesday! and my so called 5yrs sj fren didnt take initiative to do it either. he expects me to do it for him??!! he's a guy!!! i doubt so. anyway, finally showed my 'trying to keep' horrendous dark black face to him in the morning and got him down to get the letters. wonder if he's capable of deliverying the letters to mr lee safely. hahaa.
oh, not forgetting to compliment my dear leslie who actually offered to help deliver the letters to me, to my sch, today!!! he's having exams in 2 wks time, he's not on his way either and yet he still wants to help!! its really really nice of him i thought.
see the contrast b/w these 2 guys i've mentioned? hahaa. girls, know which type of guys to go for?
ok. enough crappin. im going crazzyyy~~ yea yea~ =)

visit to queensway and ikea!!

oh man. gona blog my first visit to queen'sway!!
ok, met up wif ali, kit, long, jasper and took train to queenstown. alighted and took bus 195 to queensway shopping centre. ooo! im so excited thru out the whole journey. hahaa! we reached and started exploring all the sports shop, checking out the prices of jerseys. ali, long n jasp wondered about at the badminton section. haha. only kit n me working on the jersey.
then we reached uncle terry's shop. we took pics of some of the jerseys. it was hilarious larh. imagine u holding on to the jersey, but the camera only takes the jersey and not you! hahaa. ppl walked past must be very puzzled. ok, we entered almost every shop tt sells jerseys. i looked at jerseys until my eyes go blurred. haha, will definitely go thr again to buy my own jersey, blouse, shorts or shoes! cheap!
went to the mac thr for lunch becoz it was raining heavily outside. after lunch, still decided to leave the place though it was still raining. only long and ali brought umbrella. haha. so u can imagine the 5 of us sharing 2 umbrellas. hahaa. it was another climax of the day. we practically laughed alllll the way to anchor road. and im going to post here, sorry ali!!! i splashed the puddle of water tt u deliberately skipped, and i wet ur jeans!! hahaaha! tt was funny.
then finally, my long waited visit to ikea!!!!! yea!!!! im soooo excited!!! and enthu!!! to shop ard ikea!!! ahhh.. cant describe how i felt there. im really really happy to be there today with the 4 of them. thanks a lot guys, u all shuld feel honoured too! hee. we played ard there. spent the most time at the bedroom and children section. we sat on the 'oh my god' chair and bed. hahaha! visited the showroom and played the soft toys! it was really really interesting!! oh, i took an ikea pencil and measuring tape home! hahaa! as souvenirs. =P not forgettin kit n ali bluffed me into playing a fake comp!!! ughhhhh!!!! shall not elaborate.
haha. ok, then we were at the restaurant/food court there. wanted to try the swedish meatballs. it was so exp! 10 pieces for $5.80! we were very full then so decided to try on our next visit. so ali and me tabao chicken wings! it was really nice!!! just a little cold when i brought them home. ahha. as we left the place, we agreed to come again next sat and eat the swedish meatballs, chickenwings, hotdog bread, buy our own jerseys and shoes! hahaa! can't wait for my 2nd visit to ikea!! =)
an enjoyable day i had. really. it was amazing, i thought.

new blogskin

hey. a new blogskin.
nice? love the colour.
alright, how to add my tagboard in.
anyone knows how to add the comment thingie at the end of every post?
tata~

firstaid society president!

phew. worse week of the term is finally over. today went for first aid society meeting. guess wad man. im nominated by the j2 exco members to be the president! haha! expected! =x opps. but kind of worried tt i wouldnt do a good job. coz im having 3 ccas leh! somemore no words can describe my commitment to st john. haha. hopefully, i can impress ms yap with my responsibility. =) yea! hav to get a really nice testi at my graduation. hehee.
as usual, went bak for tpss for sj. finally, im seeing my std1s uniform progressing. its hard work ordering n asking mdm sim to call up suppliers man. they must really treasure their u. yea.
a really tired week. im exhausted. now. yes. but still eager to watch princess diaries2. ahaa. oh ppl, i've removed my tagboard. reasons coz i want my blog to be quiet. hahaa! lame.
tata~

upset.

week 8 approaching. a busy week!! look at my dear schedule!!
monday: bio spa assessment
tuesday: function test
wednesday: function test / chem spa trial
thursday: gp presentation, pw written report draft 2, thermochem test / function test
friday: gp essay test
ugh! its driving me nutz. actually didnt want to go back sj yesterday. but my little std1s are giving me loads of problems!! so is my beloved mdmsim!! haix. conducted interview with everyone of them (std1). sick. thought could spend some time studying in sj room. but the interview ended at 5pm!! i 4got to bring my walkathon card somemore!! arhhH!! and got somehow scolded bcoz of my std1s... see! hw bad my life is in fact! shuld i stop going back? perhaps i shuld.
thought the bad day is ending n would b fine. but the worse had yet to come!! met someone tt i dont wish to see! oh people, not ghostly thingie i mean. haix. jus upset, confused and disappointed. shall nt elaborate. shuld b fine very soon.
wadever it is, congratulations to nana and all my std4s who scored in their mt olevel exam!!! =) im so happy for all of u! if u didnt do well this time, dun worry either. there's another chance for u. go for it!
went for dinner wif van chin and later met my nie. very nice dinner i had. not 4gettin to mention chin. she looks super matured in her presentation suit!! i mean its suitable for her. haha.
oh. just knew some ppl like to read my blog secretly and nve identify themselves!!! hahaa.. i know who u are.. hugged me so many times somemore.. hahaa! ok larh. enough crapz. got to get back to my work! =) wish me luck for week eeiiigggghhhhhttttt!!!

ndp

happy national day singapore!
celebrated 40th national day in sch yesterday. yea. i was the state flag barrier. reached sch at 6.35am to change into full brigade uniform. cool. put on my badges illegally. haha. should not put them on.. unless on special occasions like that. ok, i was called chocolate cake again.. haha. we stood at the track waiting for the students to assemble. could see that lots of ppl pon sch tt day. the few of us were paiseh larh. first time wearing full uniform infront of our sch. the parade ended very quickly. took a few pics together after tt.




celebrations carried on in the hall for us. gina, me, the bbboys and other sj frens sat at the back of the hall. the performances were alright. yah, tts all i can say. haha. the climax was only at the end when we all stood up and started waving hands together in the air singing national day songs. omg. was interlocking hands with someone larh. damn paiseh!! but tried to act normal. =) saw ppl filming somemore! haha.
in the evening, went to take sj passport size photo with chin. get to know this little cute kitten tt loves people's butt. she's called butter. haha. so cutezz! another older one call peanut. hee. so lovely!! met les n fai later to pass them the photos & certs for snco trainer application. went library wif chin to look for recipe books with really nice cuisine pics. she rejected lots tt i've chose. haha. so high standard!
ok. happy national day! =P
i felt special.

C/L!

yo. just get promoted to c/l, meaning cadet leader, meaning officer w/o salutation, meaning mdm. hahaa. the parade was simple. as usual due to my surname. im the last one to get called. so i waited n waited.. until i blurred! and the worse is tt.. for ppl who spotted it, hahaaha! i invented a new drill myself! hee!! wad a mistake. but luckily no cadets saw it larh. haha.
les put on the rank for all newly promoted lcp, cpl and c/l. was a little nervous at first. then after he congratulated me. phew. i started crapping and laughing. then marched back in double quick time to my position! coz everyone waiting for me!! hahaaha.
go for officer trainign camp next yr? hmm.
ok. then met fat!!! finally my goodness. passed her her bday present. anyway, her bday was like 1 1/2 mths ago! hahaaa.. missed u so much fat! so nice to see ya again.. and getting cheerfulier ah! hahaa.. so sweettz =P chatted awhile with gela, chin, van, na, fat, les, gerald, mark. haha! shiok. was kind of incomplete as all of our standard ppl (meaning same batch) were present in tpss juz now except aaron! haix.. miss his jokes damn lot larh!
o yah. my right cheek is in pain larh! wa lao.. its aching till i cant speak n eat properly!! and its getting worse.. my left jaw starts to ache too! consulted professional nurse, kaizhong. haha! stupid man.. kept making me laugh!! duhz.. seriously larh. this morning i woke up and was unable to open my mouth!!!! so much difficulties in brushing my teeth! ugh!
feeling so much better after the pop. love this harmonious feel. haha. crap. oh today in sch. a guy from badminton said hi to me. haha! im so surprised. he's the one tt i argued with during the 1st match. (also the one kept shouting before the matches begin) he wanted our team to play twice tt day. and we were kind of.. 'wad! another one?!?!!!' haha.. so i know him after tt larh. =) i was really elated to know him! though not close, but new fren leh! hahaa.. great! =) love to make frens. love my new sj frenz too! mingfeng from zone3. she's ex-sac. know her thru the ndp training in our sch (incase u nt sure, tpjc). she's really nice to chat with. a very interesting girl. haha. oh.. not forgetting Gan TF! haa.. he's the one tt kept saying my c/l rank looks like chocolate cream!! --> oreo! ugghh! wadever! hahaa.. really nice frens i met in these activities i've participated. great! =)
ok. drowning.. badminton tml?

class pic

feeling more and more attached to this group of friends.
o5s07..

last match

ahhh.. its over. i mean my badminton matches.
i really want to appologize.. esp to these people..
to my partner: u're really great! always remind me to focus and taught me tactics too. having u as my partner seriously make me feel so secure. for the fact tt u're really a gd player. im sorry to make our matches end here.
to my trainer: u taught me a lot of strokes and always thr to make me trainnn.. runnnnn.. stretchhhh.. no doubt a wonderful trainer! i feel so upset becoz i think that i've let u down. im sorry.
to my helix captain: u're the first to make me engross in badminton and always want to make me do footwork to improve. u're skills always impress me. i joined the team is also becoz of ur enthusiasm in making the team possible. im sorry to put a stop.
to the racquet owner: thanks a lot for lending me all ur fantastic racquets for training and for the matches. i've developed a feeling for them. haha. sick. but i really do enjoy gripping the racquet. haha! without them, i wouldnt hav gone this far too. im sorry.
to my other shifus and supporters: u all simply rocks man!
nothing can express my feelings now. feel so guilty and disappointed.. in my first badminton comp. i know u guys will b thr n will encourage me.. thanks.. but im jus sorry. too many things happening to me these days tt perhaps stolen my 'principle focus'. my heart, st john and my 2 dearest friends..
on top of all these.. i totally agree with cherr. our class is much more bonded now! esp the badminton grp & its supporters! its really great to have such a team of friends. yeah!
regards,
with lots of thanks and appologies..
Lingx

afa exam

can u imagine i went for st john at 5.30pm? haha..
usually i would sacrifice anything for st john.. but ..
friday was a short day. and my left knee is hurting!!
went hq for afa-re exam on sat. easy test man. oh, pia leong is so handsome. haha! he moved so close to me when im doing cpr!! haha.. he taught me to pinch and pull the nose harder.. hee.
okok.. then met this 29yrs old officer formerly from dhs.. he's very nice.. we crap ard wif him.. not forgetting the bandaging uncle.. i mean sir.. haha.. even funnier.. i did my favourite palm bandage. he see alredy and said "ok. passed." hahaahaa!
iya. well. knew this exam would b easy. hehee. afterall the qns are forever the same man.. so ambiguous. and if u put all ans as true.. i guarantee u will pass. haha!
oh.. had fun with mdm sim's sons too! oh.. her younger son, alestier kissed me! wahaha.. so cute man.. he's so hyperactive..
ok.. then went to eat with gela, chin and van at the army market. woo.. so long nve chat together.. den walked ard thr for cheap goods. hee.
nth much happened. yah. woke up damn early this morning.. lk 8am! duh.. loads of hmwk to do!! arhhH! take one step at a time. =)

bad training

still training for badminton like almost everyday. i am getting more n more enthu abt it. tts good! but my left knee hurts!!!
today's a fine day. started really well in the morning. its the first time i feel happy on thurs. haha. was happy all the way till the time when i need to get my ppl to get ready for photo taking. was pissed when they dont listen to me. too demanding i am?
was hyper again after that.. and once again, people want to step on my tail. not tt i want to say. i really cant stand those participating in ndp marching contigent. they just cant listen to the parade commander. he was giving instructions and others just want to show tt they're better by laughing at his command. tt is so bad! when everyone wants to be the leader, whose the follower? to be a good follower is more difficult than to be a good leader my dear.
oh. jus need to comment this in my blog. the bubble tea tt i like is peach red teaaaaaa!!! not peach milk tea!!! i dont take milk!! hahaa.. cant believe my dear cherr bought somethg really diff from wad i asked for. omg.
tml's friday. dont feel excited like how i usually do. weird. bad.

badminton matches!!!

weee. got so much to say about my 3 badminton matches!! =)
okiex. played girls double with holichu yesterday n today. yupiee!! we won all 3!!
yesterdae result: 17/14, 15/8
todays result: 11/4, 11/4
cool! its my first time joining a badminton competition and just started real training (meaning with footwork etc) 2 or 3 weeks ago! so impressed with myself. ahha. =x before the comp i was trembling like hell.. getting colder n colder.. didnt want to disappoint my shifus! luckily, the luck was in my court. hehee. ok, shall nt get too confident.. real show on next monday!
yesterdays match was fantastic. for the first set, we were both v.scared. but tried to remain as calm as possible ah. get so intense halfway thru tt i could feel as if my whole face turned red! red hot! haha.. really overwhelmed to win the first match. at least, we didnt get knock out straightaway. hee.
todays more challenging. against better players of coz. kenz and cherr played really well! they vs a school team player (from tpss but i duno who) and could pull the score as close as 11/10! though we lost, but still glab tt kenz hit the bloody cocky guy in his face n stomach! wahahaa!
the boys doubles are getting stronger n stronger. jas n yang really need to train more too. saw really cool shots by jas. haha. teach me net man! as for the boys single. no need to elaborate more, long my idol man! he's the champ! haha. of coz, hes our team, helix captain! hehe.
holichu!! we need to practise more.. haha! definitely expecting even scarier opponents next week. but shall do my best! helix, we're amazing! =)
im not losing focus..

angriest day.

my frens.
if you're reading my post. please, remember to be punctual whenever you meeting your friends. if you know you'll really be late, please remember to give one of them a call to inform. or at the least a message. i just had a horrible experience. and worse still, they are all guys and still don't know they are in fault. i feel cheated. the 30mins have woke me up. im not blinded anymore. i shouldnt be helping them. i shouldnt have trusted you all. its a painful yet good whack to my heart.
regards,
leeling

ndp training sux

went for ndp training in tpjc just now.
it sux!!! i dont want to fall in with u guys!! i mean.. duh.. why must i fall in man? when im now commanding ppl to fall in. ;)
ugh. so not used to it. only enjoyed crapping with sabrina. haha! we're like having our own fun! =P
certain BB and GB ppl i've seen. weird. saw ppl disgracing herself too. omg.
the teachers in charge were nice. keep saying they will reward us with goodie bags and nice testimonials. but the fact is tt im not here for all these. just tot tt i could take up a better post like contigent commander or.. than to hold the stupid state flag. ugghhh!
do slow march with the BB GB timing. sooo not right! we had so much arguments abt which command to use and which timing to follow. totally sucky.
the teachers dont know abt it too. duh.. leave it all to us. and when everyone wants to speak.. chaos!
went for zone meeting at hq yesterday nite. reached home at abt 11+. wah seh. sleep immediately man. so damn tired larh! didnt do hmwk either! the meeting went smoothly. saw pialeong! wee. so handsome! haha! and had fun with les and andy.
yarh. great. not enough sleep today and i lost my maths tys!!! realised it during like.. 2nd half of the day, maths lesson? duh..
went all ard the sch to find.. toilet, track, hall, canteen.. all until i went back to the civics classrm after my maths lesson, and haha! it was there! phew! so i've like left it there eversince morning the first period!! stupid me right! am alredi slow and my sleepiness made it worse!
im having eye bags n dark circles.. not enough sleep? or m i crying too much?

flew.

the moment u bid goodbye and walked further and further away from the departure gate.. all of a sudden, the thought tt u wont be telling me all ur fantastic stories and occurances made me feel terrible. many ppl came and sent u off. not all of us hav the time to wish u, hope u'll understand.
luckily met up with chin les fai gerald at tm after sending my cousin off. met fai and gerald first. after they left for movie, asked chin and les out to accompany me. thanks a lot man. i felt so much better after expressing my craziness. les right, my tears flow so easily this few days, and i believe there are more to come. chatted with them till abt 1. shoik ah!
crap. why does this post sounds so sad.. oh yarh! this is funny..
when my cousin, shengjie and i were crying. my 3rd aunt, the funniest one, came to us. and guess wad man! she sang "ni ku ni ku, xiao de na meh chan ku.."with actions too!! hahahaaa!! omg!!! really hilarious man.. we ended up bursting into laughters!
4yrsssss.. so long.. not even sure if u'll be back during ur hols. hai.. separation is part n parcel of life. but i jus cant accept.

jianhong's flight!

oh. yesterday after sch, went for first aid society exco interview.
wohoo. had fun with sabrina and adeline!! we all wrote tt we want the president post! muhaha.
felt really comfortable talking to sabrina. probaby coz we're both sj! =)
yeah. i had 8 j2 exco ppl looking at me and bombarding me with qns. haha. but well, wasnt really nervous larh. just acted normally and answered them. guess i cheated with loads of the qns. for example, "wad can u do for the cca?" "i can come up with games and courses to enhance their first aid knowledge." muhaahhaa! u think i will? =x im too committed to sj tt i dont tink i will pay much attention to this one.
ok. then went to tpss to get the result slips from the std3s to apply for their badges. why m i doing tt? helping hweechin out man! but i guess she doesnt even know im doing her job for her! called her so many times but didnt reply my call. ugh! must b enjoying her hols..
oh, looked up for mdm sim to pass her the cd with photogrps tt she needs for the yearbook. im efficient man. she wants it nextwk but i finished it yesterday! haha! great job! =P
went home after tt. slacked the whole day. went out again at 830pm to meet gerald les and fai for some sj matters. went home at 11.
oh man.. the clock is tickling. and i can still remember a month ago yipin left us for auz. and today, its my cousin, edwin/jianhong's turn! im upset. imagine going to a new environment, new country, meeting new ppl, new society! oh my gosh. its so painful to part. he's flying to sydney alone at 8pm tonight (SQ221)!! and there's no1 there whom he knew. hai. really wish he can adapt very quickly.. sending him off later.
all the best to u, jianhong!! tkcare & study hard there! dont miss us too much! =P
oh, jus had badminton again. guess wad. last week was fun but this time wasnt!! all my shifus were so eager to correct robyn and me! muhaha.. thanks larh but was quite mind torturing to play the game and yet keep remindin myself to stretch, to take bigger steps, to use wrist, to run!!! hahaa.. i wasnt really enjoying this time. and the worse is tt the badminton competition coming!! shitx..
my eyes were shocked by urs everytime. they tried running awy. but were paralysed. when they saw u lookin at others, they somehow sense no difference. so perhaps, they dont want to face the reality, or shuld i say, no1 is proving them.

tpjc council investiture

today is tpjc student council investiture.
the j2s councilors step down and the j1s take up their posts.
oh. the ceremony was quite grand. the musics they played were nice!
they made it so sad that some of the j2s councilors cried, even i felt sad too. haha.
the j2s took off their council badges signifying their official step down! so poorthing!
i truly understand how they feel.. just like my own st john passing out ceremony last yr!!
dont feel like leaving. but have to. oh i cried like hell during my speech larh! sick.
oh, hav to mention those annoying ppl sitting behind. how many times i feel like turning back and give them each one tight slap man! ppl put in effort to make this ceremony and they r like criticising every single thing and making fun of it. its a shame and disgrace to have such ppl in our college, in our country! no sense of appreciation! pissed.
do u know passing out is when u feel how much u've underwent and achieved?
friendship, love, leadership, management skills, hardship, tolerance - stronger bond, greater strength!
when u're so commited, u become obssess unknowingly.
ugh. wad crap im typing. tml's friday again! my day!! weee~
oh! better get bak to my james watson book! =P

sj photo taking

went bak to tpss for sjab photo taking!~
oh man.. when it was our turn to take, it rains!!
haha.. the raindrop keeps falling on my spects!! and i cant use my u to wipe! duh..
well as usual, i sat infront! hahaa.. grace damn funny larh! dragged me to the right side to aviod sitting beside the digusting ms eeeeeeee.. hahaha!
oh.. so funny remindin les not to cross his hands like in the past when he did.. hehe.
then ate together with gela, chin, nana, van, les, ger at LJS. walked around and went homee..
sian. haven touch a single hmwork today. is there hmwork anyway? haha!
heck lah. need to rest again.. =P
reached hm started doing the compilation of sj photos for mdm sim. was quite ez with the help of my sis with the photoshop progg. satisfied with my work! muhahaa!
oh shitz. jus realised i haven do my eom for proj work!!! arhhhH!!!
wad da....... heck ah! ahahahaa..
feelllllllllll somethg stronger n stronger.. is it true? or jus my fantasy?
tata~