heart-broken

my thoughts were to let them enjoy.
let them try out new things.
let them relax.
having others interest before me.
ended up with a rejection.

disappointed?
maybe. but I'm rather shocked at my unusual calmness.

maybe had too much disappointments.
till everything seems so normal and feels so numb.

fake a few times and it'll just become norm.

thank God I'm still breathing.
I'm really tired.

i've tried.
i really did.
and i think my heart cannot take it anymore.