i pray. to end all these.

i pray. i pray and i prayed.
i pray to God for love, for happiness, for peace.

yes they may be right that i don't have to bear this all.
i don't have to worry, i just need to do what I'm needed to.

is that true?
i can't be selfish and care only about my own happiness can i?
i can't be short sighted and care only about now and not future can i?

i really don't know how to enjoy.
i really don't know what to do.
i spend so much time and effort contemplating even the smallest little family issue.
at the end all i get is, to let go and take it easy.

have i been taking it too much on myself?
am i to pity myself now?

i really don't know.
everything simply so pointless now.

honestly, if i die tomorrow, i die with no regrets already.
please God, let me go if thats easier.

every step i take is like a battle to fight.
I'm losing faith and losing strength.
i don't know what to do and how to do it.
for 28 years to be, I'm still on the same spot.

i don't want to live anymore.
i have had good friends. i have had great buddies at work. i have had superb bosses.
I'm contented and i cannot ask for more.
i love work, i love my colleagues, i love my friends more than anyone else.
and for that, i thank God for them.

with these, I'm proud to say, I've lived.
thank you and good bye.

take me away please.

AMEN

Please don't play with my heart

Pending: NY Reso

4.Jan.2016.

Monday.

New Year Resolutions

(1) 

How to be a better person?

you built it yourself

heart ache.

year on year, achieved nothing.
future is bleak.

i miss you.

Merry Christmas

Christmas

In just 365 days, so much has changed.

Feelings changed. Place changed. Current changed. Future changed.

Please answer my prayers please.

Today, i met two very fortunate women.

How i wish i could be just as lucky.

I really wish, i am lucky too.

In this season of giving, i give thanks to the men in my life.

I thank you for being there as a support and letting me know that you guys care.

I am blessed after all.

Thank you my men(:

Merry Christmas.

#itsalotlikechristmas

I continue to pray for a better christmas next year

im sorry

interestingly
just over 1 night (or 2)
biological hormones work its way.

never dropped an eye before.
and i think we both felt the same.
then again, pretty sure its not lasting either.

its weird how God made us feel love.
but i really do need love i can call mine.

its hard to control
its hard to say no
and I'm upset because
i realise my principles weren't so strong after all.

Dear God,
Please bless me with blissfulness and happiness.

i miss you

period.