you're my everything

time to stop and feel the world with your inner senses
time to know yourself
to give yourself the chance to live the life you want

Its not going to be easy
Its going to be different
walk out and walk far
don't look back

everything will simply fall into place

pray for me
to find me

you

this seems to be the pouring platform
for things that stay entangled in the heart
just doesn't seem to get out of it

i prayed and thought its over
but moment like this still stumped me
taken aback by how significant the impact is on yours truly
its really depressing to know,
i never got over it

i really want to be good
to be praying for your well wishes
but not only did i not able to do that
i seemed to be feeling really unjust

how could someone forget his roots
forget entirely who and how others helped you to get to where you are today
who paved the way for you
who motivated you and believed in you when the entire world doesn't !

all i ask for, is a thank you.

save me

and its black friday today.
today i lost my gold bracelet.

it isn't so much about the money.
but more about the value and meaning.
so, this is how it feels like to lose something.

positivity is diminishing.
so difficult and almost impossible.
gave it all and yet more disappointment than not.

i pray to God. and i pray again.
simplicity is bliss.

please give me the strength to carry on.
hold faith stronger.
and closer to heart.

i just want to sit in the Adoration room and stay in silence....

nobody is nice

I'm neither saint
its really hard to accept it

do i really have to act like i'm fine?

i'm NOT FINE!
i hate you!
I curse you!
i want you to suffer! worst than what I'm going through!
knowing that you do badly, will help me to feel better

i dont deserve this

bless other is to bless self

thank God for letting me know
for making me let go

twice and i felt that you helped me
im thankful and appreciate how you carry me through

same as i said to him before
i still wish him (them) bliss and happiness

true love is not necessary to spend it with you
but to let you have love your way

knowing that you're happy
im glad

heartache no

and so everything was a lie.
why. why is it me?
it hurts inside out.

it takes all my might to conceal.
my strength to behave normally.
my everything, to continue smiling.

tears no longer mean anything.
hope all crash.
you bring me up and hit me hard.

maybe i need to learn the hard way.
maybe this is how i need to move on.

but.
i dontknow what to do next.

am always there for you
and who's there when i needed you the most

Guide me please

i'm the kind, who will just act like there's nothing wrong
act like everything is great
so that others will not be worried for me.

i'm the kind, who will just act like i don't care
act like you don't matter
so that i will suffer alone.

i'm the kind, who will always be there if you need me
and be away when I'm not needed
because i don't want to put you in a spot.

i'm really tired of doing these.
life is short.
and i need to live life to my fullest.

but how?